Saturday, December 26, 2009
" Did she tell you why she won't marry you?"
" She said that being pregnant wasn't a good enough reason to get married."
" Did you tell her that wasn't the only reason. That you were going to ask her anyways?"
" Yeah but she didn't want to hear it. Those damn hormones are making her crazy. Just yesterday I walked into the living room and I didn't even say anything and she started yelling at me about how fat she was and that it was all my fault. Then she started to cry and locked herself in the bathroom for an hour."
" Man that is crazy"
I had heard enough. I walked into the kitchen and went right to Tazer, ignoring Patrick. He looked relieved as I greeted him with a smile and a kiss.
" How are you feeling."
" Considering I feel and look like the goodyear blimp, pretty good. You know when I'm not acting crazy." I added to let Patrick know that I had heard their conversation
Poor Tazer looked like a deer caught in the headlights and he nervously rubbed the back of his neck.
" Umm I think that I should get going. I have a lot of stuff to get done at the house before we go on our road trip tommorow.
I was mad but the rationale part of my brain overtook my hormones for what seemed to be the first time in months.
" I'm sorry that I am being so horrible. I really can't help it."
" I know babe. After the baby is born everything will settle down." He said as he crossed the distance between us and enveloped me in his arms. I settled against him as much as much a my belly would allow.
" I'm going to be as big as a house by the end."
" Doesn't matter. You'll still be beautiful and you always will be."
" Sure butter up the fat lady." I grumbled against his chest
" You aren't fat, you're plump and I love you just the way you are."
" You won't be saying that when I don't lose the baby weight"
He knew that there was no arguing with me in my current condition and he had a road trip to pack for.
" The girls will be coming over tomorrow. Buy what ever you like for the nursery and have it delivered to the house. We will try to figure everything out once it gets here."
He pulled me against him and kissed me. The team was going to be leaving on an fourteen day road trip since the circus was scheduled to be at the United Center. I tried to relax against his body. Our busy schedules and the fact that I was self concious about my growing body had made having any kind of sex life hard. I had to give it to the poor guy, he seemed to be taking it pretty well. He hadn't complained once.
" We still have people in the house." I whispered as I ran my fingers through his hair, giving him a suggestive smile
He let me go and all but ran up the stairs. I slowly followed behind him and heard him tell the painters that they could go ahead and pack up and leave. I went to our bedroom and laid on the bed and waited. Finally he came in fifteen minutes later and plopped on the bed.
" Everyone's gone." he said a little breathlessly
I pulled him next to me on the bed and started kissing him again. I tensed up as his hand went to my stomach and he hesitated. I grabbed his hand and pulled on it so the bottom of my shirt came up. All of a sudden the smell of fresh paint hit my nose and it immediately made me sick to my stomach. I pushed him off and got to the bathroom in just enough time to start heaving my guts into the toliet. I heard him come into the bathroom and was grateful when I felt his hand gently pull my hair back. It took a few more minutes but I was finally able to stop dry heaving. I leaned against the tub and wiped at my mouth with the back of my hand. My stomaach was still rolling and I didn't trust it enough to get up just yet.
" Is everything alright babe? You haven't gotten sick like that in awhile."
I nodded and let him help me to my feet.
" I think the paint fumes finally got to me. I have to brush my teeth."
He left me to get the nasty taste out of my mouth. He came back a few minutes later with a package of saltine crackers and a can of sprite, two things that had become staples in our house since I had found out I was pregnant. I took them from him gratefully and let him lead me back to the bedroom. I felt horrible when I saw the rumpled sheets and remembered what we were in the process of doing. Ever since I had found out I was pregnant our sex life had been suffering and while he was being patient and understanding, he had to be getting frustrated. I turned around to apologize yet again but was silenced with a kiss.
" I know what you are going to say. It's fine. I know you didn't do it on purpose. Let's get you to bed.
I followed him to the bed and curled up next to him. I nibbled on my crackers and sipped the soda while we watched some movies on t.v. I quickly drifted off to sleep. I woke up the next day to find his side of the bed was cold. I got up and found him downstairs with his luggage around him and already dressed in his suit.
" Hey I was just about to come wake you up to say goodbye."
" I thought I was giving you a ride since I didn't have to work today." I grumbled
" I figured you still wouldn't be feeling well after last night and I figured I could catch a ride with Burish."
