Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Rings And Other Things Chapter 25

So this one is really short. I think that this is going to be ending in another chapter or two at the most. I really can't think of to many more places that I can take it and I don't want to draw it out. Thanks everyone for the support

" Come on we really need to get up. I have to get dinner started and Adam and Karri are going to be here in a little while"

" I'm not moving. I comfortable." He mumbled into my shoulder where his head was laying

" Come on. I have to get dinner started or our guest are going to be eating take out and that's not what I promised them."

He finally relented as I pushed him off of me and headed to the bathroom for a quick shower. By the time I was done I had just enough time to get everything ready and in the oven. I had taken my ring off and sat it on the counter so it wouldn't get food all over it. I was putting the finishing touches on some homemade garlic bread when I heard the doorbell ring. I heard some voices and Adam came into the kitchen.

"Smells good in here." He commented

" I know. What else did you expect?" I asked him as I wiped my hands on a towel.

" I don't know. The horrible smell of food that has been burnt."

I tried to smack him with the towel but he jumped out of my reach. He put his hand on the counter and almost knocked my ring on the floor. I yelped and pushed him out of the way to grab it. I put it back on my finger and looked at him sheepishly.

" I always knew that deep down you were a typical girl. So you two finally decided to get married huh? It's about damn time."

" Yeah I realized that there isn't any place that I would rather be."

" I have something to show you but you have to swear that you won't say anything."

" Umm okay."

He gave me a sly smile as he pulled a box out of his jacket pocket and handed it to me. I tried not to let out a girly squeel when I grabbed it out of his hand to look at it. It was a beautiful and not at all like I expected.

" When are you going to ask?" I said a little too loudly

" Shh. She graduates with her nursing degree in June so I figured that I would ask her after that."

I handed him back the the box and pulled him into a tight hug.

" Hey what's going on?" Karri asked as she came in with AJ on her hip

I glanced up at Adam and let him go as I held up my hand so she could see the ring. Again there was more yelling and Adam took Aj out of her arms.

" Let's go find your daddy, buddy. There is way to much estrogen in this room right now."

They left and we started to talk about possible wedding plans. We hadn't even set a date but I had to assume that it was going to be sometime in the offseason, since there wouldn't be time at any other point of the year. She picked up my hand and stared at the ring with a wistful look on her face. I wrapped my fingers around hers and gave her a reassuring squeeze.

" He loves you."

" I know." she replied with a sigh." It just seems like everyone I know is engaged and I have been planning my wedding since I was a little girl."

" Don't worry. If I know anything about that man when he sets his mind to something he sees it through."

We got dinner finished and and had a nice meal. After they left and everything was cleaned up we made a few calls to our families to let everyone know that they would have a wedding to attend.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

What Get's You Off Chapter 24

I woke up the next morning and when I felt the warm body behind me I couldn't help but smile to myself. I shifted around in his arms until I was facing him. I studied the face that I had become so familiar with in the past year. I gently traced the line of his jaw with one finger. He stirred a little and finally cracked open one eye.

" Good morning" he replied in a sleepy voice

" Morning"

I went to get up but was pulled back down beside him

" Where were you planning on running off to?" he asked as he pulled me against his bare chest.

" I figured that I would start breakfast and call Adam to make sure that AJ isn't being to much to handle."

" I was hoping that we could spend a little more time together. Preferably in bed."

" There is only one problem with that."

" And what would that be." he asked as he placed a gentle kiss on my lips

" I haven't been on birth control since I got pregnant and I haven't gotten around to taking care of it. One baby is enough for right now."

I wiggled out of his arms and got up. I knew that if either of us started something that there wouldn't be any stopping it, especially after how long it had been.

I went downstairs and wasn't surprised to find that there wasn't much in the way of food so I found a few eggs and some bread for toast. I got everything ready and went to find my phone. I called Adam and they decided that we should have dinner together and that they would bring AJ back than. I missed my little man but I had to admit that it was nice to have a little time to just relax. After breakfast I knew that I was going to have to go shopping if I was going to be making dinner. I planned to make lasagna and all the stuff that usually went with it and since that was going to take awhile I needed to leave right away.

" I have to go shopping. I'll be back in a little while."

