It's kind of short and I'm not really sure that I even like it but after rewriting it three different times this is the version that I had the least amount of problems with.
I cupped his face with my hand and leaned forward and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
" I'm sorry that you felt that way. I never ment to make you feel bad." I said hoping he could hear the sincerity in my voice
" I know and I didn't tell you to try to make you feel bad either." he said as he grabbed my hand and gave it a squeeze as I sat back.
" You aren't going to go all " My Bests Friends Wedding" on me are you?" I asked only half joking. He grinned at me and shook his head.
" Don't worry, I wasn't planning on it. Beside's I'm way to good looking to play Julia Robert's character anyways." he joked, seemingly back to his old self again.
" You know you are right about one thing though." I said not wanting things to get serious again but feeling like I had to let him know something. He didn't say anything as he waited for me to continue.
" I do love you in my own way. You are one of the most important people in my life and have been for a very long time and if that were to ever change I don't know what I would do."
He smiled at me again and pulled on my arm until I was practically sitting on his lap. He put his arm around my shoulders and pulled me into his side. I leaned against him and put my head on his chest and let out a slow breath. I felt horrible that he had been unhappy because of me, even if I had never had a clue but there wasn't anything I could do about it now. I loved Patrick and AJ and I knew that he loved Karri or otherwise he wouldn't have even considered marriage, much less went out and bought a ring. I was content with the way that my life was turning out but there was a small part of me that couldn't help but think what if. What if he had said something years ago? Would that have changed anything or would it not have mattered? I shook my head like my thoughts could be erased like an etchasketch drawing. I turned my head as I heard some noise come from the room that AJ was in and I had to go get him before he got grumpy. I stood up and turned around to look at him one more time before I left the room.
" There isn't going to be any weirdness now is there?" I asked to make sure that there wouldn't be
" Nope no weirdness." he said agreeably
I still wasn't sure why he had decided to tell me what he did but I had a suspicion that it had to do with the alcohol and meds and I really hoped that it wouldn't get weird because I didn't want to have to deal with what might happen if it did. I handed over AJ at his request. I watched as he played with him and I wasn't surprised that it only took a few minutes for Adam to get him laughing. I got out my laptop and started to look for potential jobs and I found a few that sounded like they might fit and I made notes in a notebook so I could call later. After I was done with that I decided to check my email which was something that I wasn't great at doing on a regular basis. I emailed my mother and Olivia to let them know how things were going and I emailed them some newer pictures that had been taken of the three of us. We didn't do much talking for the rest of the night and finally after eating supper and putting the baby down I told him that I was really tired and went to lie down upstairs in one of the guest rooms.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
update soon
I'm just letting you guys know that I'm really hoping to get an update done soon. I would have had one up by now but I have written two different versions and didn't like either of them so it will be a little longer. And I'm not going to lie that it isn't helping that I have been totally distracted by the playoffs either so I have been having a hard time just finding the time to write. Hope you guys are doing well and thanks for sticking with me!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Feel Like I Have To Apologize
So about the last post. I had a meltdown yesterday. I mean a complete utter meltdown that at one point included sitting in my car for an hour crying after I got sent home from work for freaking out badly. The worst part is that the manager that yelled at me and sent me home is someone that I really like and respect so I know that I was being stupid because she has never had to do that in the year that I have worked there and she tells me all of the time that I am one of her favorite people to work with. I know that the problem isn't this story and people not commenting and it isn't the people that I work with but in all honesty it's me. I am trying to adjust to being a single parent and being responsible for everything since his father left me a little over two months ago and I think that it's pretty safe to say that I am not doing a very good job of it. I just feel like I've lost control over my life and I hate it and even moreso I hate myself for not being strong enough to deal with it. I am giving some serious thought to talking to a psychologist and maybe even being put on some medication because of the depression and severe mood swings that I have been experiencing. Anyway I am trying to say that I am sorry and that I do intend to continue with this and my other story but honestly I can't make any promises as to when that may happen but this is one of the few things that are keeping me from going completely nuts right now so I think that it will be sooner rather than later. Sorry for dumping all of my problems on you guys but I just wanted you to understand where I was coming from.
