The Circus Is In Town Chapter 18

I rubbed my huge belly as I surveyed the men that were putting painting the room that we had decided to make into a nursery. I went downstairs to finish putting together lunch when I heard two familiar voices in the kitchen.

" Did she tell you why she won't marry you?"

" She said that being pregnant wasn't a good enough reason to get married."

" Did you tell her that wasn't the only reason. That you were going to ask her anyways?"

" Yeah but she didn't want to hear it. Those damn hormones are making her crazy. Just yesterday I walked into the living room and I didn't even say anything and she started yelling at me about how fat she was and that it was all my fault. Then she started to cry and locked herself in the bathroom for an hour."

" Man that is crazy"

I had heard enough. I walked into the kitchen and went right to Tazer, ignoring Patrick. He looked relieved as I greeted him with a smile and a kiss.

" How are you feeling."

" Considering I feel and look like the goodyear blimp, pretty good. You know when I'm not acting crazy." I added to let Patrick know that I had heard their conversation

Poor Tazer looked like a deer caught in the headlights and he nervously rubbed the back of his neck.

" Umm I think that I should get going. I have a lot of stuff to get done at the house before we go on our road trip tommorow.

I was mad but the rationale part of my brain overtook my hormones for what seemed to be the first time in months.

" I'm sorry that I am being so horrible. I really can't help it."

" I know babe. After the baby is born everything will settle down." He said as he crossed the distance between us and enveloped me in his arms. I settled against him as much as much a my belly would allow.

" I'm going to be as big as a house by the end."

" Doesn't matter. You'll still be beautiful and you always will be."

" Sure butter up the fat lady." I grumbled against his chest

" You aren't fat, you're plump and I love you just the way you are."

" You won't be saying that when I don't lose the baby weight"

He knew that there was no arguing with me in my current condition and he had a road trip to pack for.

" The girls will be coming over tomorrow. Buy what ever you like for the nursery and have it delivered to the house. We will try to figure everything out once it gets here."

He pulled me against him and kissed me. The team was going to be leaving on an fourteen day road trip since the circus was scheduled to be at the United Center. I tried to relax against his body. Our busy schedules and the fact that I was self concious about my growing body had made having any kind of sex life hard. I had to give it to the poor guy, he seemed to be taking it pretty well. He hadn't complained once.

" We still have people in the house." I whispered as I ran my fingers through his hair, giving him a suggestive smile

He let me go and all but ran up the stairs. I slowly followed behind him and heard him tell the painters that they could go ahead and pack up and leave. I went to our bedroom and laid on the bed and waited. Finally he came in fifteen minutes later and plopped on the bed.

" Everyone's gone." he said a little breathlessly

I pulled him next to me on the bed and started kissing him again. I tensed up as his hand went to my stomach and he hesitated. I grabbed his hand and pulled on it so the bottom of my shirt came up. All of a sudden the smell of fresh paint hit my nose and it immediately made me sick to my stomach. I pushed him off and got to the bathroom in just enough time to start heaving my guts into the toliet. I heard him come into the bathroom and was grateful when I felt his hand gently pull my hair back. It took a few more minutes but I was finally able to stop dry heaving. I leaned against the tub and wiped at my mouth with the back of my hand. My stomaach was still rolling and I didn't trust it enough to get up just yet.





" Is everything alright babe? You haven't gotten sick like that in awhile."

I nodded and let him help me to my feet.

" I think the paint fumes finally got to me. I have to brush my teeth."

He left me to get the nasty taste out of my mouth. He came back a few minutes later with a package of saltine crackers and a can of sprite, two things that had become staples in our house since I had found out I was pregnant. I took them from him gratefully and let him lead me back to the bedroom. I felt horrible when I saw the rumpled sheets and remembered what we were in the process of doing. Ever since I had found out I was pregnant our sex life had been suffering and while he was being patient and understanding, he had to be getting frustrated. I turned around to apologize yet again but was silenced with a kiss.

" I know what you are going to say. It's fine. I know you didn't do it on purpose. Let's get you to bed.

I followed him to the bed and curled up next to him. I nibbled on my crackers and sipped the soda while we watched some movies on t.v. I quickly drifted off to sleep. I woke up the next day to find his side of the bed was cold. I got up and found him downstairs with his luggage around him and already dressed in his suit.

" Hey I was just about to come wake you up to say goodbye."

" I thought I was giving you a ride since I didn't have to work today." I grumbled

" I figured you still wouldn't be feeling well after last night and I figured I could catch a ride with Burish."

I knew that part of the reason that he didn't want me at the airport is that reporters and fans had gone crazy when they found out that he was going to be a father and I started to be approached by random strange people when I went out in public. He insisted that I have someone with me at all times, which I thought was ridiculas but it seemed to make him feel better so I tried not to put up to much of a fuss.I wasn't even six months along and people were already making predictions that this baby was going to be born with skates on and a stick in his hand. The funny thing is that we weren't even sure what we were having yet. In both ultrasounds the baby had been turned away so the doctor couldn't see anything. I had made the doctor laugh when I commented on the fact that this baby was already being as stubborn as it's father. The door opened and in walked Adam. He pulled me into a hug and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.



" How is my favorite nephew or niece doing?" he asked as his arms snaked around my shoulders



The baby started to kick at the sound of his voice. It was hard enough that it made me winch. I motioned for Patricks hand and grabbed Adam's free hand and pushed their fingers into the spot where he or she was currently using the inside of my uterus as a kicking bag. They both grinned at each other before they backed off.



" I'll be out waiting in the rover. We have to leave in a few minutes." He reminded Patrick as he left to give us a few minutes alone to say goodbye. I hugged him close and he kissed the top of my head. I made him promise to call as soon as they got into Denver and we heard the horn honk letting us know that it was time for him to get going. He grabbed everything and gave me one last kiss before he had to head out the door. I knew it was going to be awhile before they got to Colorado so I settled onto the couch. I called and ordered out for lunch since I didn't have the energy to cook for just myself. It was saturday and I knew that I should really try to get some shopping for the baby done but I didn't feel like leaving the house. I just wanted to relax before I had to go back to work, which had been killing my feet and back as I got bigger. I laid on the couch and put the t.v on as a distraction. I hated it when he was away and this was by far the longest road trip that they would be on all year. I got a text message around eight from Patrick.





"boys wanna go out? Is that okay?"





" Yep. Just be safe."





" K. Love you"





" Love you too. Have fun."





I sat my phone on the table and went to get ready for bed. I tossed and turned and I thought about calling him. I had a feeling that something bad was going to happen but I figured that I was just being stupid. He had his teammates to look out for him and it wasn't like he wasn't a big boy who could take care of himself.

I've decided to start another story. It will be about the Staal family, more specifically Jordan. It takes place in Thunder Bay when Jordan is sixteen. Just for the record I am pretty sure that Thunder Bay is not nearly as small as I will make it seem but I needed to portray it that way to make it fit into my story. Anyways the link is in my profile and I hope that you guys will be willing to at least check it out. Thanks

possible new story and the continuation of this one.

I was thinking about starting a new story but I can't really figure out who I want to do it on. The only teams/players that I would absoluetly not do are the Capitals or the Flyers and any associated players for either team. Otherwise I'm pretty much open to any suggestions that anyone may want to throw out here. I will keep trying to update this one but frankly I feel like it's getting kind of boring and predictable and since I've just broken up with my long time boyfriend it's safe to say that I really have no inspiration right now. Thanks for staying with me this far. I appreciate it more than any of you could possibly understand.

Blue Or Pink Chapter 17

" Are you sure that you don't want me to fly home with you? I'm sure that I could get a ticket."


" Don't worry about me. You hardly ever get to see your sisters. Just enjoy your family for the next couple of days. I have to go back to work tomorrow anyways."


" Okay. Call me when you get in town." He looked at me with worry on his face. I knew that he knew something was up but he didn't ask me about it. Even if he had I wouldn't have told him. I didn't want to freak him out, especially since I wasn't sure there was anything to be freaking out about. I wanted to reassure him so I pulled him closer to me and tipped my face up to his so I could kiss him. I could feel that familiar low tug in my stomach and I had to pull away before it got to heated in public.




" I'll see you in a couple of days. Love you." I said softly.


" Love you to babe."


I went to get into line for security and when I turned around I saw that a group of people had approached Patrick. He was signing autographs and taking pictures with some fans. At the back of the group was a man with a boy that appeared about seven. They waited patiently as everyone crowded around Pat. Finally they got to the front of the group and I melted into a puddle of goo as I watched him kneel in front of the boy and talk to him. He signed a piece of paper and ruffled his hair as he got back up. I knew in that moment that one thing I didn't have to worry about was him being a good father. I heard a voice behind me telling me that I had to move and I shook myself out of my thoughts and concentrated on what was going on in front of me. The plane ride seemed to take forever and I practically ran off the plane when it landed. I looked around and was relieved to see Karri already waiting for me.


" Did you pick up the tests?" I asked trying to keep the anxiety attack I was about to have at bay.


" Well hello to you too."


" Sorry. It's just that I am on the verge of having a complete meltdown and I need to know one way or the other so I can figure out what to do."


She looked at me with what I took as sympathy as she led the way to the baggage claim. I grabbed my small suitcase. We walked out to her car and got in to go to my house. I was so nervous that I was getting physically nauseous so I tried to take deep breaths to calm myself.