" Alright. Don't take too long."

" I won't"

I left and made my way to the store. I got all of the stuff that I needed and before I checked out I decided to make one more stop. It was stupid but I felt like a teenager as I looked at the display of condoms that were in front of me. It had been so long since I had to worry about anything like this that I really wasn't sure where to start. I picked up one box and turned it around so I could read the back

" I wouldn't recommend those. They have a tendancy to break."

" Um thanks." I said as I sat the box back. I turned around to find a pretty brunette standing behind me.

" Here. This is the kind that my boyfriend and I use all the time." she said as she picked up another box and handed them to me

I took them and said another thanks before I went to walk away.

" I'm sorry I don't mean to be creepy but do I know you from somewhere?"

" No I don't think so."

" Oh, it's just that you look familiar. I guess I must have mistaken you for someone else"

" That's okay. I have that happen alot."

With that she walked away. I breathed a sigh of relief. It didn't happen often but every once in a while I had Patrick's fans recognize me from pictures and while I hadn't had a bad experience it still creeped me out a little.

I finally got home and started to unpack the groceries. I felt a pair of arms wrap themselves around my waist and I leaned back into the warm body that pressed itself into my back.

" Hey baby. I'm glad you're home. I missed you."

" I've only been gone an hour and a half." I replied with a laugh

" I know but it was an hour and a half to long, especially if you are going home tonight."

I turned around so I could face him. I cupped his face in my hands and gave him a kiss

" I've been thinking about that. If you are okay with it I think that I'm ready to move back in. I want us to be a family."

The smile on his face was so huge that it looked like it had to hurt and I couldn't help but return it. This was all I ever wanted, for us to be together and happy. He pinned me against the counter and started to kiss me. It only took a minute for it to become heated and he broke the kiss. I could feel how hard he was through his jeans and I decided to torture him before I let him know about the purchase that I had made. I ran my fingers through his hair and tugged on the curls that were at the back of his neck. I pulled him against me and started to move my hips so the front of me rubbed against him.

" Babe you need to stop."

" Why?" I whispered into his ear. He let out an involuntary shutter as my warm breath hit his skin

" You told me that we couldn't right now."

" Look in the first bag." I instructed him

He pulled away and leaned over to look in the bag. He pulled the box of condoms out and looked at me with that cocky grin that I had come to love.

" Buy a big enough box." he asked with a raised eyebrow

" We have four months to make up for."

" That's true."

He moved back to where I was standing. We kissed for a few more minutes before he grabbed my hand and led me to the bedroom. I fell onto the bed, and he followed, settling himself between my legs. I expected him to hurry up and get to buisness but the exact opposite happened. He slowly took my shirt and bra off, laying feather light kisses all over my skin. He gave equal attention to each breast before moving down to my stomach. I was more than ready and tried to hurry up the process by taking off his shirt. He let me but when I reached down to the button on his pants he grabbed my hand and pushed it away.

" I want to take my time. It's been to long."

I tried to whine but he shut me up with another searing kiss that took my breath away. His hand found the buttons of my jeans and when he had them undone he slipped his hand inside my panties. I arched my back as I moved in time with the motions of his hand. I could feel my body start to tense and just as I was about to go over the edge he stopped.

" What are you doing? Don't stop." I pleaded as he kissed the side of my neck

" I told you that I was going to take my time."

He held me and did nothing but kiss me until my body relaxed and my breathing went back to normal. I wasn't quite sure where he was going with this, but as long as it included sex at some point I didn't really care. Just as I was about to ask him if he was planning on doing anything else, his hand found it's original spot and started up the motions that he had stopped minutes before. He did it again and then a third time and by then I had become a mindless, moaning ball of nerves. If I didn't get release soom I was going to scream. He finally sat up and pulled my jeans and panties off in one pull and did the same to his. He grabbed a condom out of the box and slid it on, the whole time never breaking eye contact with me. I felt my body twitch involuntarily in anticipation as I watched him move back over me. He slid into me slowly, but immediatly picked up his pace. It only took a few minutes for me to finally orgasm. It was so intense that I am positive my eyes rolled back into my head and that I blacked out for a few seconds. He slowed as my body shook and as I was starting to come down from the incredible sensations that were coursing through me he rolled us both over so that I was on top of him. One hand gripped my hip and his other came to my breast, pinching my hard nipple in his fingers causing me to cry out. I threw my head back as I started to move, loving the way that he fit every inch of me perfectly. We moved in perfect sync, like our bodys were one and finally I came again, screaming his name. A few more thrust and he did the same, moaning my name so loudly that I am sure that his neighbors have to have heard. I slid off of him and fell into a sweaty boneless pile beside him.