Friday, April 16, 2010
not updating anymore
So I had the absolute shittiest night at work tonight and frankly my whole life has been in the toliet the last couple of months. It would have been really nice to come home and read at least one comment on the last chapter I posted since I have twelve followers but apparently that is asking to much. So I think that I am going to be done with this for at least awhile if not permantly. I am sick of wasting my time and frankly if no one is reading I have better things that I can be doing with my time.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Up In The Air Chapter 30
Sorry this is so long. I got an idea but I wasn't quite sure how to get where I wanted to go. So I hope you enjoy it.
We made our way past security and into the locker room. I wasn't sure where to go but I saw some people in hawks clothes so we went over to them to find out. We were told that they had just gotten him off the ice and that the team doctor was looking at him and that we were probably going to have to wait until they were finished before we could see him. We were directed to go to the family lounge and wait until someone came to get us. I could tell that Karri was frusterated and so was I but we did as we were told and went to wait.
" Do you think that he tore his alc again?" she said with the worry evident in her voice
I shrugged my shoulders.
" It could be anything really. Let's hope it's a sprain or something that won't be to serious."
She nodded her head but didn't look convinced. I wasn't sure that I was convienced but I had to hope because if it was another alc tear there was a very real possibility that it could end his career and I couldn't even fathom the thought of what it would do to him. Finally one of the medical interns came and told us that we could see him. I let Karri see him first and when she came out she was nearly in tears.
" They did an xray and they can't see anything but they are sending him to the doctor that did his surgery to make sure that there isn't something there that they can't see."
I pulled her into a tight hug and tried to calm her down.
" It will be okay, I promise. I'm going to go check on him. I'll be right back." I let go of her and went into the room that she had just come out of. He was laying back on the table still in his underarmour and they had elevated his leg.
" Hey sweetie how are you doing?" I asked as he lifted his head to look at me
" I've been better. They aren't sure if I did more damage or what is going on." I could tell that he was still in pain but was trying to be a tough guy and not show it. They had already called the doctor and got him an appointment but it was going to be three days until he could get in and I could tell that he wasn't happy about it. I wanted to stay a little while longer but he insisted that I should get back to the game and I wasn't about to argue with him in the pissy mood that he was in. I went and saw that Karri hadn't came back to her seat and even though I was worried I had to take care of my son. I took him back from Anna and told her what little I knew. I got a call from Karri letting me know that they had put a brace on him and gave him a pair of crutches before sending them home.
" Call me if you need any help with anything. I have a feeling that he's going to get really cranky from sitting around the house."
" Thanks for the warning. I'll talk to you later."
I went after the game and the locker room was pretty silent even though they had won. I knew that it had to be hard to see a teammate that was so well liked being helped off of the ice. We drove home in silence and I didn't push the issue. I knew that he would talk about it if and when he wanted too.
We made our way past security and into the locker room. I wasn't sure where to go but I saw some people in hawks clothes so we went over to them to find out. We were told that they had just gotten him off the ice and that the team doctor was looking at him and that we were probably going to have to wait until they were finished before we could see him. We were directed to go to the family lounge and wait until someone came to get us. I could tell that Karri was frusterated and so was I but we did as we were told and went to wait.
" Do you think that he tore his alc again?" she said with the worry evident in her voice
I shrugged my shoulders.
" It could be anything really. Let's hope it's a sprain or something that won't be to serious."
She nodded her head but didn't look convinced. I wasn't sure that I was convienced but I had to hope because if it was another alc tear there was a very real possibility that it could end his career and I couldn't even fathom the thought of what it would do to him. Finally one of the medical interns came and told us that we could see him. I let Karri see him first and when she came out she was nearly in tears.
" They did an xray and they can't see anything but they are sending him to the doctor that did his surgery to make sure that there isn't something there that they can't see."
I pulled her into a tight hug and tried to calm her down.
" It will be okay, I promise. I'm going to go check on him. I'll be right back." I let go of her and went into the room that she had just come out of. He was laying back on the table still in his underarmour and they had elevated his leg.
" Hey sweetie how are you doing?" I asked as he lifted his head to look at me
" I've been better. They aren't sure if I did more damage or what is going on." I could tell that he was still in pain but was trying to be a tough guy and not show it. They had already called the doctor and got him an appointment but it was going to be three days until he could get in and I could tell that he wasn't happy about it. I wanted to stay a little while longer but he insisted that I should get back to the game and I wasn't about to argue with him in the pissy mood that he was in. I went and saw that Karri hadn't came back to her seat and even though I was worried I had to take care of my son. I took him back from Anna and told her what little I knew. I got a call from Karri letting me know that they had put a brace on him and gave him a pair of crutches before sending them home.