I knew that part of the reason that he didn't want me at the airport is that reporters and fans had gone crazy when they found out that he was going to be a father and I started to be approached by random strange people when I went out in public. He insisted that I have someone with me at all times, which I thought was ridiculas but it seemed to make him feel better so I tried not to put up to much of a fuss.I wasn't even six months along and people were already making predictions that this baby was going to be born with skates on and a stick in his hand. The funny thing is that we weren't even sure what we were having yet. In both ultrasounds the baby had been turned away so the doctor couldn't see anything. I had made the doctor laugh when I commented on the fact that this baby was already being as stubborn as it's father. The door opened and in walked Adam. He pulled me into a hug and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.
" How is my favorite nephew or niece doing?" he asked as his arms snaked around my shoulders
The baby started to kick at the sound of his voice. It was hard enough that it made me winch. I motioned for Patricks hand and grabbed Adam's free hand and pushed their fingers into the spot where he or she was currently using the inside of my uterus as a kicking bag. They both grinned at each other before they backed off.
" I'll be out waiting in the rover. We have to leave in a few minutes." He reminded Patrick as he left to give us a few minutes alone to say goodbye. I hugged him close and he kissed the top of my head. I made him promise to call as soon as they got into Denver and we heard the horn honk letting us know that it was time for him to get going. He grabbed everything and gave me one last kiss before he had to head out the door. I knew it was going to be awhile before they got to Colorado so I settled onto the couch. I called and ordered out for lunch since I didn't have the energy to cook for just myself. It was saturday and I knew that I should really try to get some shopping for the baby done but I didn't feel like leaving the house. I just wanted to relax before I had to go back to work, which had been killing my feet and back as I got bigger. I laid on the couch and put the t.v on as a distraction. I hated it when he was away and this was by far the longest road trip that they would be on all year. I got a text message around eight from Patrick.
"boys wanna go out? Is that okay?"
" Yep. Just be safe."
" K. Love you"
" Love you too. Have fun."
I sat my phone on the table and went to get ready for bed. I tossed and turned and I thought about calling him. I had a feeling that something bad was going to happen but I figured that I was just being stupid. He had his teammates to look out for him and it wasn't like he wasn't a big boy who could take care of himself.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Saturday, December 12, 2009
" Don't worry about me. You hardly ever get to see your sisters. Just enjoy your family for the next couple of days. I have to go back to work tomorrow anyways."
" Okay. Call me when you get in town." He looked at me with worry on his face. I knew that he knew something was up but he didn't ask me about it. Even if he had I wouldn't have told him. I didn't want to freak him out, especially since I wasn't sure there was anything to be freaking out about. I wanted to reassure him so I pulled him closer to me and tipped my face up to his so I could kiss him. I could feel that familiar low tug in my stomach and I had to pull away before it got to heated in public.
" I'll see you in a couple of days. Love you." I said softly.
" Love you to babe."
I went to get into line for security and when I turned around I saw that a group of people had approached Patrick. He was signing autographs and taking pictures with some fans. At the back of the group was a man with a boy that appeared about seven. They waited patiently as everyone crowded around Pat. Finally they got to the front of the group and I melted into a puddle of goo as I watched him kneel in front of the boy and talk to him. He signed a piece of paper and ruffled his hair as he got back up. I knew in that moment that one thing I didn't have to worry about was him being a good father. I heard a voice behind me telling me that I had to move and I shook myself out of my thoughts and concentrated on what was going on in front of me. The plane ride seemed to take forever and I practically ran off the plane when it landed. I looked around and was relieved to see Karri already waiting for me.
" Did you pick up the tests?" I asked trying to keep the anxiety attack I was about to have at bay.
" Well hello to you too."
" Sorry. It's just that I am on the verge of having a complete meltdown and I need to know one way or the other so I can figure out what to do."
She looked at me with what I took as sympathy as she led the way to the baggage claim. I grabbed my small suitcase. We walked out to her car and got in to go to my house. I was so nervous that I was getting physically nauseous so I tried to take deep breaths to calm myself.
" It'll be okay. You know that right?" Karri asked as she turned her head to look at me
" What if it's not okay. He's so young and we haven't even been together a year. I don't want him to think that I got pregnant to try to trap him or something."
At this point I sounded like a hysterical crazy person but I couldn't help it. I started to chew on my fingernails, something that I hadn't done in years. We finally pulled into the driveway of the house and I grabbed the plastic bag that Karri had placed in the backseat. I went inside and locked myself in the bathroom. I took all three test to make sure that I didn't get a false positive. I couldn't sit in the bathroom and wait for the ten minutes so I went and joined Karri on the couch in the living room. I jumped and almost fell off the couch when I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I grabbed for it and saw that the caller id had Patrick's name on it. Shit, I had forgotten to call him.