" That..."

" Was amazing." I finished for him as I tried to pull air into my lungs.

He pulled me against him and I realized something as we laid there in bed together. This was one of the things that I missed the most about being away from him. Just laying in bed with the man that I loved was one of the best things that I have ever experienced and there wasn't going to be much that would make me give that up again. I laid my head on his chest and we sat in silence for a little while before he finally spoke.

" What are you thinking about?"

" I lifted my head so I could look at him.

" I'm thinking about how much I love you and that I am glad that I am here."

He reached over to the bedside table and pulled something out of drawer. When he turned back to me I saw the little black box that could only mean one thing.

" Patrick..."

" Be quite and let me have my say before you say anything."

I nodded my head as he leaned up on his elbow and looked at the box that was in his hand.

" I know that you don't want to get married just because of AJ, but you need to understand that isn't why I wanted to marry you. I love you and have since the first time that I saw you. We have been through so much together and you haven't given up on me, even when you should have. That's why I want to marry you. I need you and AJ in my life.

I went to anwser but he interrupted me one more time.

" You don't have to say yes right now. I understand that there are things that we still need to work on but I want you to have the ring for when you decide that you are ready. Maybe you can wear it on a chain until then or something."

" Patrick, has anyone ever told you that you talk to much sometimes."

He looked at me with a sheepish grin as I reached for the little box. I opened it and found the perfect diamond ring nestled inside. It was the most beautiful thing that I had ever seen

" So you want to marry me still huh?"

" Yep, when ever you are ready for it."

" What if I told you that I was being stupid before and that I am ready whenever you are?"

He took the box out of my hand and slipped the ring onto my left hand. It looked perfect as it glittered in the light. We spent a few more minutes admiring the ring on my finger and kissing before I decided that we had to get up so I could start supper for our guest. I wanted to wait to tell everyone since I didn't want it taking away from the upcoming post season but he was so excited that there was no way that I was going to get him to agree to it, so I didn't even try.

It's Getting Better All The Time chapter Chapter 23

The first month was the hardest not only with the baby, who we had taken to calling AJ, short for Adam junior, but with our relationship. I was true to my word and I didn't go back to Chicago to stay, even though we went down when the guys were in town to visit. I was still having trust issues but true to his word he was doing everything he could to make it easier for me. I had hope that sometime in the future that we would be able to go back to the way things had been before his indiscretion.

" Hey we're here." I yelled as I opened the door and tried to juggle the baby bag and the baby in my arms. He came down the stairs and gave me a kiss on the cheek before taking the baby from my arms.

" Hey buddy." he cooed as he bounced him up and down

" How's everything been going?" he asked as I set the baby bag down by the couch

" Pretty good. He is starting to sleep better. " I replied as I plopped on the couch

" Adam offered to watch him for a little while so we can go out for dinner."

" I'm still not convinced that he knows what to do with a baby."

" Well he has the mentality of a little kid and if it makes you feel better I did make sure that Karri is going to be there."

I watched as they sat on the couch and he turned on a game. He sat Aj up in his arms so he could see the tv and I had to admit that it was cute how he explained what was going on like he would understand.

" I have to run out to the car and grab my stuff so I can get ready."

He nodded his head in my direction and I went to get ready. I took a shower and put on my make up before I slid into the dress that I had bought especially for tonight. I felt nervous, this was the first time that we were going to interact without the baby being there and I was really hoping that it would go well. I came down the stairs to find them both in the same spot that I had left them. I coughed and he turned his head at the sound.

" What do you think?" I asked as I turned around so he could see the back

" What do you think? Does mommy look pretty?"