" Call me if you need any help with anything. I have a feeling that he's going to get really cranky from sitting around the house."
" Thanks for the warning. I'll talk to you later."
I went after the game and the locker room was pretty silent even though they had won. I knew that it had to be hard to see a teammate that was so well liked being helped off of the ice. We drove home in silence and I didn't push the issue. I knew that he would talk about it if and when he wanted too.
We spent his off day just hanging out as a family. I offered to pack his clothes so he could spend some time with the baby. When I was finished I went to peek in on them to see what they were doing. AJ was sitting up and Pat had given him one of those little mini sticks and he was trying to bat at a ball that was sitting in front of him. Patrick was trying to encourage him and when he finally hit it Patrick raised his arms and cheered which caused AJ to laugh. I didn't want to interupt but the babys routines were just as important as Pats.
" Hey babe. Can you feed AJ while I make supper please?"
" Sure. We will be right down." he said as he got up off the floor. Aj lifted up his arms as Patrick came and picked him up and I headed downstairs to start supper. He sat him in his high chair and started to try to feed him some baby food which went over surprisingly well. He had really been making alot of noise lately and we knew that it wouldn't be to long until he started to actually talk. He was banging a spoon on the tray and as I turned around I could of swore that I heard him say Dada.
" Hey did you hear that?" Patrick asked me as I turned around. Unfortuantly for us he wasn't a circus pony and couldn't be talked into performing on command. After dinner was done we were sitting around watching t.v when I got a phone call.
" So we got into the doctors early since they had a cancellation today and they told us that as far as they can tell that it's just a bad sprain."
" That's great news." I said relieved to not hear worse news
" Yeah but they figure that he's still going to be out for at least a couple of weeks. Now he's all pissy at me because I want to cancel the plans that I made while he was suppose to be gone. He say's I'm treating him like a baby." she complained to me
" If you want AJ and I can come over and take care of him while you go out of town. I don't have anything planned other than job hunting and I can do that on my laptop."
" Are you sure?" she asked with hesitation in her voice
" Yeah. You know that I would do anything for you two and it sounds like you need a vacation."
She let out what I percieved as a sigh of relief.
" Between this and school I really do need to get away for awhile. I really appreciate it. I'm pretty sure that you are the only one who can deal with his mopey ass right about now."
" No problem. I'll be over tomorrow sometime in the afternoon." I hung up my phone and went to let Patrick know what was going on. He was glad that it wasn't something more serious and told me to make sure that I took care of him while everyone was gone. We said our goodbyes that night in bed since he had to be up super early to get to the airport to head out to Calgary. The next day I woke up to an empty bed and the baby crying and after I got us both fed and ready I packed a small bag and headed over to Burs place. I let myself in and set the bag down on the floor before heading inside to find him. He was sitting on the couch with his leg elevated and he greeted the both of us while I sat down beside him. He took AJ out of my arms and sat him on his lap.
" So..." I prompted trying to start a conversation without being pushy
He sighed and looked at me.
" I hate sitting here feeling useless and then I have Karri treating me like an invalid on top of it."
" She isn't doing it on purpose. She's just worried about you." I tried to remind him without pissing him off even more.
" I know that, I really do it's just it makes me feel like one of her patients and not like her boyfriend you know.
I understood how he felt, I really did but at the same time I understood what Karri was going through too. It was going to be her job to take care of people and she was taking care of him in the best way that she knew how. I left him in the living room with AJ while I made us a quick lunch of tuna fish sandwiches. I handed him a plate and and he put AJ in the crook of one arm while he ate the sandwich with the other hand. He seemed a little more cheerful then when I had first shown up and for that I was glad. We settled into watch a movie while that baby took his nap in the portable crib that they had bought for times when we were over. He talked me into getting a beer for him even though I knew he shouldn't be drinking while taking even a low dose of pain meds. I cut him off after three since he seemed like he was already getting tipsy and I knew that wasn't normal. He laid back on the couch with his eyes closed and I was positive that he had dosed off so I was startled when he started to smile than laugh. I was about to ask him if he had gone completely nuts when he asked me a question.