" Hey is everything okay. You didn't call." he said sounding a little pissed
" Yeah sorry. I got talking with Karri and I just forgot."
" It's okay. I just wanted to make sure that you got home."
" Yep. Got here just fine and dandy."
He started to tell me about having to meet Jackie's first boyfriend and I basically tuned him out and started to get anxious as the ten minutes I needed to wait ticked down. Karri tapped on her wrist to let me know that it was time.
" Babe, I really need to get going. Karri wants to go to dinner." I interuppted him abruptly in the middle of his story. I knew that I was being rude, but I needed to get off the phone
" Oh" was all he said. I hated how hurt he sounded
" I'll call you later. Love you."
" Yeah" he replied shortly. I was left with the dial tone in my ear as he abruptly hung up on me. I shook my head and tried not to cry. Karri asked me if I was ready and even though I nodded my head I couldn't will my legs to move. It was as if my feet were encased in cement.
" Do you want me to go look?" Karri asked when she saw that I wasn't moving.
" Yeah, please" Oh god I was about to vomit. Or maybe pass out from lack of breathing
I watched as she got up and disappeared into the bathroom. I felt like puking as I waited and a few minutes later she came out holding one of the sticks, a frown on her face.
" Is it suppose to look like this?" She asked as she handed me the stick. I groaned as I saw what she was talking about. There was the first line like there should have been and there was a second line that would usually indicate pregnancy but in this case it was very faint.
" Are the other two like this?" hoping that wasn't the case
" Yeah. One is even fainter."
" Dammit. I'm going to have to make a doctor's appointment." I muttered getting frustrated. This didn't help at all. Karri had to leave but made me promise to call if I needed anything. I thought about not calling Patrick and just going to bed but I didn't want to piss him off anymore than he already seemed to be. Our conversation was short and tense and I quickly ended it by mentioning that I had to be up early for work. The next day I made a appointment at the clinic that was attached to the hospital and was relieved to find out that they had an opening after work on friday. On Wensday it was finally time for Patrick to come home. I was feeling a mixture of dread and excitment as it came closer to the time that I was suppose to pick him up. I made my way to O'hara and waited anxiously in a small crowd of people. Finally I saw him and I stood back and waited while he was mobbed with people looking for autographs and pictures. He obliged the crowd but I could tell that he was looking for me. His eyes finally met mine and I smiled at him but he didn't return it, at least not as much as I would have liked. He finally had to excuse himself and he made his way over to me. He greeted me with a hello and a chaste kiss and I didn't push it. He got his luggage and took over driving without asking. I just looked out the window as the silence weighed on us. I glanced over at one point and I could see him clenching his jaw, which was a sure sign that trying to explain to him what was going on wouldn't be a good idea. When we got home I went to start the laundry and as I was sorting through all of the clothes I heard the door open behind me.
" We need to talk." I heard him say behind me. I tried to quickly think of something to say to get out of this but when I turned around I saw the look on his face and knew that there was nothing I could say that would change his mind.
" What do you want to talk about?" I said trying to act like I had no idea what he was talking about
" What the hell is going on with you? Everything was fine until the night of the party and then you got all weird. You've been pushing me away and I can't figure out what I did to make you angry.
He looked so upset and I felt horrible when I realized what I had been putting him through in the last couple of days. I pulled on his shirt so he was close to me. I threw my arms around his waist and buried my face in his shirt so I could inhale his familiar scent. His arms found there way around me and I felt his chin rest on the top of my head.
" You didn't do anything wrong. Promise. It's just that I've been really stressed the last couple of days."
" Stop pushing me away and talk to me. Maybe I can help?" he said rubbing my back trying to be soothing.
I pulled away and looked at him. I still wasn't sure what his reaction would be but I knew that he deserved to know why I was acting so crazy.
" I might be pregnant."
His eyes got huge as he processed the information that I just let him know. He didn't say anything for a few minutes and I pulled away and braced myself for the worst. I was surprised when he pulled me against him and kissed me."
" You should have told me instead of keeping something like that to yourself. " he chastised gently
" I didn't want to tell you until I knew for sure and I took three test but I have to go to the doctor's because I'm still not sure. Plus I was afraid that you were going to me mad at me."
" Because we haven't been together a year and your only twenty one. What are people going to say?"
" It doesn't matter what other people think and I'm not mad. Surprised but not mad."