Aj waved his hands around and made some noise so I took that as a yes. He set Aj in his bouncy chair and went to get ready while we waited. Before he was ready Adam came to pick Aj up.

" Hey, how is my favorite monster?"

" He is fine. Now everything that you will need is in the bag. If you have any problems I'll have my phone on vibrate."

" Stop spazzing out. We'll be fine, won't we little guy. Go have fun. You deserve it."

" Drive careful and I'll see you later."

I gave AJ a kiss and watched as they left. I knew that Adam would take good care of him but I couldn't help but be a little anxious. He hadn't really been out of my of my sight since he was born. I heard a noise behind me and turned around to see Patrick walking down the stairs. He looked good in his suit but his tie was a little crooked.

" Come here. "

He walked to where I was standing and I fixed his tie for him. I smoothed it down with my hand.

" That's better."

He held out his arm for me and we left for dinner. The food was great and we had a nice time talking. I got a text as we were driving back to the house. They wanted to keep the baby overnight. I wasn't sure that was a good idea so I called to make sure.

" Are you sure that you want to keep him. He is still waking up at night and I was planning on driving home."

" Yeah I'm sure. He's clean and already sleeping in the portable crib that we bought. We don't play tommorow and it will be good practice for us."

" Hopefully any kids that you have will be like Karri. I don't think that the world can handle more than one of you."

" You're probably right. I have to go. My women is waiting for me. Call me in the morning and we can figure out when you want him back."

" Okay."

I hung up my phone and tried to sound nonchalant

" Adam and Karri wanted to keep Aj overnight. Is it okay if I stay in one of the spare bedrooms tonight?"

" Yep, that's fine."

We got back to the house and I went upstairs to change right away. I didn't mind having to be a girl for a little while but I was always going to be more comfortable in a pair of jeans and sneakers. I tried to reach the zipper on the back of my dress and could reach it just fine but it ended up getting stuck. No matter what I did it wouldn't come down and I couldn't really reach it enough to pull very hard on it.

" Patrick can you come here please?" I yelled down the stairs

" What's up?" he asked as he poked his head in the door

" My zipper is stuck. Can you help me?

I turned around and moved my hair off of my neck as he came into the room. I could feel his fingers through the fabric of my dress and I swore that I could hear his breath quicken as he got it unstuck.

" There it's down." he said in a thick voice

I turned around holding the dress up in the front. I looked up into his eyes and he stared a few seconds before he turned away. I wanted to say something to make him stay but I couldn't find the words before he left. I turned around and started to get ready for bed. I'm not sure how long I laid in bed awake before I got up and tiptoed out to the hallway. I was going to go to the bathroom but I couldn't help but stop at the door to what had once been our bedroom. It was cracked open and I could see the outline of his body under the sheets. I contemplated going in but I didn't want to wake him up. I was going to go back to the spare bedroom and I let out a little scream as his voice came through the door.

" Jesus Christ you scared me." I yelped. My heart was racing and I tried to control my breathing

" Didn't mean to. You can come here if you want."

I pushed open the door and he moved over so I could crawl into bed beside him. He wrapped his arms around me. He immediatly fell back to sleep as I tried to get comfortable. Things weren't perfect but at least they were getting better and that was all I could hope for.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

I just wanted to say thanks for the comments that I have been recieving recently. I wasn't sure that I liked what I did with the story but it is nice to know that you guys are enjoying it. I have been reading fanfiction for awhile now and didn't realize until I started my own what a big deal it is to get them. I'm currently starting my online classes again and since I don't have an internet connection of my own I have to go to a friends so I guess what I am saying is that I probably won't be able to update as much as I would like. I am currently working on the next chapter though and hope to have it up here pretty soon. This has been a great distraction for me when things in real life are not going as planned and I don't plan on quitting any time soon.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

A Little Faith Chapter 22

I laid in the bed and tried not to scream as another contraction ripped through my body. My mother was trying to coach me through it. It had been almost three months since I had moved back to Madison and the only people that I had contact with was Adam and Karri. I hadn't spoken to Patrick since the night that I had kicked him out of my hospital room. He had tried to contact me several times but he finally got a clue when all he ever got was my voicemail. Adam tried talking to me about it once but I made it very clear that I wasn't willing to listen to anything that he had to say about the situation. The tension in my abdomen finally started to ease up and my mom grabbed a wet cloth and wiped my sweaty forehead with it.