" Do you remember the night that we met?" he asked opening his eyes to look at me
" Are you kidding me? How could I forget what is still probably one of the top ten most embarrasing moments of my life?" I said with a groan
" Yeah it had to have been horrible falling and giving yourself a cuncussion when you weren't even moving." he said with a laugh.
My friend had talked me into going out to the annual skate with the badgers and even though I couldn't skate worth a crap I let myself be talked into putting on a pair of skates and going onto the ice. My friend then proceeded to ditch me to flirt with some of the guys. I stood there by myself for awhile when I saw Adam and one of his teammates start in my direction and I spazzed out and tried to move and immediaetly fell over and hit my head on the ice. The next thing that I remember is waking up in one of the training rooms with a bunch of people standing over me freaking out. Luckily the worst thing that I got out of the whole incident was a headache. I found out after the fact that I had been carried off of the ice by Adam and he felt so bad that he had stuck around and offered to take me home after I convinced the medics that I didn't need to go to the hospital. We started talking in his car and after having a really good conversation we kept in contact and ended up becoming friends that we were today.
" I never told you that the reason that we were coming over was that I had a bet that I could get you to agree to go out me before Pavelski."
" You were going to ask me out on a date? Really?" I asked surprised that this was the first that I had ever heard of it
" Yeah why not? You were hot and funny and actually knew something about hockey and you just seemed to get me. What wasn't there to like?"
I was having a hard time wrapping my head around what he was telling me.
" You thought I was hot?" I asked repeating what he was telling me like I had some form of speech impediment.
" Yeah I did."
" Why didn't you ever say anything?" I asked him curious to hear his explanation.
He shrugged his shoulders and thought about it before he anwsered.
" You were dating that douchebag when we first met and even though I couldn't stand him I knew that if I had anything to do with breaking you two up that you would blame me and after what he did to you it just didn't seem right to try. Then I got stuck in the friends zone and after awhile I got over it. I would rather be there for you as a friend than not have you in my life at all and I've always known that you care about me, just not that way.
I didn't say anything as I studied his face intently. He had a few more lines on his face than when I had first met him but mostly he looked the same. His bright blue eyes watched me as he waited for some kind of response. I didn't even begin to know what to say to what he had revealed to me. I brought my hand up and traced the like of his jaw with the pads of my fingers as I tried to sort through what I was feeling.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
To Tired To Think Of A Name Chapter 29
Thanks for the emails and comments. They really did help alot. I still haven't fully decided what I'm going to do yet but I think that I am going to go one chapter at a time after this one and see what happens. If I still feel like I'm forcing it to much than I will have to make a decision about what to do. One thing that I love about the blogging community is that even though most of us will never know each other in real life, you guys will take the time to be supportive of me and each other and I think that's amazing. Anyway's here is the latest update. Hope you enjoy and comments pretty please?
Everything seemed to go back to some semblance of normal in the weeks that followed. I don't think that Anna and I would ever be as close as we had been before but I was happy to have her in my life in any way that was possible. I still felt like a piece was missing, I just couldn't figure out what it was. It took getting a call from my old co-worker Olivia to make me realize what it was. We chatted for a little while and got caught up on what had been going on with our lifes.
" So have you went back to work yet?" she asked
" No not yet." I admitted feeling slightly useless
" I know that it's important job being a mother and it's not like you need the money but you were damn good at being a nurse and that had to be hard to give up."
" Yeah it was hard to give up. I never wanted to live off of Patrick's money but that's exactly what ended up happening."
" Sweetie this isn't about money. I just believe that you should be able to have a life outside of your family. If you don't than you might end up resenting him down the road and that won't end well."
I knew that she was right. It finally dawned on me what I was missing. I loved Patrick and Aj but ever since I had quit my job the only people that I associated with were people that had to do with his world. I missed being able to meet and help new people everyday and I missed the bond that you can only get when you work besides someone.
" I don't know how Patrick will feel about me wanting to go back to work."
" He seems like a reasonable young man. Just let him know how you feel and I'm sure that it will be fine."