I felt a huge weight lift from my chest as he smiled at me. He had every right to be upset and yet here he was handling the whole situation better than I had been. I was so lucky to have this fantastic man love me. I couldn't even put into words what I was feeling so I decided to show him. I grabbed his face and kissed him and he responded in kind. It had been almost five days since we were able to have sex and I could tell how much he wanted me. His hands roamed up under my shirt and started to gently knead my breasts.
" Do you want to go upstairs?" he asked as he nibbled on the sensitive spot on my neck
My brain was mush and it was all I could do to nod my head. He picked me up and carried me upstairs. He set me down long enough so we could strip each other of our clothes. After almost two hours we laid in bed in a sweaty tangle, both of us content. We talked about my appointment and even though he wanted to be there he agreed that it would draw to much attention. He kept running his hand over my stomach. I made him promise not to tell anyone until we knew that there was something to tell everyone.
" If you are pregnant I hope it's a boy."
I could picture a small boy with blond curls just like Patrick. The image made me smile.
" And what if it would be a girl?" I asked in a teasing voice
" That would be fine. At least I would have nineteen guys to help me make sure that any guys that came around behave themselves."
I rolled my eyes but I could see him rallying the guys to scare the crap out of some poor unsuspecting teenage boy.
" Don't get too excited. There is a chance that there is something else going on."
Friday came and I went to my doctor's appointment. I made a promise to call him right away, no matter what the news was. I sat in the exam room as the nurse took my blood. Again like so many things that had happened over the week, getting the results seemed to take forever, even though it was only twenty five minutes later when I heard a knock at the door. The doctor came in with my chart in hand and I held my breath as he rifled through the paperwork
" Well I'm not sure if this is good news or not but it appears that you are pregnant. I would like you to schedule a full physical so we can make sure that everything is going well and to see how far along you are. He patted me on the shoulder as I agreed to make up a follow up appointment and he left the room as I hopped of the table. Even though I was happy and now knew that Patrick would be okay with it too I started to cry when I dialed his number.
" So do you think that guest room next to ours will make a good nusery."
I grinned as I heard him yelling at whoever was in the gym with him.
" Meet me at home so we can celebrate?"
" Yeah. I'm heading that way right now."
" See you in a few than. Love you."
" Love you to Patrick."
I drove home and my mind started to wander to all of the plans we were going to have to make. It was already the end of july and that only left a full month and maybe a week or two before training camp and the season started. I knew that the first thing that he would want to do was let everyone know what a stud of a man he was. When I pulled up Patrick's car was already in the driveway. His crazy ass must have drove way to fast to get home before me. I went inside and was immediatly swept up in a pair of strong arms. He spun me around and kissed me
" Can I start calling people and letting them know?
" Yeah. Do I need to tell you who I want to call?"
He went to the living room and I grabbed my phone out of my purse. It wasn't exactly a private conversation but it was important. The phone rang for a minute before he finally anwsered it.
" Hey Bur. I got something big to tell you"
" Let me guess. You and the kid are going to be parents."
" Wow you just took all of the excitment right out of that. Did Karri tell you?"
He let out a short laugh and told me that he knew something was up and he basically picked at her until she told him. I knew how persistant he could be so I couldn't even be mad at her.
" I just want to thank you for everything. None of this would be happening if it wasn't for you."
" Remember that when you are getting up in the middle of the night feeding the little monster."
" Yeah yeah. Don't worry your going to be my baby-sitter. I figure it will be good practice for when you have your own."
" I don't see that being for awhile. Karri wants to finish her degree and I like having my girlfriend to myself right now. We are planning on getting married as soon as she graduates."
" Can you believe it? If you had told me that I would be in a serious relationship and pregnant eight months ago I would have laughed."
" Trust me I know. I was beginning to think that you were the only women who I would ever meet that had the personality to put up with me and I always saw you as more of a sister."
" Sure, blame being a man slut in the past on me." I rolled my eyes even though I knew he couldn't see
His only response was to laugh because he knew it was true.
" I should get going. I have to call my mom still. She'll be pissed if she finds out that she wasn't the first person that I called."
" Yeah you better go. I don't want you to get in trouble. I'll see you later.I went to dial my mom's number but was overtaken by the strong urge to puke. I ran to the bathroom and barely made it to the toliet before I emptied what little bit I had in my stomach. I wiped my mouth and had a sneaking suspicion that this child was going to be just like it's father, loveable but the occasional pain in the butt.
Friday, December 11, 2009
I opened my eyes and for a second I didn't remember where I was. After my eyes focused I remembered that I was in Buffalo, more specifically in the room where Patrick had spent a large chunk of his childhood. I yawned and stretched as the door opened. Patrick jumped on the bed like a little kid.