" It'll be okay. You know that right?" Karri asked as she turned her head to look at me


" What if it's not okay. He's so young and we haven't even been together a year. I don't want him to think that I got pregnant to try to trap him or something."


At this point I sounded like a hysterical crazy person but I couldn't help it. I started to chew on my fingernails, something that I hadn't done in years. We finally pulled into the driveway of the house and I grabbed the plastic bag that Karri had placed in the backseat. I went inside and locked myself in the bathroom. I took all three test to make sure that I didn't get a false positive. I couldn't sit in the bathroom and wait for the ten minutes so I went and joined Karri on the couch in the living room. I jumped and almost fell off the couch when I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I grabbed for it and saw that the caller id had Patrick's name on it. Shit, I had forgotten to call him.


" Hello"


" Hey is everything okay. You didn't call." he said sounding a little pissed


" Yeah sorry. I got talking with Karri and I just forgot."


" It's okay. I just wanted to make sure that you got home."



" Yep. Got here just fine and dandy."

He started to tell me about having to meet Jackie's first boyfriend and I basically tuned him out and started to get anxious as the ten minutes I needed to wait ticked down. Karri tapped on her wrist to let me know that it was time.

" Babe, I really need to get going. Karri wants to go to dinner." I interuppted him abruptly in the middle of his story. I knew that I was being rude, but I needed to get off the phone

" Oh" was all he said. I hated how hurt he sounded

" I'll call you later. Love you."

" Yeah" he replied shortly. I was left with the dial tone in my ear as he abruptly hung up on me. I shook my head and tried not to cry. Karri asked me if I was ready and even though I nodded my head I couldn't will my legs to move. It was as if my feet were encased in cement.

" Do you want me to go look?" Karri asked when she saw that I wasn't moving.

" Yeah, please" Oh god I was about to vomit. Or maybe pass out from lack of breathing

I watched as she got up and disappeared into the bathroom. I felt like puking as I waited and a few minutes later she came out holding one of the sticks, a frown on her face.

" Is it suppose to look like this?" She asked as she handed me the stick. I groaned as I saw what she was talking about. There was the first line like there should have been and there was a second line that would usually indicate pregnancy but in this case it was very faint.

" Are the other two like this?" hoping that wasn't the case

" Yeah. One is even fainter."

" Dammit. I'm going to have to make a doctor's appointment." I muttered getting frustrated. This didn't help at all. Karri had to leave but made me promise to call if I needed anything. I thought about not calling Patrick and just going to bed but I didn't want to piss him off anymore than he already seemed to be. Our conversation was short and tense and I quickly ended it by mentioning that I had to be up early for work. The next day I made a appointment at the clinic that was attached to the hospital and was relieved to find out that they had an opening after work on friday. On Wensday it was finally time for Patrick to come home. I was feeling a mixture of dread and excitment as it came closer to the time that I was suppose to pick him up. I made my way to O'hara and waited anxiously in a small crowd of people. Finally I saw him and I stood back and waited while he was mobbed with people looking for autographs and pictures. He obliged the crowd but I could tell that he was looking for me. His eyes finally met mine and I smiled at him but he didn't return it, at least not as much as I would have liked. He finally had to excuse himself and he made his way over to me. He greeted me with a hello and a chaste kiss and I didn't push it. He got his luggage and took over driving without asking. I just looked out the window as the silence weighed on us. I glanced over at one point and I could see him clenching his jaw, which was a sure sign that trying to explain to him what was going on wouldn't be a good idea. When we got home I went to start the laundry and as I was sorting through all of the clothes I heard the door open behind me.

" We need to talk." I heard him say behind me. I tried to quickly think of something to say to get out of this but when I turned around I saw the look on his face and knew that there was nothing I could say that would change his mind.

" What do you want to talk about?" I said trying to act like I had no idea what he was talking about

" What the hell is going on with you? Everything was fine until the night of the party and then you got all weird. You've been pushing me away and I can't figure out what I did to make you angry.

He looked so upset and I felt horrible when I realized what I had been putting him through in the last couple of days. I pulled on his shirt so he was close to me. I threw my arms around his waist and buried my face in his shirt so I could inhale his familiar scent. His arms found there way around me and I felt his chin rest on the top of my head.

" You didn't do anything wrong. Promise. It's just that I've been really stressed the last couple of days."

" Stop pushing me away and talk to me. Maybe I can help?" he said rubbing my back trying to be soothing.

I pulled away and looked at him. I still wasn't sure what his reaction would be but I knew that he deserved to know why I was acting so crazy.

" I might be pregnant."

His eyes got huge as he processed the information that I just let him know. He didn't say anything for a few minutes and I pulled away and braced myself for the worst. I was surprised when he pulled me against him and kissed me."

" You should have told me instead of keeping something like that to yourself. " he chastised gently

" I didn't want to tell you until I knew for sure and I took three test but I have to go to the doctor's because I'm still not sure. Plus I was afraid that you were going to me mad at me."

" Why?"

" Because we haven't been together a year and your only twenty one. What are people going to say?"

" It doesn't matter what other people think and I'm not mad. Surprised but not mad."

I felt a huge weight lift from my chest as he smiled at me. He had every right to be upset and yet here he was handling the whole situation better than I had been. I was so lucky to have this fantastic man love me. I couldn't even put into words what I was feeling so I decided to show him. I grabbed his face and kissed him and he responded in kind. It had been almost five days since we were able to have sex and I could tell how much he wanted me. His hands roamed up under my shirt and started to gently knead my breasts.

" Do you want to go upstairs?" he asked as he nibbled on the sensitive spot on my neck

My brain was mush and it was all I could do to nod my head. He picked me up and carried me upstairs. He set me down long enough so we could strip each other of our clothes. After almost two hours we laid in bed in a sweaty tangle, both of us content. We talked about my appointment and even though he wanted to be there he agreed that it would draw to much attention. He kept running his hand over my stomach. I made him promise not to tell anyone until we knew that there was something to tell everyone.

" If you are pregnant I hope it's a boy."

I could picture a small boy with blond curls just like Patrick. The image made me smile.

" And what if it would be a girl?" I asked in a teasing voice

" That would be fine. At least I would have nineteen guys to help me make sure that any guys that came around behave themselves."

I rolled my eyes but I could see him rallying the guys to scare the crap out of some poor unsuspecting teenage boy.

" Don't get too excited. There is a chance that there is something else going on."

Friday came and I went to my doctor's appointment. I made a promise to call him right away, no matter what the news was. I sat in the exam room as the nurse took my blood. Again like so many things that had happened over the week, getting the results seemed to take forever, even though it was only twenty five minutes later when I heard a knock at the door. The doctor came in with my chart in hand and I held my breath as he rifled through the paperwork

" Well I'm not sure if this is good news or not but it appears that you are pregnant. I would like you to schedule a full physical so we can make sure that everything is going well and to see how far along you are. He patted me on the shoulder as I agreed to make up a follow up appointment and he left the room as I hopped of the table. Even though I was happy and now knew that Patrick would be okay with it too I started to cry when I dialed his number.

" So do you think that guest room next to ours will make a good nusery."

I grinned as I heard him yelling at whoever was in the gym with him.

" Meet me at home so we can celebrate?"

" Yeah. I'm heading that way right now."

" See you in a few than. Love you."

" Love you to Patrick."

I drove home and my mind started to wander to all of the plans we were going to have to make. It was already the end of july and that only left a full month and maybe a week or two before training camp and the season started. I knew that the first thing that he would want to do was let everyone know what a stud of a man he was. When I pulled up Patrick's car was already in the driveway. His crazy ass must have drove way to fast to get home before me. I went inside and was immediatly swept up in a pair of strong arms. He spun me around and kissed me

" Can I start calling people and letting them know?

" Yeah. Do I need to tell you who I want to call?"

" Nope."

He went to the living room and I grabbed my phone out of my purse. It wasn't exactly a private conversation but it was important. The phone rang for a minute before he finally anwsered it.

" Hey Bur. I got something big to tell you"

" Let me guess. You and the kid are going to be parents."

" Wow you just took all of the excitment right out of that. Did Karri tell you?"

He let out a short laugh and told me that he knew something was up and he basically picked at her until she told him. I knew how persistant he could be so I couldn't even be mad at her.

" I just want to thank you for everything. None of this would be happening if it wasn't for you."

" Remember that when you are getting up in the middle of the night feeding the little monster."

" Yeah yeah. Don't worry your going to be my baby-sitter. I figure it will be good practice for when you have your own."

" I don't see that being for awhile. Karri wants to finish her degree and I like having my girlfriend to myself right now. We are planning on getting married as soon as she graduates."

" Can you believe it? If you had told me that I would be in a serious relationship and pregnant eight months ago I would have laughed."

" Trust me I know. I was beginning to think that you were the only women who I would ever meet that had the personality to put up with me and I always saw you as more of a sister."

" Sure, blame being a man slut in the past on me." I rolled my eyes even though I knew he couldn't see

His only response was to laugh because he knew it was true.

" I should get going. I have to call my mom still. She'll be pissed if she finds out that she wasn't the first person that I called."

" Yeah you better go. I don't want you to get in trouble. I'll see you later.

I went to dial my mom's number but was overtaken by the strong urge to puke. I ran to the bathroom and barely made it to the toliet before I emptied what little bit I had in my stomach. I wiped my mouth and had a sneaking suspicion that this child was going to be just like it's father, loveable but the occasional pain in the butt.