I wasn't sure about that but I knew that I owed it to myself to try. I went about the rest of my day and when I had a little while to myself I got on the internet and did some searching. I found a few things that looked interesting and more importantly they were part time, which was something that was important to me. I wanted to be able to balance my life and work and I didn't see that happening if I jumped back into full time work. I was trying to get laundry done when he got back from practice. He came in and found me and greeted me. I wasn't sure how to bring up what was on my mind but I ended up not having to.
" Are you planning on telling me what's on your mind or are you going to make me guess?" he asked giving me a smile
" Am I that easy to read?" I asked him already knowing what the anwser would be
" Yes, now what's going on? You aren't planning on leaving me are you?" He tried to play it off like he was joking but I could tell that he was a little worried
" Nothing like that babe. It's just that I was talking with Olivia today and it made me realize how much I missed working."
" So are you trying to tell me that you want to go back to work?"
I couldn't figure out the tone of his voice so I bit my lip and nodded.
" But it will only be part time though." I added quickly
" That's fine. I always figured you'd want to go back at some point."
I expected him to argue or throw a fit and when he was so calm about it it threw me off.
" That's it?"
He just looked at me like I was handicapped or something
" Um yeah that's it. "
I should have just left it alone but I couldn't do it.
" Aren't you mad?"
He came and took the shirt out of my hands and put his hands on either side of me so I had to look at him.
" Babe I'm not mad. I never expected you to become some leave it to beaver house wife. If going back to work is what makes you happy then I'll support you. I know that you will figure out how to balance everything."
I grabbed a fistful of his shirt so I could pull him closer to me.
" Thanks for being so understanding."
" Your welcome." he leaned over and started to kiss my neck
" Is the baby down for his nap?" he whispered in my ear
" Yeah. Ten minutes ago." I said in a slightly high pitched voice
I could feel him smile against my skin.
" Good we should have some time than."
He grabbed me by the ass and lifted me up onto the dryer that I had been leaning against. I wrapped my legs around his waist to get him as close as possible to me as he leaned over and started to attack my neck again with his lips. His hand crept under my shirt and started to stroke my breast through the lacy fabric of my bra. I wasted no time getting stripped down to nothing and Patrick quickly followed suit. He grabbed me underneath the knees and slid me forward and my hands gripped the edge of the dryer. He slid into me slowly and I leaned back as the sensations started to course through my body. I let him know just how much I was enjoying it by the noises that I was making. His mouth caught mine in a kiss that stifled my moans as he moved in and out of me at a faster pace and I could feel my muscles tighten around him as my orgasm came closer. It washed over me all of a sudden and my whole body tensed as I moaned his name. Almost fifteen minutes later he came with a shudder.
" Love you babe." he whispered into my ear
" Love you too." I whispered back
He finally let go of me and we both slid our clothes back on. He had a game later that night and still had to lie down for his own nap. I didn't want to break his routine anymore than we already had so I left him alone as I went to check on AJ and shower since I felt all sweaty and gross after our encouter in the laundry room. I peeked into the bedroom and grinned when I saw him already passed out on the bed. I thought about crawling into bed with him to take a nap but I didn't want to disturb him since I had already thrown off his game day routine off and I didn't want to deal with him cranky if he didn't play well. I went downstairs and tried to finish the laundry that I had started before he came home. I kept myself busy and then started an early dinner which was the normal hockey players diet of pasta chicken and broccoli. I heated up a bottle and went to wake my boys up. I gave AJ his bottle and Patrick came down and quickly ate and then went to get ready since the game was a little earlier than normal. I was debating on whether or not I was going to go and the fact that AJ was in a good mood made me decide to go. I got us both ready and we left with Patrick even though it would be kind of early since I wanted to see the guys for a few minutes before they started to get ready. I went around the room so that the guys could say hello to the baby. I smiled as he giggled and played with a puck that seabs had given him. The last person that I saw before Patrick was Burs and when we walked up to him he was flexing his leg with a slight grimace of pain on his face. It was the same leg that he had to have surgery on not once but twice in the past and I was concerned.