" I'm glad to see your excited." I said laughing
" Are you kidding? I've been dreaming about this day since I was a little kid."
" I know and I can't tell you enough how proud I am of you."
" Thanks babe." he gave me a kiss and jumped back up
" We have to go to the airport in an hour to pick the cup up."
" I know. You've only reminded me a million times since we got here."
He bounced out of the room after reminding me to hurry up and get ready. I thought back to the last few months that brought us to today. I knew as a fan that the play-offs were intense but to experience as a significant other was a whole other ball game. We had our ups and downs because of the stress but we were able to work our way through it. They made their way through the Sharks, Kings and most importantly Detroit to make it to the Stanley cup finals against the Pens, just like I predicted earlier. I was able to go to all of the home games and they lived up to the hype that the media and hockey world gave it. In the end they ended up winning the Stanley cup at the United Center in front of the home crowd. I remember the guys celebrating at center ice and skating with the cup while I hugged Karri, Anna and all of the family members that were sitting around us. When we were finally able to go on the ice Patrick found us and I stood back as he hugged his family. He came to me last and pulled me into a tight hug.
" Congradulations babe. Love you." I whispered into his ear
" Love you too."
The rest of the night was a blur. Everyone was drinking champagne and celebrating and by the time we made our way back to Chicago everyone was completely gone. The city of Chicago threw a huge parade and there was a team party. After that everything settled down a little and all that was left to do was plan individual days with the cup. We both attended Adam's party, which he held in Madison and it was nice to be able to see people that I hadn't seen since I'd moved. Olivia and her family were finally able to meet Patrick and she loved him just as much as my mother did. We started to plan his day the week after they won and we flew into Buffalo the day before to make sure that everything was ready for today. I was brought out of my memories by a knock on the door. His sister Jackie poked her head in the door.
" Pat said that if you aren't ready in a half an hour he's leaving without you."
" I'm getting up right now." I huffed, dragging myself out of bed. I knew that I didn't have a lot of time so I quickly did what I needed to do. I slid the summer dress on that I had picked out earlier as I heard my name being called from across the house. I took one last look at myself and decided that I was presentable and went to find Patrick
" You look beautiful"
" Thank you. You don't look to bad yourself." I commented as I looked at his semi dressy choice of a polo and dress slacks.
We left to get to airport on time to get the cup and it's keeper. After that we were all going to Niagra Falls to take pictures, having a charity event where people who donated money were able to take a picture with the cup and a family party. It was looking to be quiet a crazy, busy day but I didn't care. This whole day wasn't about me, it was about Patrick and I was willing to do whatever it took to make sure that he enjoyed himself. We greeted the cup keeper at the airport and Patrick couldn't keep the grin off his face as he helped strap it into the back of his escalade.
We got back to the family house and we were off to the falls. We met with a photographer and we had alot of fun taking them. I thought it was very cute that Patrick insisted on getting a picture of all his "girls" with the cup. Afterwards we stopped for lunch at a little restaurant that they use to go to when the Pat was younger and the attention that the cup and Patrick got was insane. The rest of the day went well and really quickly. By the time the party came around I was exhausted. He had decided to cater in the food so his mother wouldn't have to worry about cooking or cleaning anything up. I met so many of his extended family that there is no way that I was going to remember everyone but they were all very nice. After everyone ate and congratulated him I went to sit on the couch to relax for a minute by myself. I laid my head back on the couch and closed my eyes for a minute. I heard someone come and sit down beside me. I cracked open my eyes to see Donna looking at me.
" Are you okay? Your looking a little pale and you didn't eat very much."
" Yeah I'm fine. I just haven't been sleeping the greatest and it's messing with my stomach a little."
" So your tired and sick to your stomach."
" Yeah, and I've been kind of headachy too. Maybe I have a slight flu bug."
She grabbed my hand and looked at me.
" When did you get your period last?"
The question caught me off guard
" I really don't get it. The most that I ever have to deal with is spotting sometimes. I've been on depo since I was eighteen."
I thought about what she was insinuating. It couldn't be possible could it?
Saturday, December 5, 2009
" Shit" I muttered. With everything that had happened I didn't need people getting the wrong idea about Patrick. Well I was wearing the jersey that he had given me to the game later and the arms were so baggy that there was no way anyone would notice. I got up and went about my own routine. I wasn't quite sure when he would be home so I decided to surprise him by making him lunch. I found some pasta and chicken, the staple of any hockey players diet. I found everything that I needed to prepare a simple lunch. I had everything almost ready when I heard the door open and close. I smiled as I tasted the tomatoe sauce to make sure that it was hot. I felt a pair of strong arms wrap themselves around my waist.