Everyone Loves A Party Chapter 16

So I am kinda getting bored and I feel like the story isn't really going anywhere as of right now so I've decided to move the story line ahead which I will make sure to explain so it doesn't get confusing.





I opened my eyes and for a second I didn't remember where I was. After my eyes focused I remembered that I was in Buffalo, more specifically in the room where Patrick had spent a large chunk of his childhood. I yawned and stretched as the door opened. Patrick jumped on the bed like a little kid.





" I'm glad to see your excited." I said laughing





" Are you kidding? I've been dreaming about this day since I was a little kid."





" I know and I can't tell you enough how proud I am of you."





" Thanks babe." he gave me a kiss and jumped back up





" We have to go to the airport in an hour to pick the cup up."





" I know. You've only reminded me a million times since we got here."





He bounced out of the room after reminding me to hurry up and get ready. I thought back to the last few months that brought us to today. I knew as a fan that the play-offs were intense but to experience as a significant other was a whole other ball game. We had our ups and downs because of the stress but we were able to work our way through it. They made their way through the Sharks, Kings and most importantly Detroit to make it to the Stanley cup finals against the Pens, just like I predicted earlier. I was able to go to all of the home games and they lived up to the hype that the media and hockey world gave it. In the end they ended up winning the Stanley cup at the United Center in front of the home crowd. I remember the guys celebrating at center ice and skating with the cup while I hugged Karri, Anna and all of the family members that were sitting around us. When we were finally able to go on the ice Patrick found us and I stood back as he hugged his family. He came to me last and pulled me into a tight hug.



" Congradulations babe. Love you." I whispered into his ear



" Love you too."



The rest of the night was a blur. Everyone was drinking champagne and celebrating and by the time we made our way back to Chicago everyone was completely gone. The city of Chicago threw a huge parade and there was a team party. After that everything settled down a little and all that was left to do was plan individual days with the cup. We both attended Adam's party, which he held in Madison and it was nice to be able to see people that I hadn't seen since I'd moved. Olivia and her family were finally able to meet Patrick and she loved him just as much as my mother did. We started to plan his day the week after they won and we flew into Buffalo the day before to make sure that everything was ready for today. I was brought out of my memories by a knock on the door. His sister Jackie poked her head in the door.



" Pat said that if you aren't ready in a half an hour he's leaving without you."



" I'm getting up right now." I huffed, dragging myself out of bed. I knew that I didn't have a lot of time so I quickly did what I needed to do. I slid the summer dress on that I had picked out earlier as I heard my name being called from across the house. I took one last look at myself and decided that I was presentable and went to find Patrick



" You look beautiful"



" Thank you. You don't look to bad yourself." I commented as I looked at his semi dressy choice of a polo and dress slacks.



We left to get to airport on time to get the cup and it's keeper. After that we were all going to Niagra Falls to take pictures, having a charity event where people who donated money were able to take a picture with the cup and a family party. It was looking to be quiet a crazy, busy day but I didn't care. This whole day wasn't about me, it was about Patrick and I was willing to do whatever it took to make sure that he enjoyed himself. We greeted the cup keeper at the airport and Patrick couldn't keep the grin off his face as he helped strap it into the back of his escalade.

We got back to the family house and we were off to the falls. We met with a photographer and we had alot of fun taking them. I thought it was very cute that Patrick insisted on getting a picture of all his "girls" with the cup. Afterwards we stopped for lunch at a little restaurant that they use to go to when the Pat was younger and the attention that the cup and Patrick got was insane. The rest of the day went well and really quickly. By the time the party came around I was exhausted. He had decided to cater in the food so his mother wouldn't have to worry about cooking or cleaning anything up. I met so many of his extended family that there is no way that I was going to remember everyone but they were all very nice. After everyone ate and congratulated him I went to sit on the couch to relax for a minute by myself. I laid my head back on the couch and closed my eyes for a minute. I heard someone come and sit down beside me. I cracked open my eyes to see Donna looking at me.



" Are you okay? Your looking a little pale and you didn't eat very much."



" Yeah I'm fine. I just haven't been sleeping the greatest and it's messing with my stomach a little."



" So your tired and sick to your stomach."



" Yeah, and I've been kind of headachy too. Maybe I have a slight flu bug."



She grabbed my hand and looked at me.



" When did you get your period last?"



The question caught me off guard



" I really don't get it. The most that I ever have to deal with is spotting sometimes. I've been on depo since I was eighteen."



I thought about what she was insinuating. It couldn't be possible could it?

You Can't Please everyone Chapter 15

I was alone when I woke up the next morning but I wasn't surprised. I knew that today was going to be busy for Patrick and I wanted to disrupt him as little as possible. I went to get up and I bumped my wrist on the nightstand as I went to grab my phone and I was surprised when I felt a small jolt of pain. I looked at my wrist and saw some faint brusing.


" Shit" I muttered. With everything that had happened I didn't need people getting the wrong idea about Patrick. Well I was wearing the jersey that he had given me to the game later and the arms were so baggy that there was no way anyone would notice. I got up and went about my own routine. I wasn't quite sure when he would be home so I decided to surprise him by making him lunch. I found some pasta and chicken, the staple of any hockey players diet. I found everything that I needed to prepare a simple lunch. I had everything almost ready when I heard the door open and close. I smiled as I tasted the tomatoe sauce to make sure that it was hot. I felt a pair of strong arms wrap themselves around my waist.

" Hey how was practice?" I asked turning around so I could get my arms around his neck


" It seemed pretty good. The guys are pretty revved up for tonight."

" I bet. It should be a good game."

He mumbled his agreement as he kissed my neck.

" The food smells good. Let's eat while it's still hot."

I grabbed two plates and dished up the food and we ate. As we ate and talked he noticed the marks on my wrist

" Babe what's wrong with your wrist?" he asked me

" You do remember what happened last night right?"

It took a second but I could see that he had figured it out. He looked at me with a look of horror on his face

" I hurt you."

I wanted to reasure him when I saw how guilty he looked

" If you had been doing something that I didn't like I would have told you."

" Are you sure?" You aren't just saying that to make me feel better, are you?"

" Yes I'm sure and no I'm not. I wouldn't want sex like that all the time but it has it place and I'm not as breakable as I look."


He didn't exactly look convinced but he nodded his head. I took the dishes to the sink and decided that I would do them later. I knew that he would be laying down pretty quick so I ran upstairs and grabbed everything that I needed to get ready so I wouldn't have to bother him. I put everything in the bathroom and went back downstairs.


" I have everything I need out of the bedroom if you want to head upstairs for your nap"


"You could come with me if you want." he said giving me a look I had come to know well."


" I don't think that's a good idea. You need to stick to your routine."

He tried to pout but quickly saw that I wasn't going to budge. He went upstairs and laid down and I did a few chores that needed to be done. The time went by pretty quickly and I jumped in the shower to get ready. I threw on my jersey and the the braclet that Patrick had bought me what seemed like forever ago. When I was done I saw that it was about time for him to get up and get ready himself so I decided to see if he had woken up yet. I walked into the bedroom and saw that he hadn't woken up yet and he looked so young with his messy hair and arm thrown over his head. I sat on the bed and kissed him gently on the face. He moved his arm and opened his eyes and looked at me sleepily.


" Time to get up and get ready"

" Hmmkay"

He got ready as I waited downstairs and when he came down I had to admit that he looked good in his suit and tie. I straighted his tie a little bit and we left for the united center. As we were driving he told me that he arranged for me to sit in the box that his agent had rented for the game. I wasn't sure that I liked the idea but I didn't want to cause any trouble so I agreed. He went and signed a few autographs for some dedicated fans before we made our way inside. I wanted to say hi to the guys and wish them luck before the game. I made my way inside the locker room knowing that no one should be to naked yet. I quickly made my way around the room and it didn't take me long to get back to Patrick.


" Come on. We have to meet Pat."


He grabbed my hand and led me out of the room and down the hallway. I saw a man standing with someone who appeared to be Sidney Crosby. We waited until they were finished and he took me up to him and introduced us. He looked me up and down while he shook my hand and I felt like I was being sized up.


" We have to talk later about your schedule next week. I know that you wanted to take the week off but we need to get you back at it okay?"

" Yeah I know. I have to go get ready. I'll see you guys after the game."

I gave him a kiss and wished luck and I was left alone with Pat. He told me that we could head up to the box and I silently follewed him up to the box. I had never been in one of the luxury boxes before and I had to admit that I was impressed. He offered me a water and we took our seats. He didn't say anything but I could see him looking at me out of the corner of his eye. I knew that as an agent it was his job to look out for his clients and I braced myself for any questions.

" So Pat tells me that he met you through Adam Burish."

" Yep. We've been friends for along time."

" So you understand what kind of commitment these guys have to put in outside of the rink."

" Yes I do. And I'm starting a new job on Monday so it's not like I don't have a life of my own."

" Good" he said with a look that almost looked like respect

He asked me about general stuff and it was almost like he was another father. He seemed satisfied with my all of my anwsers and soon enough the guys were on the ice to warm up. Tazer took the opening face-off against Crosby and lost it. The game was very physical and neither team wanted to give an inch. Pat seemed to be amused by all of the yelling that I did as different penalties were called and killed. Finally it came down to a shoot out as the score was tied at three a piece at the end. I started to bite my nails as the first Pens player lined up to take his shot. Huey stoned him and the crowd erupted. The first Hawk was Tazer and he wasn't able to bait Fleury into moving the opposite way. Crosby ended up scoring and Seabs got robbed by Marc so the Penguins ended up winning. The guys looked dejected as they skated off the ice as the Pens celebrated. I told Pat that I was going to go wait in the lounge and he told me that he would meet us in a little while. I started to make my way to the lounge and my phone rang. I had a text from Karri telling me that her and Anna would meet me after the crowd thinned out a little. I was sending her a text to let her know that was fine when I ran into something that almost knocked me completely on my ass. I felt a hand grab my arm. I looked up and saw a sweaty pens player holding onto me.