" I know that you don't want to hear this right now, but I really wish that you would let me call him. He belongs here with you, not me."

" Can we not do this right now. Please? He made his choice and I wasn't it okay." I said through a clenched jaw

" Your going to hate me for this but I called Adam to let him know that it was time and I asked him to bring Patrick along. This baby is going to need it's father and no matter what happened between you two he deserves to be here for it."

Before I had time to react another contraction ripped through me, strong enough that I screamed. This continued on for another three hours. It was almost eleven when they arrived at the hospital. I was just getting over another contraction when the nurse came in to check me.

" It seems like your almost ready to have this baby. I'll send the doctor in a few minutes. You have some visitors. Do you want me to send them in or do you want to wait until afterwards?"

" Now." I said barely above a whisper

I watched as my mom got up and met them at the door. She said something to the both of them but I couldn't hear what it was. My eyes found his and I felt a little satisfaction at what I saw. He had his hands shoved in his pockets and he looked nervous. Adam came over and grabbed my hand.

" Man you look like crap." he said with a grin

" Thanks asshole. You try pushing a head out of your pelvis and then you can talk shit."

He glanced over at Patrick. He still looked unsure what to do and it wasn't until Adam motioned him over.

" I know that this isn't the ideal situation but let's get the baby here and then maybe you guys can talk about what is going to happen afterwards. I'm going to go find your mom. I love you but, how did you put it, the idea of watching you push a head out of your pelvis is disgusting."

Adam pushed Patrick towards me. He sat in the chair besides me and he looked surprised when I held out my hand to him. He grabbed it and we sat in silence until the doctor came in. The doctor introduced himself to Patrick and after checking me one more time pronounced that it was time to push as soon as my next contraction came. It didn't take long for that to happen and as I was told to push all I could focus on was the intense pain. I screamed and gripped his hand so hard that I was sure that I had broken it, but if it hurt he didn't let on. He wiped the hair out of my face and whispered encouraging words in my ear and even though they had went behind my back, I was glad that he was here with me. One final push and the baby was here.

" It's a little baby boy." the doctor announced

He let Patrick cut the cord and they laid the baby on a small heating table to clean him off and make sure that everything was alright. After a few minutes they brought him over and laid him on my chest.

" He's perfect." he said as he looked at our son

" Yeah he is, isn't he?" I said and I couldn't help but smile at him

I held the baby out for him to hold and he looked scared as I gently laid him in his arms.

" Look..."

" Not now Patrick. Let's just enjoy this before we have to have the discussion about what we are going to do."

" That's fine as long as we have it at some point."

My mom and Adam wandered in and they both fussed over the baby. I ignored the glances that I got from both of them. The nurse came in and went to take the baby to the nursery. Everyone came and gave the baby a kiss before she left with him.

" What are you guys going to name the little monster?" Adam asked as they were getting ready to leave

" I was thinking Adam Timothy Kane. If that's alright with you."

" Yeah I like it."

They all turned to leave and I was even surprised by the words that came out of my mouth.

" You can stay. I mean if you want to, you can stay."

" Are you sure?"

" Yeah I told you we would talk. Now is probably better than later."

" Yeah I would like that."

I scooted over in the bed and patted the empty spot that I left. He came over and sat but wouldn't make eye contact with me.

" I don't know if I'll ever be able to trust you again. I want to but I don't know if I can."

" I know. If it's any consolation I'm willing to spend the rest of my life doing whatever it takes to make it up to you. The last three months have been a living hell."

He picked up my hand and held it in his. I had almost forgotten how good his skin felt on mine.

" I missed you." he said as he as he brought my knuckles up to his mouth to kiss

" I missed you too, so much that it hurt sometimes."

" You know that they delivered all of the stuff that you had bought a couple of days after you left. I set it all up hoping that you would come back."

" Really?"

" Yeah. I knew that I had royally screwed up but I had hope that you would let me fix it."

" I'm not going to just go running back to you. We still have a lot of things to work out but regardless you will always be in your child's life and we will always be connected.