" Hey how was practice?" I asked turning around so I could get my arms around his neck
" It seemed pretty good. The guys are pretty revved up for tonight."
" I bet. It should be a good game."
He mumbled his agreement as he kissed my neck.
" The food smells good. Let's eat while it's still hot."
I grabbed two plates and dished up the food and we ate. As we ate and talked he noticed the marks on my wrist
" Babe what's wrong with your wrist?" he asked me
" You do remember what happened last night right?"
It took a second but I could see that he had figured it out. He looked at me with a look of horror on his face
" I hurt you."
I wanted to reasure him when I saw how guilty he looked
" If you had been doing something that I didn't like I would have told you."
" Are you sure?" You aren't just saying that to make me feel better, are you?"
" Yes I'm sure and no I'm not. I wouldn't want sex like that all the time but it has it place and I'm not as breakable as I look."
He didn't exactly look convinced but he nodded his head. I took the dishes to the sink and decided that I would do them later. I knew that he would be laying down pretty quick so I ran upstairs and grabbed everything that I needed to get ready so I wouldn't have to bother him. I put everything in the bathroom and went back downstairs.
" I have everything I need out of the bedroom if you want to head upstairs for your nap"
"You could come with me if you want." he said giving me a look I had come to know well."
" I don't think that's a good idea. You need to stick to your routine."
He tried to pout but quickly saw that I wasn't going to budge. He went upstairs and laid down and I did a few chores that needed to be done. The time went by pretty quickly and I jumped in the shower to get ready. I threw on my jersey and the the braclet that Patrick had bought me what seemed like forever ago. When I was done I saw that it was about time for him to get up and get ready himself so I decided to see if he had woken up yet. I walked into the bedroom and saw that he hadn't woken up yet and he looked so young with his messy hair and arm thrown over his head. I sat on the bed and kissed him gently on the face. He moved his arm and opened his eyes and looked at me sleepily.
" Time to get up and get ready"
He got ready as I waited downstairs and when he came down I had to admit that he looked good in his suit and tie. I straighted his tie a little bit and we left for the united center. As we were driving he told me that he arranged for me to sit in the box that his agent had rented for the game. I wasn't sure that I liked the idea but I didn't want to cause any trouble so I agreed. He went and signed a few autographs for some dedicated fans before we made our way inside. I wanted to say hi to the guys and wish them luck before the game. I made my way inside the locker room knowing that no one should be to naked yet. I quickly made my way around the room and it didn't take me long to get back to Patrick.
" Come on. We have to meet Pat."
He grabbed my hand and led me out of the room and down the hallway. I saw a man standing with someone who appeared to be Sidney Crosby. We waited until they were finished and he took me up to him and introduced us. He looked me up and down while he shook my hand and I felt like I was being sized up.
" We have to talk later about your schedule next week. I know that you wanted to take the week off but we need to get you back at it okay?"
" Yeah I know. I have to go get ready. I'll see you guys after the game."
I gave him a kiss and wished luck and I was left alone with Pat. He told me that we could head up to the box and I silently follewed him up to the box. I had never been in one of the luxury boxes before and I had to admit that I was impressed. He offered me a water and we took our seats. He didn't say anything but I could see him looking at me out of the corner of his eye. I knew that as an agent it was his job to look out for his clients and I braced myself for any questions.
" So Pat tells me that he met you through Adam Burish."
" Yep. We've been friends for along time."
" So you understand what kind of commitment these guys have to put in outside of the rink."
" Yes I do. And I'm starting a new job on Monday so it's not like I don't have a life of my own."
" Good" he said with a look that almost looked like respect
He asked me about general stuff and it was almost like he was another father. He seemed satisfied with my all of my anwsers and soon enough the guys were on the ice to warm up. Tazer took the opening face-off against Crosby and lost it. The game was very physical and neither team wanted to give an inch. Pat seemed to be amused by all of the yelling that I did as different penalties were called and killed. Finally it came down to a shoot out as the score was tied at three a piece at the end. I started to bite my nails as the first Pens player lined up to take his shot. Huey stoned him and the crowd erupted. The first Hawk was Tazer and he wasn't able to bait Fleury into moving the opposite way. Crosby ended up scoring and Seabs got robbed by Marc so the Penguins ended up winning. The guys looked dejected as they skated off the ice as the Pens celebrated. I told Pat that I was going to go wait in the lounge and he told me that he would meet us in a little while. I started to make my way to the lounge and my phone rang. I had a text from Karri telling me that her and Anna would meet me after the crowd thinned out a little. I was sending her a text to let her know that was fine when I ran into something that almost knocked me completely on my ass. I felt a hand grab my arm. I looked up and saw a sweaty pens player holding onto me.