" You should really watch where your going." Said Max Talbot with a cute accented voice

" Sorry." I muttered as I shook out of his grip

" That's okay. I don't mind a pretty girl running into me." he said still standing close to me and grinning.

I didn't want to be rude but the way that he was looking me up and down was making me uncomfortable.

" You would look even better in one of our jerseys." he said still grinning at me

" Sorry but I think that my boyfriend wouldn't be very happy about that." I said trying not to sound as hostile as I felt

" So your dating one of the Hawks players. That's to bad. If you ever want to know what it's like to be with a man instead of a little boy look me up.

" I think that there is a good chance that I'll be seeing you sometime in June." I said with the upmost confidence

" I guess I'll see you around than. Tell Kane that he played a good game, unfortuantly for them we were better." With that he turned around and headed to the visitors locker room

" What an asshole" I muttered to myself. I heard voices behind me and turned around to see the girls heading towards me.

" What were you talking to Max Talbot for?" Karri asked me with raised eyebrows

I told her the story and they both laughed at me.

" It wasn't funny guys, he was a smug asshole."

" It wasn't that big of a deal. Let's go the guys are probably wondering where we are."

I followed them to the lounge and we found a place to sit. The guys finally started to come out and Pat found us while we were waiting. Everyone was almost gone and Pat asked me something that I had been hoping that he hadn't even payed attention to.

" If you don't mind me asking, what happened to your wrist?"

I couldn't help but turn ten shades of red and I considered telling him the truth but I couldn't bring myself to.

" I bumped it last night on the nightstand."

He eyed me and I knew that he didn't believe me.

" Look it isn't my buisness what you guys do in the privacy of your house but please remember that it is my job to protect my clients reputations and if the wrong person would see something like that they could interpret it any way that they wanted to and it probably wouldn't be good."

I nodded my head in understanding. The last thing that I wanted to do was cause any more problems or distractions.

Finally Patrick came out of the locker room. He didn't look happy but he wasn't as nearly as crabby as I would have thought. We discussed the situation with Tina and it was decided that we should avoid going out for awhile and hope that she would find someone else to harrass. They discussed some upcoming publicity commitments and then we were free to leave. We headed home. He was pretty quiet the whole drive and I let him know that I was there for him if he wanted to talk but I didn't push it. He sat on the couch and watched a replay of the game and analyzed everything that they did wrong and didn't acknowlede all of the good plays that they did make. I finally got annoyed after being basically ignored for almost two hours.

" I'm going to bed. Are you coming?"

" No I want to finish watching this." he said sounding snottier than I liked.

" Fine."

I went upstairs and tried to lay down. I knew he was a competitve guy but I really hoped that every loss wasn't going to be like this. Maybe I would have to talk to some of the other girls to see how they handled their men when they acted like this.

Honesty Is The Best Policy Chapter 14

I looked in the mirror and hated what I saw. My face looked horrible. I was all puffy and my make-up was all over the place. I found a wash cloth and wiped my face. It helped me feel a little better but I still wasn't ready to come out. I sat on the toilet and put my face in my hands. I should have known better than to uproot my whole life to come down here. It hadn't even been a full two days and things were already messed up. There was a light knock on the door and I heard Karri asking if she could come in. I told her it was okay and she came in and sat on the edge of the tub.

" Patrick is in the living room waiting for you when you feel ready"

"I nodded my head and didn't say anything, afraid I was going to start crying again.

" Just listen to what he has to say and if you need anything Adam and I will be upstairs okay."


She got up and went to leave.

" Karri."

" Yeah?"

" Thanks for everything."


" You'd do the same for me" she said with a smile as she came over and gave me a hug



She left and I knew that I shouldn't put of the conversation that was about to happen. I took a deep breath to steady myself and walked out to the living room. He was standing by the couch and he looked just as bad as I did. He ran his fingers through already messy hair and took a step towards me. I held up my hand to stop him. The last thing I wanted was for him to be close to me. I wouldn't be able to think clearly if I let that happen.


" Just tell me what happened Patrick."

" I went to the bathroom like I told you. Tina must have followed me. Before I even knew what was happening she had me pinned up against the wall by the bathroom. " He had started to pace and I could tell he was agitated by what he was telling me


" She started to go on about how much she missed me and that she would change if I gave her another chance. I told her she was crazy and that I was a hundred times happier with you than I had ever been with her. I didn't think she was going to kiss me."


" Why didn't you push her away?" I asked softly not able to look him in the eyes


After everything that happened last summer I didn't want to cause a scene. After she kissed me I did push her away though.


I crossed my arms over my chest and thought about what he had told me. He looked absoluetly miserable and every fiber of my being told me he was telling the truth. I was still mad but I knew that he was right about not causing a scene. I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. He buried his face in my shoulder and let out an audible sigh of relief.


" I'm sorry. We should have left when she showed and none of this would have happened."

I pulled away and looked at him.


" It isn't your fault, but what can we do? I can deal with all of the crazy fans but I'm not sure that I can keep dealing with her.


" I don't know. Pat my agent is going to be at the game and I'll see what he says. If it's any consolation Buf and Duncs chewed Alexa and Lauri out when they found out what happened. They were both pretty pissed when they found out what they had done."


" Really?" I asked feeling better


" Yeah you should have seen it. They both started to cry. "

" Does it make me a horrible person to say that hearing that makes me really happy?"

" In this case no it doesn't. Let's go home and we can try to figure things out later."

" Okay, but give me a minute. I'll be right back."


He let go of me and I quickly made my way upstairs. The door to Adams room was closed but I didn't hear any noise so I figured it was safe to knock. I heard a voice telling me to come in and I opened the door and peeked my head in


" I just wanted to let you know that I am going to be heading home."

" Everything all right?" Adam asked as he got up and opened the door wider

" We have to figure some things out but yeah everything is okay."

" Damn and here I was hoping to get that threesome I've been fantasizing about all of these years." he joked as he pulled me into a hug.

" In your dreams you pig." Karri started to laugh behind me

" I may be a pig but you both love me anyways." he said with a knowing smile

" It is one of your many charms." I agreed

" Go home and have hot kinky make up sex and be happy. Will you be at the game tomorrow?"

" Yeah. I don't start work until next monday so I will be at the next couple of games."

" I'll see you tomorrow then."

" Alright. Night guys and thanks for everything"

I went downstairs and we got in the suv to leave. He grabbed my hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze.

" Are you sure we are alright? Your being awfully quiet." he asked with a slight hint of worry in his voice


" Yeah babe I'm sure. I'm just exhausted from all of the emotional stuff that happened tonight."


He brought my hand up to his mouth and kissed the back of it.


" Your mother told me to take care of you." he said seemingly out of nowhere

" What?" I asked

" You wanted to know what your mom said to me the day we met. That was it. She made me promise to look out for you and take care of you and I told her that I already planned on it."


" Oh" I whispered

We finally pulled into the drive and got out of the car. We went straight to the bedroom and I immediately went to the bathroom to wash my face and change. When I came out he was stripped down and laying on top of the covers. He seemed deep in thought and didn't notice that I was standing there. I went over and jumped on the bed and laid my head on his bare chest. I tried to stifle the yawn but I wasn't succesful.


" What's going on tomorrow." I asked to make sure that I knew what to expect as this was my first game day since I came down


" I have morning skate, then I come home and eat and then take my nap. I like to get to the arena a couple of hours early so I can take care of my sticks and get focused."

" I hope I don't get in the way of your routine. I know that game against the Pens is a big deal for you guys."

" Yeah it is. They are a good team and if we can beat them maybe we can make people believe that we really have a shot at the cup this year."


" I have faith in you."

" Thanks baby."

He pulled my face up to his and kissed me. As tired as I was I couldn't help but deepen the kiss. He rolled us both over so that he was on top of me. His hand roamed up under my shirt and pinched my already hard nipple. I let out a small moan as he kissed his way from my neck down to my collar bone.

" Are you sure about this? We don't have to do anything if you don't want to." he asked me quietly


Instead of responding with words I pulled his mouth back to mine and kissed him to let him know that I was more then fine with it. He kissed me slowly, and it was driving me insane. I let him pull off my clothes and I helped him out of his boxers. He pushed me down and took control and I was more than happy to let him. He grabbed my arms by the wrist and pulled them above my head while he attacked my neck. He sucked my skin into his mouth and I knew that it was going to leave one hell of a mark but the sensations that were coursing through my body caused me to not care. He nudged my legs apart and I obliged, wrapping my ankles around his waist. He entered me with one swift motion, causing me to practically scream his name. At the pace we were going it didn't take either of us very long to fall over the edge together. He let go of my wrists and slid his sweaty body off of mine after giving me a kiss. He grabbed by the waist and mumbled an I love you, which I quietly returned and watched in amazment as he immediately fell asleep. I curled into him and tried to do the same but my mind was in overdrive. I really wanted to impress his agent mostly because I knew that his opinions were only outweighed by his family's. I let out a soft sigh and tried to relax. If I could get his parents to like me, this man shouldn't be that hard to impress right?