" Is your knee bothering you again?" I asked as I sat down on the bench next to him
" A little. I think that I tweaked it a little at practice this morning." he admitted as he put his foot back on the ground
" You know that you have to be careful. It would be really easy to reinjure it since you've had surgery on it once already." I admonished
" Yes mother I know and if it gets any worse I'll get it checked out okay?" he said with a grin
" You better or I'll kick your ass." I said as I got up and kissed his cheek and went to Patrick so AJ could see him and I could wish him luck before we went to our seats. I met Anna and Karri at our usual spot and we all went down to our seats. The game started and we cheered as the guys started play against a really hot Avalanche team. It was almost the end of the first period when I saw Adam come onto the ice with his linemates. I held my breath as they got control of the puck and brought it up the ice. Adam was forced to the outside and he went to pass the puck. Out of the corner of my eye I saw someone come flying in and Adam fell to the ice as whoever it was checked him into the boards. It was like I was watching what was going on in slow motion as he fell, clutching at the knee that he had been complaining about only a little while before. I gave the baby to Anna who took him without a word. I grabbed Karri's hand and we pretty much ran in the direction of the lockerrooms. I knew that it would take a few minutes to get him up and off of the ice but I wanted to be there when they brought him in. I wouldn't be alright until I made sure that my best friend was okay.
Everything seemed to go back to some semblance of normal in the weeks that followed. I don't think that Anna and I would ever be as close as we had been before but I was happy to have her in my life in any way that was possible. I still felt like a piece was missing, I just couldn't figure out what it was. It took getting a call from my old co-worker Olivia to make me realize what it was. We chatted for a little while and got caught up on what had been going on with our lifes.
" So have you went back to work yet?" she asked
" No not yet." I admitted feeling slightly useless
" I know that it's important job being a mother and it's not like you need the money but you were damn good at being a nurse and that had to be hard to give up."
" Yeah it was hard to give up. I never wanted to live off of Patrick's money but that's exactly what ended up happening."
" Sweetie this isn't about money. I just believe that you should be able to have a life outside of your family. If you don't than you might end up resenting him down the road and that won't end well."
I knew that she was right. It finally dawned on me what I was missing. I loved Patrick and Aj but ever since I had quit my job the only people that I associated with were people that had to do with his world. I missed being able to meet and help new people everyday and I missed the bond that you can only get when you work besides someone.
" I don't know how Patrick will feel about me wanting to go back to work."
" He seems like a reasonable young man. Just let him know how you feel and I'm sure that it will be fine."
I wasn't sure about that but I knew that I owed it to myself to try. I went about the rest of my day and when I had a little while to myself I got on the internet and did some searching. I found a few things that looked interesting and more importantly they were part time, which was something that was important to me. I wanted to be able to balance my life and work and I didn't see that happening if I jumped back into full time work. I was trying to get laundry done when he got back from practice. He came in and found me and greeted me. I wasn't sure how to bring up what was on my mind but I ended up not having to.
" Are you planning on telling me what's on your mind or are you going to make me guess?" he asked giving me a smile
" Am I that easy to read?" I asked him already knowing what the anwser would be
" Yes, now what's going on? You aren't planning on leaving me are you?" He tried to play it off like he was joking but I could tell that he was a little worried
" Nothing like that babe. It's just that I was talking with Olivia today and it made me realize how much I missed working."
" So are you trying to tell me that you want to go back to work?"
I couldn't figure out the tone of his voice so I bit my lip and nodded.
" But it will only be part time though." I added quickly
" That's fine. I always figured you'd want to go back at some point."
I expected him to argue or throw a fit and when he was so calm about it it threw me off.
" That's it?"
He just looked at me like I was handicapped or something
" Um yeah that's it. "
I should have just left it alone but I couldn't do it.
" Aren't you mad?"
He came and took the shirt out of my hands and put his hands on either side of me so I had to look at him.
" Babe I'm not mad. I never expected you to become some leave it to beaver house wife. If going back to work is what makes you happy then I'll support you. I know that you will figure out how to balance everything."
I grabbed a fistful of his shirt so I could pull him closer to me.
" Thanks for being so understanding."
" Your welcome." he leaned over and started to kiss my neck
" Is the baby down for his nap?" he whispered in my ear
" Yeah. Ten minutes ago." I said in a slightly high pitched voice
I could feel him smile against my skin.
" Good we should have some time than."
