Saturday, April 17, 2010
Feel Like I Have To Apologize
So about the last post. I had a meltdown yesterday. I mean a complete utter meltdown that at one point included sitting in my car for an hour crying after I got sent home from work for freaking out badly. The worst part is that the manager that yelled at me and sent me home is someone that I really like and respect so I know that I was being stupid because she has never had to do that in the year that I have worked there and she tells me all of the time that I am one of her favorite people to work with. I know that the problem isn't this story and people not commenting and it isn't the people that I work with but in all honesty it's me. I am trying to adjust to being a single parent and being responsible for everything since his father left me a little over two months ago and I think that it's pretty safe to say that I am not doing a very good job of it. I just feel like I've lost control over my life and I hate it and even moreso I hate myself for not being strong enough to deal with it. I am giving some serious thought to talking to a psychologist and maybe even being put on some medication because of the depression and severe mood swings that I have been experiencing. Anyway I am trying to say that I am sorry and that I do intend to continue with this and my other story but honestly I can't make any promises as to when that may happen but this is one of the few things that are keeping me from going completely nuts right now so I think that it will be sooner rather than later. Sorry for dumping all of my problems on you guys but I just wanted you to understand where I was coming from.