Hawks Sharks game pics

So I was able to go to the Hawks Sharks game at the United Center yesterday. It was my first time seeing either team in person and the game was amazing. Not only did my boys win but my favorite Hawks dman Brent Seabrook had the game winner in overtime. I took a ton of pictures and while they didn't turn out as well as I would have liked I did get some good ones. I figured since this story was about Patrick Kane and the hawks I would share some of them.



I love Joe Thornton. He was seriously one of my first hockey crushes and I still love him to this day



Sharpie



Tazer talking to a ref during a video review to see if SJ had scored a goal, which ended up being upheld as not a goal.



I labeled this picture as " My two favorite Patricks"



Seabs during a stoppage in play



Tazer waiting to take a face off



Kaner and Heater waiting for a face off



Sharpie waiting for a face off



Another of Kaner



Kaner and Tazer waiting for a face off



Seabs being interviewed as the first star of the game

I have some other pics but if I put them all on here this post would be huge. I plan on making an actual post tonight or tomorrow. I have some of the next one written but I am stuck about half way. I am not really sure where I want this story to go but I am trying to figure it out.

Things aren't always beautiful Chapter 13

My right calf seized up in what was hands down the worst charlie horse I had ever experienced.




" Oww. Fuck. I practically screamed as I fell off of Patrick and grabbed at my leg.




" What the hell is wrong?" he said loudly, freaking out at my yelling




" Cramp. My leg." I shouted as I writhed around in pain.



He grabbed me and rolled me on my stomach. He grabbed my leg and started to massage my calf. The pain was still bad enough that I buried my face in the pillow to keep from yelling. It took a few minutes but finally my muscle started to relax.




"Better?" he asked as he kept massaging





" Yeah, better. Thank You." I rolled back into my back and stretched my leg. It was still tight but at least it wasn't making me scream. He scooted up and I finally looked at him. He had a small grin on his face and I could tell he was trying to hold back a laugh.




" It's not funny you ass."




" I'm not laughing" he said trying to supress it but not succeding





I glared at him as he started to laugh out loud





" come on, admit it. It's a little funny."





I tried to stay mad but when I thought about what had just happened I had to admit that I would think it's funny only if it had happened to someone else.




" Yeah your right. It is kinda funny."




" Oh by the way I won" he said with a satisfied smile on his face




" Um, won what?"




" How quickly you forget. You told me that you could resist me and I'm pretty sure that I proved you wrong"




" Technically we didn't finish so you didn't prove anything." I said not wanting to admit that he made me weak

He moved closer to me and kissed me.

" I really should get to bed, I do have an early practice tomorrow. I have all week to make you admit that your wrong."

We both settled into our spots and quickly fell asleep. The next morning seemed to come quickly and since I was use to getting up really early I woke up before him. I showered and changed and went to make sure that he was up in plenty of time for practice at ten. I sat on the bed next to him and ran my fingers through his hair.

" Pat wake up." I whispered in his ear

I didn't think that it worked but he opened one eye and pulled me against him on the bed. He buried his face in my hair and mumbled something that I didn't hear.

" What did you say?" I asked him as I tried to wiggle out of his arms

" To early" he grumbled

" It is not. Now come on get up you big baby. "

I got free and stood up I figured if I offered to cook for him it would motivate him to get his ass up and moving.

" I'll make you breakfast if you get up right now."

He looked at me like he was deciding if it was worth it.

" Really?" he asked suspiciously

" Sure. Now get up and get ready and I'll go see what I can find."

" Fine. I'll be down in a little while."

I went downstairs and found what I needed to make a quick breakfast. He came down a little while later as I was putting some eggs and toast on two plates. He came up behind me and put his arms around my waist and kissed my neck.

" It smells good. I wasn't even sure if you could cook." He teased.

" I can. It's just not my favorite thing in the world"

I turned around and handed him the plate and a fork. We went to the table and sat to eat. He started to shovel the food in into his mouth. I just watched as he devoured the entire plate in under ten minutes.

"What?" He asked when he noticed I was looking at him

" Do you think that you could have inhaled the food any faster?"

He shrugged his shoulders and looked a little embarresed

" Sorry. Usually I am stuck eating lucky charms or something. I can't even boil water."

" I knew there was a reason you wanted me to move down here."

" Did you think there was some other reason?" he asked playing along with my teasing

His phone rang as I threw a napkin at him

" Yeah I'm up and ready. Okay see ya in a few." he said into the phone

He clicked it close and set in back on the table.

" Adam and Sharpie are going to be here in a little while."

" Okay. I am going to get some of those box's unpacked so I don't have to worry about it when I go back to work."

" Are you nervous about that?"

" Yeah of course I am. It's always nerve wracking to start a new job, but it seemed like a really great hospital and the few people that I got to meet seemed nice when I went in for my interview. "

" You'll do great"

" Thanks for the vote of confidence."

Just then we heard a car horn honking.

" I gotta go. I'll see you in a little while."

He got up and kissed me and grabbed his stuff and left. I got up and cleaned everything up and decided that now would be a good time to start unpacking some of the boxes that were sitting in the corner of the living room. I went and sat on the floor next to them and slid the first one closer to me. A few hours later I had just about everything unpacked and put away in the right spots. My back was killing me from lugging everything around so I decided to lay on the couch and relax for a few minutes. I heard the door open and several voices come through the door.

" Hey baby. Some of the guys wanted to come over and say hi." he said as the guys all filed in behind him. Adam came over and sat on my legs and put his arm on the back of the couch.

" Get off of me fatass" I groaned as my legs went immediatly numb

" I'll have you know that I have a fantastic ass" he protested

" Yeah fantastically huge." I said managing to push him off of me.

" Everyone wants to go out to welcome you to Chicago."

" Yeah cause that always works out so well." I said thinking about all of the drama that happened everytime we had went out in the past."

" Oh come on Karri is going to come with. She has been dying to hang out with you."

I looked at him and weighed my options. I didn't start work until next week and the guys were home for this week and afterwards had a east coast six day swing before they came home again.

" Okay."

I talked with the guys for a little while longer before I excused myself. I decided to take a nap since I was exhausted. A little while later I felt the bed dip down next to me. I opened my eyes and saw Pat looking at me with a little bit of worry in his eyes.

" are you alright. You've been sleeping for awhile."

" Yeah I'm fine. I think it's just the stress of moving catching up with me"

" Okay. I made sandwiches if your hungry."

He grabbed my hand and pulled me up.

" You would tell me if something was wrong right?"

" Of course. Now lets go eat. I'm starving."

We went downstairs and ate our late lunch. I liked that we didn't feel rushed by the fact that I had to leave. We curled up on the couch and watched a movie. He excused himself for a little while because he had a phone interview to do with the nhl network but that didn't take very long. My phone rang and I saw that it was Karri

" Hey, what's up?"

" Not much. I heard you were coming out with tonight."

" Yeah I am."

" That's great. I am so sick of having to hang out with the two evil witches"

I laughed at her discription of Duncs and Buf girlfriends.

" Are they going to be there tonight?" I asked dreading the anwser

" Unfortunatly. They wouldn't pass up the opportunity to be seen in public with their famous boyfriends."

" Ugg I hope they don't try to start shit. I really don't feel like dealing with that right now. Hopefully I'll be able to avoid the both of them."

" Well I'll be there and Sharpie's girlfriend Anna is coming to so maybe we can just hang out and pretend they don't exist"

" Sounds like a plan to me."

" Alright. I'll see you later."

I decided that even though it was a little early that I wanted to look good so I went and started to get ready. I showered and decided to wear a low cut black sweater that showed of my breast to full advantage. I paired that with a pair of fitted jeans and my favorite pair of heeled boots. I curled the ends of my hair and put on more make up than I would normally wear. I looked at myself in the mirror and decided that I looked presentable. I went downstairs to find my boyfriend to see if I got his approval. I walked into the kitchen and he was standing by the counter with his back to me. I waited a minute and finally cleared my throat to get his attention. He finally turned around and his jaw just about hit the floor

" Wow" he said with amazement in his voice

"I take it you approve?"

" Not really actually. I am going to have to beat the guys off of you"

" Don't worry. A little competition never hurt anybody including you. Plus I don't think you'll have much competion anyways."

" I know I won't" he replied letting his ego show

I rolled my eyes but couldn't help but smile. If he lacked anything it certaintly wasn't confidence.

" Go get ready. We have to leave in a little while"

He went upstairs to get ready and in typical man fashion it didn't take very long. Even so I had to admit that he looked pretty hot and I was tempted to call the evening off and just stay in but I had promised the guys that we would be there so we left after calling and making sure where to meet everyone. We pulled in front of the same club where Patrick and I had spent our birthdays.

"Come on let's go" he said as he parked the car. He came around the car and helped me with the door and grabbed my hand as we went around the back to get in. The bouncer let us in without question and Patrick seemed oblivious to all the people, mostly girls, staring at us as we walked in. I saw Adam and Karri standing by the bar with duncs, Buf, Sharpie and all of their girlfriends. I noticed immediatly that Karri was talking to Anna but completely ignoring the other girls who were off to the sides by themselves. We made our way over to them and greeted everyone.

" Hey this is Anna, Sharpie's girlfriend" Karri said introducing the both of us. She was a beautiful girl, thin and blond and she smiled as she shook my hand.

" It's nice to finally meet you. Karri has told me so much about you."

" All good I hope"

" Yeah it's all been good."