" As long as you give me a chance, that's all I ask."

He laid next to me and wrapped his arm around me. As much as I hated what he had done I knew that part of me would always love him and I was willing to give him a second chance to prove that he meant what he said, that he couldn't live without me. I guess I had to have a little faith

Everything Changes Chapter 21

I pulled on the tape that was holding the iv in place on my hand. I had been instructed to lay on my left side so when I heard the knock at the door I had to crane my neck to see who it was. It was one of the nurses who had tended to me since I was admitted the night before.

" It looks like we finally got the contractions stopped but we'd like to observe you at least one more day.

I nodded my head and went back to picking at the tape.

" You have a visitor waiting at the desk." she said hesitantly

" Who is it?"

" Adam Burish"

" Okay"

Needless to say the nurse was surprised. I had made it very clear after they got me stabalized that no one was to be allowed in my room other than the doctor and nurses. I needed some anwsers from someone and I figured that out of everyone he was the most likely to be honest with me. He came in and sat on the bed beside me. He pulled me up and into a bear hug. It felt nice to have a pair of familiar arms around me, even if they weren't the ones that I wanted.

" Patrick called me last night. I was so worried and then Pat called to say that you kicked him out and told the doctors not to tell him anything. What the hell happened?"

I told him everything that had happened leading up to me getting hospitalized.

" The doctor's figure that the stress of what happened made me go into premature labor. They had to give me iv medication to stop it and luckily it worked."

I tried not to get upset. It was what had gotten me here in the first place but I couldn't help it. I had always thought that people were being melodramatic when they talked about their hearts being ripped out of their chest, but now, now I knew exactly what those people were talking about. It wasn't visable to anyone else but I could feel the huge gaping hole in my chest where my heart was suppose to be. I pulled away from him so I could look in his eyes.

" Has it ever happened before? Him with other girls?"

" No. Not that I know off and I'm pretty sure that I would have heard something from someone."

" Would you have told me if you had heard something?"

He didn't say anything and I knew my anwser without him saying a word. Sure I was his friend but Patrick was his teammate and messing with the life of one of your top scorers isn't very good for winning games.

" Just leave Adam." I tried to push him off of the bed but he was stronger than me and wouldn't budge

" I know that you are pissed off right now and I can't blame you but I'm not going to let you deal with this by yourself. You need someone and more importantly that baby needs someone and I've always been there for you before."

He grabbed my hand and I let him hold it as I cried. He had been a constant source of strength in my life for so long that I couldn't let him go on top of everything else. I knew that no matter what my future held he would always be there to make me laugh, to give me advice even if I didn't want to hear it and just listen to me if I needed it. No matter what I decided to do with my life from this point on I knew that he would be there and that gave me a small measure of comfort despite everything.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Here comes the.... Chapter 20

The next day Anna and Karri came over to drag me out of the house to shop for baby furniture. I had to admit that it was fun driving around and by the end of the day we had picked out all of the stuff that we were going to need. They had at some point that I needed company at home to so they came over to watch the game against Colorado. The team won but Patrick played like crap. I was hoping for a phone call but wasn't horribly surprised when I didn't get one. The rest of the trip seemed to go well but there was something off. He didn't mention anything when we talked and I figured that there had to be something going on internally with the team so I didn't push it. If and when he wanted to talk about it he would. The rest of the time went quickly since I was still working, which I was thankful for. When the boys finally came home I was so excited that I practically knocked him over when he came through the door. The first thing that I noticed was how tired he looked and sounded. I was immediatly concerned. He conceded that he hadn't been sleeping well and that he thought he might be coming down with something. I went into mom mode and told him that all I needed him to do was drop off his bags in the laundry room and I would make sure to take care of the rest. He did as I asked before he shuffled off to bed. Being the nice girlfriend that I was I made sure that he had chicken soup and crackers to eat. I was going to do the laundry but by the time I made myself something to eat and cleaned up a little I didn't have the energy. It didn't really matter anyways. They had a day off before they went on a four game homestand so it was something that had to be done right this second. It was early but all I wanted to do was spend some time with Patrick since it seemed like forever. I noticed right away that he was wearing a pair of those meshy basketball shorts and a tshirt to bed. He had never worn more than a pair of boxers to bed the whole time we had been together. I raised my eyebrows at him and all he did was shrug his shoulders.