" You should really watch where your going." Said Max Talbot with a cute accented voice
" Sorry." I muttered as I shook out of his grip
" That's okay. I don't mind a pretty girl running into me." he said still standing close to me and grinning.
I didn't want to be rude but the way that he was looking me up and down was making me uncomfortable.
" You would look even better in one of our jerseys." he said still grinning at me
" Sorry but I think that my boyfriend wouldn't be very happy about that." I said trying not to sound as hostile as I felt
" So your dating one of the Hawks players. That's to bad. If you ever want to know what it's like to be with a man instead of a little boy look me up.
" I think that there is a good chance that I'll be seeing you sometime in June." I said with the upmost confidence
" I guess I'll see you around than. Tell Kane that he played a good game, unfortuantly for them we were better." With that he turned around and headed to the visitors locker room
" What an asshole" I muttered to myself. I heard voices behind me and turned around to see the girls heading towards me.
" What were you talking to Max Talbot for?" Karri asked me with raised eyebrows
I told her the story and they both laughed at me.
" It wasn't funny guys, he was a smug asshole."
" It wasn't that big of a deal. Let's go the guys are probably wondering where we are."
I followed them to the lounge and we found a place to sit. The guys finally started to come out and Pat found us while we were waiting. Everyone was almost gone and Pat asked me something that I had been hoping that he hadn't even payed attention to.
" If you don't mind me asking, what happened to your wrist?"
I couldn't help but turn ten shades of red and I considered telling him the truth but I couldn't bring myself to.
" I bumped it last night on the nightstand."
He eyed me and I knew that he didn't believe me.
" Look it isn't my buisness what you guys do in the privacy of your house but please remember that it is my job to protect my clients reputations and if the wrong person would see something like that they could interpret it any way that they wanted to and it probably wouldn't be good."
I nodded my head in understanding. The last thing that I wanted to do was cause any more problems or distractions.
Finally Patrick came out of the locker room. He didn't look happy but he wasn't as nearly as crabby as I would have thought. We discussed the situation with Tina and it was decided that we should avoid going out for awhile and hope that she would find someone else to harrass. They discussed some upcoming publicity commitments and then we were free to leave. We headed home. He was pretty quiet the whole drive and I let him know that I was there for him if he wanted to talk but I didn't push it. He sat on the couch and watched a replay of the game and analyzed everything that they did wrong and didn't acknowlede all of the good plays that they did make. I finally got annoyed after being basically ignored for almost two hours.
" I'm going to bed. Are you coming?"
" No I want to finish watching this." he said sounding snottier than I liked.
I went upstairs and tried to lay down. I knew he was a competitve guy but I really hoped that every loss wasn't going to be like this. Maybe I would have to talk to some of the other girls to see how they handled their men when they acted like this.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
" Patrick is in the living room waiting for you when you feel ready"
"I nodded my head and didn't say anything, afraid I was going to start crying again.
" Just listen to what he has to say and if you need anything Adam and I will be upstairs okay."
She got up and went to leave.
" Thanks for everything."
" You'd do the same for me" she said with a smile as she came over and gave me a hug
She left and I knew that I shouldn't put of the conversation that was about to happen. I took a deep breath to steady myself and walked out to the living room. He was standing by the couch and he looked just as bad as I did. He ran his fingers through already messy hair and took a step towards me. I held up my hand to stop him. The last thing I wanted was for him to be close to me. I wouldn't be able to think clearly if I let that happen.
" Just tell me what happened Patrick."
" I went to the bathroom like I told you. Tina must have followed me. Before I even knew what was happening she had me pinned up against the wall by the bathroom. " He had started to pace and I could tell he was agitated by what he was telling me
" She started to go on about how much she missed me and that she would change if I gave her another chance. I told her she was crazy and that I was a hundred times happier with you than I had ever been with her. I didn't think she was going to kiss me."
" Why didn't you push her away?" I asked softly not able to look him in the eyes
After everything that happened last summer I didn't want to cause a scene. After she kissed me I did push her away though.