I felt a arm wrap itself around my waist. Patrick reached around me and handed me a drink.

"Thanks babe."

" I know it's asking alot but I was wondering if you guys could at least try to include Lauri and Alexa in your little group."

" Do we have to?" I asked hating the thought of even having to interact with the bimbos for a minute

" You don't have to but it would make Duncs and Buf really happy."

" Okay, fine. Are you guys in? I am sure as hell not going to be stuck doing this by myself."

They both made faces but agreed. I turned around and kissed him

"You owe me."

" I know. I'm going to go hang out with the guys. I'll be over by the bar if you need anything."

He went over by the bar and we walked over to where the two girls were standing. I tried to smile as we went over to them. They both looked like clones and I realized that I had no idea who was who since I had never bothered to pay any attention.

"Hi ladies."

Both of them just stood there and stared at us like we were insane for talking to them.

" Is there something that you want?"

I gritted my teeth and kept the smile plastered on my face.

" We just thought we would come over and say hi"

" Oh"

They turned their backs and one of them started to text on their phone. All of a sudden they turned around and did a complete one eighty.

" Sorry. I'm Lauri and this is Alexa. I don't think we were ever introduced."

" Not formally no. I'm Melissa'

" You're the one who stole Pat from Tina right?" Alexa asked with a smile on here face.

I swallowd and thought for a second about how I should respond

" I can't help it she wasn't enough of a women to keep her man. And just for the record your guys will find real women someday and you'll both be out of the picture faster than you'll know what happened to you."

With that I turned around and walked off with Kari and Anna following closely behind me. As soon as we were out of earshot they both burst into laughter.

" Wow that was amazing." Karri said still chortling

" Yeah that was pretty great." Anna said in agreement

" I don't know why I even bothered. Those girls are just waste of sperm and eggs."

" No doubt. Lets get something to drink."

We went to the bar and got some drinks. We went over to the guys and started to talk. I noticed that Lauri and Alexa kept looking over at us and it seemed like they were talking but I wasn't going to give them the satisfaction of giving them a reaction. I noticed them waving at someone and I couldn't help but turn and look. It was the one person that I had hoped to never see again.

" Oh Shit. This can't be good." Karri said as she followed my eyes

" This dumb bitches probably told her that we were here"

I moved over to Patrick and put my arms around his neck and got up on my toes so I could get his attention

" Tina's here. I think Lauri and Alexa told her that you were here."

" I know. I saw her. Don't worry, if she tries to start anything I'll just have security kick her out okay?"

I nodded my head and tried not to worry. She walked over to Lauri and Alexa and started to talk to them. I watched her like a hawk and after awhile I relaxed as she didn't come anywhere near us. I didn't want my whole night to be ruined because of here so I decided to dance. I danced with all of the guys. After a little while Pat excused himself to go to the bathroom. Almost fifteen minutes went by and he didn't come back so I went to go look for him. I made my way to the bathrooms and I thought I saw two people leaning against the wall next to the men's door making out. It took a few seconds for me to realize that it was Tina and Pat. My hand flew to my mouth and my eyes immediatly teared up. I turned around and almost ran back to where we had been to get my jacket. Adam saw me and tried to stop me.

"Mel, what's wrong. Why are you crying

" Let me go Adam. I need to get out of here. Please.

" Where are you going?" he asked with worry in his eyes

" I don't know. Anywhere but here."

" You can't be running around Chicago in the middle of the night. Let me grab my stuff and we can get out of here."

I nodded my head and told him to hurry. He went and told Karri that he was taking me for a drive and to meet him back at the house in a little while. He gave her a quick kiss and we went to leave. I saw Patrick coming through the crowd looking at me and I tugged on the sleeve of Adam's jacket to get him to hurry up. He looked up and saw what I was looking at and got the hint and pushed his way through the crowd before Patrick could get to us. By the time we got outside I was full on sobbing and Adam put his arm around my waist to support me. He helped me into his rover and started to drive. He was silent until I more or less got myself under control

" What did he do?" he asked in a quiet voice

I told him about what I had seen and how it looked to me.

" He was kissing her Bur. He was fucking kissing her."

He pulled into a empty parking lot and put the car into park. He reached over the seat and pulled me against him which made me start crying all over again. He tried to sooth me by rubbing my back and my crying finally came to a halt. He pulled some napkins out of his glove compartment and handed them to me.

" I know that I am not the best person to be handing out relationship advice but maybe you should give him a chance to explain his side of the story."

I shook my head as I wiped my nose

" You were always the stubborn one"

" I know what I saw Adam. I might be stubborn but I'm not stupid."

" I never said you were. All I know is that boy is head over heels in love with you. He hasn't so much as looked at another girl since he's been with you."

" He has a funny way of showing it." I muttered starting to get angry

He shook his head at me and asked where I wanted to go. I asked him if I could stay with him while I decided what to do. He agreed and drove to his house. His phone rang and I hoped that it wasn't Patrick.

" Hey baby. Yeah we're heading to the house right now. Tazer said he would bring you home. Yeah she's alright. Yeah just a second.

He held out the phone to me and I reluctantly took it

" Hey Karri"

" Hi. Are you alright?"

" Yeah I guess."

" Patrick is really upset. He saw you run off crying and really would like to explain what happened."

" He was kissing his ex. What more do I need to know?"

" I think there was more to it than that."

I heard some noise and her protesting and a voice came over the phone

" I really need to talk to you."

" There is nothing to talk about. Just be with that stupid bimbo if that's what you want."

" It..." There was more scuffling and Karri came back over the phone

" Look you guys need to talk this out. If you want I can have him come over to our house to make it easier."

" Fine. Whatever." I snapped getting pissed off that no one was listening to me.

" We will meet you at the house."

I handed the phone back to Adam and put my head against the window. Thoughts filled my head of the past several months. Eveything had been going so great that I should have know that it wouldn't stay that way. It made my chest ache to think that I wasn't going to be with him any more, but I couldn't let him do this to me. We pulled in front of the house and I was releaved to see the driveway empty as we pulled up. I knew that it would be a good thing to get myself in order before he showed up. I'd be damned if I was going to let him see me cry.

Cramping my style Chapter 12

It was the end of February and it was absolutely freezing cold outside. I put my gloves on so I could carry another box downstairs.


" Hey let me get that. It's too heavy." Adam said coming up behind me and grabbing the box out of my hand.


" You know just because I am a girl doesn't mean I can't do any heavy lifting" I grumbled at him


" I know but when you have all of us studs here to help you why would you want to?" he replied, giving me that smart ass grin that I loved


I rolled my eyes at his back as he headed out the door. The guys had a couple of days off and Tazer, Sharpie, Seabs and Bur had offered to come and help me move. I looked around at my almost empty apartment and felt a little twinge of sadness that I was leaving. It had been my home for a long time and it was hard to let go off.


" Everything alright baby?" Patrick asked as he came back inside


" Yeah it's fine. Really." I said as I gave him a kiss


" Remember we are meeting my mom for lunch in a few hours so try not to get to dirty okay."


" I remember. Do you think she'll like me?" he asked


" I have no doubt. Now let's get these last few box's packed and in the truck.


He followed me to what had been my bedroom. Everything was pretty much gone but I had left some clothes out in case I needed them and I wanted to throw them in a box before we left. Patrick reached down and grabbed something off the top of the pile and looked at me with a gleam in his eyes.


" Why haven't I seen these before?" He asked as he held up a pink lacy thong.


I grabbed them out of his hand and threw them in the box along with everything else.


" You haven't seen them before because Olivia gave them to me as a going away present. They also have a matching bra."


" I guess you'll have to try them on later."


" We'll see stud." I kissed him and wasn't surprised when he deepened the kiss. I opened my mouth when I felt his tongue against my lips and I started to wind my fingers through his curls. He seemed to love it when I did that and he moaned softly against my mouth.


" We need to stop before we get out of hand." I said a little out of breath from the kiss


" Why. The idea of throwing you on the floor and having my way with you is really hot"


I didn't say it outloud but I agreed with him. I went to kiss him again but we were interuppted by Seabs coming into the room with Tazer right behind him



" Are you guys done making out like horny teenagers yet? Adam wants to get going. Says he's got some important things that he could be doing. Like Karri"


" Yeah yeah. Here take this box. It's the last one." I handed him the last box and he turned to leave with it. He took a few steps and all of a sudden stopped and looked at me.



" Everyone's glad that you are coming to Chicago. Just thought you should know that."


" Aww. Thanks that's so sweet." I went to him and leaned up so I could give him a peck on the cheek.


" Hey now,Seabs find your own hot girl." Adam said trying to sound mad


I can't help it that I am so irresistable Kaner." With that he walked out of the room


Adam poked his head into the room and told us he was ready to go. Patrick had already given him a house key and instructions to just out everything on the living room floor. Everything else I had either given away or put in storage. We were going to have sort through everything and figure out what we did and didn't need but it was going to have to wait until we got home.


The thought of thinking of his house as my home caused me to smile.


" What are you thinking about?"


" I'm thinking that I am really glad that I decided to give this a chance." I replied honestly


His face lit up in a smile that matched mine and it made me warm to know that I put that on his face.


" Love you."

" Love you too."