He grabbed me by the ass and lifted me up onto the dryer that I had been leaning against. I wrapped my legs around his waist to get him as close as possible to me as he leaned over and started to attack my neck again with his lips. His hand crept under my shirt and started to stroke my breast through the lacy fabric of my bra. I wasted no time getting stripped down to nothing and Patrick quickly followed suit. He grabbed me underneath the knees and slid me forward and my hands gripped the edge of the dryer. He slid into me slowly and I leaned back as the sensations started to course through my body. I let him know just how much I was enjoying it by the noises that I was making. His mouth caught mine in a kiss that stifled my moans as he moved in and out of me at a faster pace and I could feel my muscles tighten around him as my orgasm came closer. It washed over me all of a sudden and my whole body tensed as I moaned his name. Almost fifteen minutes later he came with a shudder.
" Love you babe." he whispered into my ear
" Love you too." I whispered back
He finally let go of me and we both slid our clothes back on. He had a game later that night and still had to lie down for his own nap. I didn't want to break his routine anymore than we already had so I left him alone as I went to check on AJ and shower since I felt all sweaty and gross after our encouter in the laundry room. I peeked into the bedroom and grinned when I saw him already passed out on the bed. I thought about crawling into bed with him to take a nap but I didn't want to disturb him since I had already thrown off his game day routine off and I didn't want to deal with him cranky if he didn't play well. I went downstairs and tried to finish the laundry that I had started before he came home. I kept myself busy and then started an early dinner which was the normal hockey players diet of pasta chicken and broccoli. I heated up a bottle and went to wake my boys up. I gave AJ his bottle and Patrick came down and quickly ate and then went to get ready since the game was a little earlier than normal. I was debating on whether or not I was going to go and the fact that AJ was in a good mood made me decide to go. I got us both ready and we left with Patrick even though it would be kind of early since I wanted to see the guys for a few minutes before they started to get ready. I went around the room so that the guys could say hello to the baby. I smiled as he giggled and played with a puck that seabs had given him. The last person that I saw before Patrick was Burs and when we walked up to him he was flexing his leg with a slight grimace of pain on his face. It was the same leg that he had to have surgery on not once but twice in the past and I was concerned.
" Is your knee bothering you again?" I asked as I sat down on the bench next to him
" A little. I think that I tweaked it a little at practice this morning." he admitted as he put his foot back on the ground
" You know that you have to be careful. It would be really easy to reinjure it since you've had surgery on it once already." I admonished
" Yes mother I know and if it gets any worse I'll get it checked out okay?" he said with a grin
" You better or I'll kick your ass." I said as I got up and kissed his cheek and went to Patrick so AJ could see him and I could wish him luck before we went to our seats. I met Anna and Karri at our usual spot and we all went down to our seats. The game started and we cheered as the guys started play against a really hot Avalanche team. It was almost the end of the first period when I saw Adam come onto the ice with his linemates. I held my breath as they got control of the puck and brought it up the ice. Adam was forced to the outside and he went to pass the puck. Out of the corner of my eye I saw someone come flying in and Adam fell to the ice as whoever it was checked him into the boards. It was like I was watching what was going on in slow motion as he fell, clutching at the knee that he had been complaining about only a little while before. I gave the baby to Anna who took him without a word. I grabbed Karri's hand and we pretty much ran in the direction of the lockerrooms. I knew that it would take a few minutes to get him up and off of the ice but I wanted to be there when they brought him in. I wouldn't be alright until I made sure that my best friend was okay.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Not A Post But Need Advice Please
So here's the deal and please comment cause I really would like some feedback. I've said it in a previous post but I really want to say it again. It is beyond amazing to me that there are people out there that actually not only read but enjoy what I have to write. To say that I was shocked when I saw that I had my first follower, not to mention my first comment, would be the understatement of the century. I also know that I follow blogs for several of you and know how talented you ladies are and that makes it even more special to me that you would take the time out of your lives to read what I have written. So I want to say thank you for all of the support and comments. This story has at times served as a kind of distraction for me when my real life has been falling apart and this is my question. When you guys did your stories when did you know that it was time to end them? I kind of feel like I am holding on to this like my first high school boyfriend. It was great at first but then it kind of got sucky but you stuck with them because they were your first and even if you know it wasn't the greatest you are comfortable with them. I'm not really sure if that makes any sense or not but hopefully it does. It might also be because I'm having a little bit of writers block so I really don't know what to do. I'd really hate to write some lame-ass ending and in a few weeks think of something. Ugg I'm so confused right now. Any advice or help would be greatly appreciated. If you don't want to post a comment I can be emailed at wispensfan258711@gmail.com
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