I crossed my arms over my chest and thought about what he had told me. He looked absoluetly miserable and every fiber of my being told me he was telling the truth. I was still mad but I knew that he was right about not causing a scene. I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. He buried his face in my shoulder and let out an audible sigh of relief.
" I'm sorry. We should have left when she showed and none of this would have happened."
I pulled away and looked at him.
" It isn't your fault, but what can we do? I can deal with all of the crazy fans but I'm not sure that I can keep dealing with her.
" I don't know. Pat my agent is going to be at the game and I'll see what he says. If it's any consolation Buf and Duncs chewed Alexa and Lauri out when they found out what happened. They were both pretty pissed when they found out what they had done."
" Really?" I asked feeling better
" Yeah you should have seen it. They both started to cry. "
" Does it make me a horrible person to say that hearing that makes me really happy?"
" In this case no it doesn't. Let's go home and we can try to figure things out later."
" Okay, but give me a minute. I'll be right back."
He let go of me and I quickly made my way upstairs. The door to Adams room was closed but I didn't hear any noise so I figured it was safe to knock. I heard a voice telling me to come in and I opened the door and peeked my head in
" I just wanted to let you know that I am going to be heading home."
" Everything all right?" Adam asked as he got up and opened the door wider
" We have to figure some things out but yeah everything is okay."
" Damn and here I was hoping to get that threesome I've been fantasizing about all of these years." he joked as he pulled me into a hug.
" In your dreams you pig." Karri started to laugh behind me
" I may be a pig but you both love me anyways." he said with a knowing smile
" It is one of your many charms." I agreed
" Go home and have hot kinky make up sex and be happy. Will you be at the game tomorrow?"
" Yeah. I don't start work until next monday so I will be at the next couple of games."
" I'll see you tomorrow then."
" Alright. Night guys and thanks for everything"
I went downstairs and we got in the suv to leave. He grabbed my hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze.
" Are you sure we are alright? Your being awfully quiet." he asked with a slight hint of worry in his voice
" Yeah babe I'm sure. I'm just exhausted from all of the emotional stuff that happened tonight."
He brought my hand up to his mouth and kissed the back of it.
" Your mother told me to take care of you." he said seemingly out of nowhere
" What?" I asked
" You wanted to know what your mom said to me the day we met. That was it. She made me promise to look out for you and take care of you and I told her that I already planned on it."
" Oh" I whispered
We finally pulled into the drive and got out of the car. We went straight to the bedroom and I immediately went to the bathroom to wash my face and change. When I came out he was stripped down and laying on top of the covers. He seemed deep in thought and didn't notice that I was standing there. I went over and jumped on the bed and laid my head on his bare chest. I tried to stifle the yawn but I wasn't succesful.
" What's going on tomorrow." I asked to make sure that I knew what to expect as this was my first game day since I came down
" I have morning skate, then I come home and eat and then take my nap. I like to get to the arena a couple of hours early so I can take care of my sticks and get focused."
" I hope I don't get in the way of your routine. I know that game against the Pens is a big deal for you guys."
" Yeah it is. They are a good team and if we can beat them maybe we can make people believe that we really have a shot at the cup this year."
" I have faith in you."
" Thanks baby."
He pulled my face up to his and kissed me. As tired as I was I couldn't help but deepen the kiss. He rolled us both over so that he was on top of me. His hand roamed up under my shirt and pinched my already hard nipple. I let out a small moan as he kissed his way from my neck down to my collar bone.
" Are you sure about this? We don't have to do anything if you don't want to." he asked me quietly
Instead of responding with words I pulled his mouth back to mine and kissed him to let him know that I was more then fine with it. He kissed me slowly, and it was driving me insane. I let him pull off my clothes and I helped him out of his boxers. He pushed me down and took control and I was more than happy to let him. He grabbed my arms by the wrist and pulled them above my head while he attacked my neck. He sucked my skin into his mouth and I knew that it was going to leave one hell of a mark but the sensations that were coursing through my body caused me to not care. He nudged my legs apart and I obliged, wrapping my ankles around his waist. He entered me with one swift motion, causing me to practically scream his name. At the pace we were going it didn't take either of us very long to fall over the edge together. He let go of my wrists and slid his sweaty body off of mine after giving me a kiss. He grabbed by the waist and mumbled an I love you, which I quietly returned and watched in amazment as he immediately fell asleep. I curled into him and tried to do the same but my mind was in overdrive. I really wanted to impress his agent mostly because I knew that his opinions were only outweighed by his family's. I let out a soft sigh and tried to relax. If I could get his parents to like me, this man shouldn't be that hard to impress right?