We took one last look around to make sure that we hadn't missed anything. We decided to head to the restaurant a little early since we really didn't have anything else to do. It was a little Italian restaraunt that my family and I had ate at a hundred times. I choose it because I figured the chance of him getting recognized would be pretty small. At least that was what I was hoping. We were seated at a cute little table in the back and since it was a weekday there were only a couple of people. The waitress came and we ordered a couple of glasses of wine while we waited. I started to laugh at the look on Patrick's face when the lady asked him for his ID. He got out his wallet and handed it over and the lady looked at it and him several times before finally handing it back over and leaving to fill our order. I couldn't help but tease him.

" See mr. bigshot. I told you that they wouldn't recognize you around here."

" It's no big deal. Really. The lady was just doing her job."


The waitress came back with our glasses of wine. She hesitated for a minute like she wanted to say something but didn't know if she should


" I'm really sorry but one of my co-workers is convinced that you are some famous hockey player. Are you?"


" I play for the Chicago Blackhawks, yeah" he said looking at me triumphantly


" Oh. Well I'm sorry to bother you Mr. Kane. I was just wondering"


" No problem. And please call me Patrick."


She beamed him a huge smile at him and started to fawn over him. A small part of me wanted to be jealous but I knew that he was coming home with me and that was all I needed to know. I heard a familiar voice behind me and I got up to give my mother a big hug.

" Hey sweetie. It's so good to see you."

" Hi mom."

I introduced the two of them and wasn't surprised to see Pat turn on the charm and and it worked. She immediately warmed up to him which I was glad for.

" So you are one of Adam's teammates right?"


" Yep, he actually introduced us."


My mom adored Adam and at one point had tried to talk us into going out but finally gave up after figuring out we were serious that we were just friends. I was really hoping that she wouldn't bring it up. She had a way of opening her mouth and saying inappropriate things at the worse times. Luckily for me she didn't this time. We ordered our lunch and had an enjoyable time chatting. After a little while it was time to go since we had to drive back to Chicago. She gave him a hug and whispered something in his ear that made him nod his head.


"I'm going to go get the car babe. I'll be right back."


I nodded my head and watched him walk out the door


" I think you got a good one there." My mom said as she looked at me

" Yeah I think so too." I smiled as I said it

" If you need anything call me. I'm not that far away."

" I know mom. Love You."

" Love you too sweets. Call me and let me know how everything is going."

" I will."


She gave me one last hug and told me that we better be careful driving since the weather was suppose to get a little rough. I looked out and saw Patrick in his suv waiting for me.


" I gotta go Mom. I'll call you later."


With that we parted and I left.

I opened the door and slid into the passanger seat. This was it. I was officially starting a new chapter in my life and it didn't scare me anymore.


" What did my mom say to you?" I asked because I was nosy and couldn't help myself


" Why are you jealous?" he asked in a teasing voice


" No but if you don't tell me it will drive me crazy."


" I guess you'll just have to go crazy then won't you."


" Come on tell me." I said trying not to whine


" Fine. We'll see how long it is before you get laid again."


" Whatever. There's no way you can resist my sexy body."


" We'll see." I mused


The drive didn't take long and we were finally home. We parked and went inside and both of us immediatly sat on the couch as it had been a long day. He reached over and tried to grab me but I scooted away and grabbed the remote. I turned on the tv and found a ducks game that was on center ice. I focused on the game and totally ignored him. He tried to get me over to him a few more times but seemed to give up. I felt like I had won but I should have known better. After we had sat in silence for a little while I announced that I was tired and going to bed. He just nodded his head and didn't seem to really pay attention. I washed my face and changed into a pair of short shorts and a t-shirt to get ready for bed. I laid down and tried to sleep but I couldn't. I heard some noise on the stairs and Patrick came in. He quickly stripped down and took his place next to me. I moved so I was against him and he turned on his side so his chest was against my back. He didn't say anything as he moved my hair and started to kiss my neck. I gritted my teeth as I tried not to react. I was doing a pretty good job of controlling myself when his hand started to wander over my side and down my stomach. I couldn't help myself. I turned slightly towards him so he could reach better. His hand slid down my stomach and into my shorts. His fingers slid into me and I groaned. I moved my hips against his hand and turned my head so I could kiss him. He kissed me and I could feel my orgasm building. Then without warning he stopped. I looked at him in surprise. He made a big show of stretching and yawning.


" I got an early practice tomorrow. I should really go to bed." He turned away from me on his side. All I could do is stare at his back in disbelief. Is this seriously happening?


" What the hell. You can't do that to me."


" Do what babe?" he asked turning to look at me.


" You can't turn me on like that and then not finish. It's not right."


" I thought you could go without sex."

I could tell by the look he was giving me that I was going to have to tell him something that I didn't want to say.


" If I tell you that I can't resist you will you finish what you started?" I asked with annoyance

" What was that? I couldn't hear you."

" I said I can't resist you, now get your ass over here and finish what you started." I practically growled at him

He did as I asked and moved over me. He looked at me before he moved his lips to mine. His kiss was slow and passionate and perfect. It didn't take long before things quickly got more heated. I saw a look of surprise on his face as I pushed him off of me and onto the bed. I straddled his legs and and leaned down so I could kiss his perfect lips. He pulled off my shirt and quickly unhooked my bra, pulling it off of me. His hands found my breast and gently started to knead them. I moaned into his mouth at the sensations that were coursing through me. I slid down his body and pulled his boxers off as I went. I moved back up his legs and positioned my self over his hips. He helped to guide himself inside of me and I shuddered as he filled me. I moved slowly at first.He grabbed at my hips to move me faster but I moved them away. I wanted to be in charge. He took the hint as he moved them back to my chest. Our moans intertwined as we moved together. That's when it happened. One of the most painful things that I had ever endured in my life. Talk about some shitty timing.

Redecorating is fun Chapter Chapter 11

I woke up to a empty bed the next morning. I stretched out and swore I smelled food cooking. My stomach growled and I decided to go see what was going on. I knew that I couldn't look or smell that great so I decided to take a quick shower before I headed down. I was putting my wet hair up when there was a knock at the door.


" Come in" I yelled as I pulled my hair into a tight bun.


His sister Jess poked her head in the room.



" Is it okay if I come in?" she asked



" Yeah come on in. I was just about to come down."


She opened the door wider and came in and sat on the bed. I wasn't exactly sure where this situation was going so I decided to wait for her to start the conversation.




" I'm sorry if we seem to be such bitches to you, it just after the last one that he dated we were kind of wary, you know what I mean?"




" Yeah I understand. They were dating when we met. She was one of the most horrible people that I have ever had to be around." I said making a face





" We didn't even refer to her by name. We would call her the skinny psych bitch when we weren't around Pat."




" Yeah that about sums it up." I agreed laughing


" Well I just wanted you to know that we don't think that of you. You seem good for Pat."



" Thanks Jess. That means a lot to me. I know how important his little sisters are to him." I said with a smile




" You should see him when we try to introduce guys to him. He actually told my last boyfriend that he had nineteen guys that would beat the shit out of him if he was anything other than a gentleman. It's annoying that he thinks he can have sex but we aren't suppose to know it exist."



" That's what big brothers do I guess."




" Yeah I know but it's still annoying. Anyway's mom sent me up here to let you know that breakfast is done if you want to eat."



" Yeah I could smell it. I'll be down in a minute."




" Oh just so you know, you might want to move the bed away from the wall. The headboard banging against it makes a lot of noise." She said with a grin before she walked out of the room closing the door behind her.



Dammit. I was beyond embarrased. I knew that while we weren't exactly loud but I was really hoping that no one heard or paid any attention. I wouldn't be surprised if his mother hated me now. I was taking advantage of her little boy and no mother would appreciate that. I was tempted to just get back in bed and pull the covers over my head but I knew that wasn't an option. I took a breath and went downstairs to to the kitchen. I was pleasantly greeted by everyone and was handed a plate full of food. The morning went well and the time seemed to fly by as I spent time with his family. Right before noon we heard the door open and Patrick's voice yell



" Hey I'm home."


" we're in the living room." I yelled back to let him know where we were



" Hey what's everyone doing?" he asked as he threw his hockey bag on the floor next to the couch



" Nothing. Your sisters were just telling what it was like to grow up with a competitive brother. Did you really throw soccer balls at them if they didn't want to play with you?"



He shrugged his shoulders



" It's not like I didn't warn them."



" That is so mean!" I exclaimed



" Great now your going to be ganging up on me." he groaned



" Probably." I agreed with him.


Everyone laughed. He pulled me off of the couch by my hands and pulled me to him.


" I'm going to steal my girlfriend for a minute. We'll be right back."



They all nodded in agreement and he pulled me by the hand towards the stairs.


" Remember what I told you about the bed!" I heard Jess's voice yell at us



We went into his room and he closed the door behind us




" What did Jess tell you about the bed?" he asked as he turned around



I repeated what she had told me about the headboard and I was blushing fire engine red



" I guess we weren't that quiet then huh."




" I guess not."

He closed the distance between us quickly and I tried to back up



" Don't worry babe. That isn't why I brought you up here. " He said with a chuckle


" I've just been thinking about some stuff and I wanted to talk to you about it.



He did his usual routine of coming up to me and wrapping his arms around my waist. I returned the gesture and put my body against his so I could inhale his scent and listen to his heart beat. He kissed the top of my head and whispered something that made my heart almost beat out of my chest.

" I love you, you know that right." he said looking at me with a very serious look on his face

My face lit up in a huge smile and I let him tip my face up for a sweet gentle kiss. He looked at me with an expectant look on his face. I knew what he was expecting but I wanted to make him work for it.

" Thank You" I said trying not to grin

" That's it?"

" Umm yeah. That's it."

He turned me around and threw me on the bed. He fell on me and started to tickle me. I was extremly ticklish and it only took a few minutes for me to start yelling.

" Stop you jackass"

" Not until you say it." he said continuing to tickle me.

" Fine, fine. I love you. Now stop." I screeched

He let up and I tried to catch my breath.

"I mean it. I do love you.

" I never had any doubt."




He laid his body against mine and pulled on the neck of my tshirt. He laid gentle kisses on my collar bone and I lost all train of thought.



" Move in with me." he said looking at me




" What?" I said wanting to make sure that I heard him right


" Move in with me." he repeated looking at me intently


I pushed him off of me and jumped up and went for the door. Unfortuantly for me he was just as fast. He grabbed me by the arm.


" Don't run away. Talk to me."


I didn't know if I could verbalize everything that was running through my head at warp speed. But I knew that he deserved an explanation.




" I can't move down here with you." I told him as I looked at the floor


" Why not?" he said sounding hurt and just a little angry


" I don't know. I just can't okay."




I wiggled out of his grip and took a few steps back




" Babe. I'm sorry. I just don't understand.




How could I tell him that I wasn't sure that I was ready to give up my whole life to be with him.


I swallowed and tried to explain





" What happens if things don't work out? You aren't the one taking any risk. I'll be the one that's left with nothing"



" I realize that but sometimes the risk is worth the reward."



I blinked a few times and thought about what he said. And I knew that he was right.



" Okay. But I have somethings that you have to agree to first."



" Alright. Anything."



" First. I have to find a job before I come down here. Second I am keeping my apartment for a couple of months in case things don't work out. I don't want to end up homeless. Third, you will let me help pay for stuff, even if it is just some grocerries every week." I looked at him and waited for a response.



" I don't like the idea of you keeping your apartment but if that's what it takes to get you down here I'll deal."



I came to him and wrapped him in a hug



" Thanks for being understanding. I'm really not trying to be difficult."



" I know babe. That is one of many things that I love about you. We should go back downstairs so everyone doesn't wonder what is going on."



He put his hand in mine and we went downstairs. When we walked into the living room we found everyone's eyes move to us.



" Is everything okay?" his mother asked



" Yeah Mom, everything is fine."



He led me to the couch and pulled me down on his lap. I snuggled against him and thought about how much things were going to change for me. It scared the living shit out of me that I was the one who had to change everything but it wasn't like he had a normal job where he could relocate closer to me. I just had to have faith that everything would work its self out.

Distance Makes The Heart Grow Fonder Chapter 10

We got into the routine of talking almost everyday. It wasn't the same as actually being together but it made it bearable. It had been almost three weeks since we had seen each other and I was excited that I was finally going to have the time to see him and the rest of the guys. They had finished a two week road trip and the tean had done pretty well but Patrick hadn't scored that much and I could tell he was getting frusterated. They had Friday and Saturday off and were playing a early game on sunday. I took a vacation day on Friday from work so I could head down to Chicago early. I finally pulled up in front of his house and I pratically ran to the door. I knocked and only had to wait a few seconds before he opened the door. I didn't even give him time to greet me as I jumped on him and attacked him with my lips. We kissed until we needed to breath.

" Hey babe. It's nice to see you." He said with a grin as he sat me down


" I have a surprise. Don't be mad at me." he said as he grabbed my hand and led me to the kitchen.


" Why would I be mad at you?" I questioned as I followed him



I quicky figured out why he thought I would be mad. As we went into the kitchen I found four sets of eyes looking at me.



" Mom, Dad, girls, this is my girlfriend Melissa. Mel this is my family. They all said hi and I managed to squeek out a greeting. Patrick turned around and gave me a reassuring kiss on the cheek.



" I'm going to go get your suitcase out of the car. I'll be right back okay?" I knew I had to look terrified but he just patted my arm and left. I was left standing there by myself, feeling incredibly akward. Finally his mother spoke up.



" So Patrick tell's us that you are a nurse in Wisconsin."



" Um yeah a ortho scrub nurse at the University of Wisconsin Hospital."


" That sounds like a good job." She commented


" It is and I love it." I said figuring where she was going with this but waiting to see.


" You must make good money then."


" Donna!" Patricks father chided her


" No it's okay. I know the types of girls who try to get with these guys and as his mother she has every right to be suspicious. I do make good money and more importantly I have a pretty substantial savings. I don't love your son because he is a hockey player and has money. I love him because he is sweet and kind and is one of the most sincere people that I have ever met."


I knew that I was getting an attitude but I couldn't help it. It pissed me off that someone would even begin to compare me to someone like Tina. I was surprised by the reaction that I got. His mother jumped up and came over and gave me a big hug. At first I was so surprised that it took me a second to return it.


" I'm so glad he found someone like you. I thought he was going to never get rid of that horrible girl. My name is Donna by the way. That is Patrick Sr and that is Jessica and Erica."



She had let go of me and I greeted everyone but his sister's didn't do much more than stare at me. Patrick came back into the kitchen and put his arms around my waist. He put his chin on my shoulder and whispered in my ear.


" Everything alright?"


I nodded my head and turned enough so I could give him a kiss.


" Hey mom can you make your famous meatloaf and mashed potatoes for us."


" Sure sweetie. Whatever you want. I assume I'll have to go shopping?


" Yeah I don't think that I have any food in the house. Why don't you take Mel with you and I can spend a little time with Jess and Erica. I need to find out who I need to beat up."


I went and grabbed my coat and Patrick's keys since he had picked them up at the airport. His mother drove since it wasn't the first time that she had cooked for her son even though he hadn't lived at home in years. I didn't know what to talk about so I talked about the only thing that I knew we had in common.


" How did you handle sending Pat off at such a young age to play hockey?"

She looked at me in surprise.


" It wasn't easy, especially when he wanted to come back home. I can't begin to tell you how badly I wanted to go and get him but we saw how talented he was and we couldn't let him throw that away."


I nodded my head and knew that their decision had obvioulsy been for the best

" Do you want a family?" she asked catching me off guard.

" Yeah someday. I always figured that I would have had a couple by now but I had some bad dating experiences and never really found a guy that I loved enough to take that step with."


" Good" Was her only reply.


We got to the grocery store and had a pleasant time talking. She asked me all of the usual questions about my family and how we meant. We finally found everything that she would need and we headed back to the house. I helped her carry the everything inside and we found everybody in the living room watching Detroit play Anaheim.


" Donna do you need help with anything?" I asked as I set the bags of groceries on the counter.


" No sweetie. I can manage. I know that you guys don't get to see much of each other so go enjoy yourself. I'll let you know when everything is done."


" Okay. Thank you for everything."


" Thank you for making my son so happy."


She gave me a quick hug and pushed me towards the living room. I gladly went and sat next to patrick on the couch. He pulled me against his side and I cuddled against him. I couldn't stand Detroit and cheered when I saw that the Ducks were kicking their asses. Johan took a stupid penalty and I could help but comment.


" Serves him right. The mule, more like the ass if you ask me.


" Take it you aren't a big fan?" His dad asked looking at me

" He's a bully that deserves to get his ass kicked." I said trying not to sound pissed off.

" your right Pat. I do like this girl." His father said and I knew where Patrick got his cocky smirk from.

We sat and made the occasional comment about diffrent plays and penalties as they happened. I tried to concentrate on the game but I kept getting distracted. Patrick had wrapped his arm around my waist and and had his hand resting underneath my shirt. If that wasn't bad enough his thumb was making small circles on the skin right above the top of my jeans. I knew he didn't mean anything by it, especially not with his family in the room but I couldn't help but squirm a little. I noticed his sister Erica staring at me. I gave her a small smile and tried to discreetly move his hand. I was saved by his mother coming in and telling us that dinner was done. It was a nice meal and I enjoyed his family. Even his sisters seemed to be warming up to me. Thank God. After dinner I helped with dishes and Patrick came up behind me and kissed my neck.

" I have practice tomorrow. Is it okay if you hang out with my family for a little while?

" Yeah that would be fine. When do you plan on getting home?

" Probably around lunch time. Why?"

" No reason. I was just wondering."

" Are you gonna miss me?" he asked in a teasing voice

" I'll be glad to get rid of you for a few hours." I told him

We were interupted by his father.

" Everyone is heading to bed. Just wanted to tell you guys goodnight.

" Night" we both said at the same time

" See that wasn't so bad now was it." he said looking at me

" No it wasn't but I wish I would have had more warning."

" Sorry about that. It was kind of last minute and I knew that if I told you they were coming that you would just obsess about it.

Damn how did he know me so well already? It was kind of scary but he was exactly right.

" Yeah your right. That is exactly what I would have done. Let's go to bed. I'm pretty exhausted."

He threaded his fingers through mine and led me upstairs. I went to the master bathroom to change and he followed behind me.

" What are you doing?" I asked raising my eyebrow at him

" I thought that I would take advantage of the fact that my beautiful sexy girlfriend is going to be mostly naked. Less work for me." He moved towards me and as much as it pained me I stopped him.

" Hey stud, I am not having sex with you while your family is in the house. That would be extremly rude and kind of gross.

" Come on I haven't seen you in forever. It's not that big of a deal."

He came at me again and this time I let him close the distance. He wrapped his arms around me and gave me his best lost puppy look. I tried to resist but it wasn't working very well and I knew he could tell.

" You can be quiet can't you?" he whispered in my ear.