" I'm a little cold." was his explanation, which I guess made sense if he was sick. Everyone was acting so out of character and weird that I was beginning to wonder if I had some how missed the fact that it was a full moon or something. We talked about the baby's room and I tried to describe what it looked like but he seemed preoccupied so I gave up. The next day he told me that he had to get some errands done and that he would be back in a little while. I figured that it was as good as time as any to sort through his clothes and get the wash started. I got to the second bag and as I was emptying it I felt a small lump. It took me a minute but I finally figured out that there had to be something in the small zippered pocket that was on the side of the suitcase. I pulled out a small bunch of fabric and a crumpled up piece of paper. I felt all of the air leave my lungs as I realized what they were. They were underware. A pair of women's thongs to be more exact. I tried not to panic as I dropped them and smoothed out the accompanying paper. The words that I read just confirmed what was already going through my mind.

I had a fantastic night last night. I thought I'd leave you a memento. You should call me when you come back to Denver again. My number is 947-234-2341 Vanessa

I dropped the note next to the underware on the table. This had to be some sick ass joke that the guys were playing. There was no way that he would cheat on me, not now. I was trying to convince myself that this was the case when all of the strange things that had happened the first night they were gone. I realized that the girl that I heard in the backround had to have been her. That meant Jonathan had lied to me. I started to shake as the reality of the situation really started to hit me. My whole body began to shake and I started to cry, slowly at first but it didn't take long for me to get to the kind of crying that makes you blind and sick. I couldn't function so I curled up on the couch and that's where I stayed until he got home. I was still sniffling when he came through the door but I had managed to get myself pretty much under control, or so I thought. He came in and the smile on his face faltered as he took in my apperance.

" Oh my god. What's wrong. Is it the baby?" he asked as he hurried over to the couch. As I looked at him I couldn't even form words. I had never been angrier at someone in my entire existence. He sat close to me and I couldn't help but move away. The thought of him touching me made me physically ill. He looked at me with hurt eyes and that spurned me into action.

" Was she worth it Patrick?" I said barley above a whisper

I pointed down to the table and I knew that I had been right. He didn't even try to deny it.

" I don't even remember what happened. We went to the bar and there was a girl and we started talking, and the next thing I remember is waking up the next day and both of us were naked."

I tried to will back the tears but my eyes might as well have been leaky faucets. I couldn't seem to control the fact that they wanted to leak.

" Why Patrick. Why would you even be talking to a girl in the first damn place?"

" I don't know. So much has changed since you've gotten pregnant. We don't have sex anymore and when we talk it's either about the baby or you're freaking out because I looked at you the wrong way or something equally stupid. I didn't mean for this to happen though. All I wanted was someone to talk to. I swear." he said in a pleading voice

" So this is all my fault? Are you fucking kidding me right now?" I did the first thing that came to me and that was to slap him in the face as hard as I could

His hand came up to his face and he looked at me like I had sprouted eight heads in a few seconds. I was so angry that I could feel the blood pounding in my ears. I had to leave right away before I did something that I would regret. He stared at me with unblinking eyes as I went upstairs and grabbed the first bag I found. I had no idea where I was going so I only put a change of clothes and a few of my essentials. I came back down the stairs and sat the bag down on the floor. Patrick had at some point moved to the counch and was looking at the underware. He looked up at me with tears in his eyes.

" It wasn't worth it. There will never be anybody on this earth that will replace you. I know you won't believe me but it's the truth."

I didn't respond. I couldn't even look at him right now. I didn't know where I was going to go but I knew that I wanted it to be anywhere but here. The farther the better as far as I was concerned. That was when the pain hit. It was in my lower abdomen and it was so sharp that it knocked the breath out of me. I clutched at the spot and let out a moan of pain. He jumped off of the couch and grabbed my arm to keep me from falling.

" What's wrong?" he asked as he led me to the couch, the utter panic clearly evident in his voice

" Hospital." was the only coherent word that I could manage to form. I curled into a ball and I only distantly was aware of Patrick making a phone call to 911. I said a silent prayer that the baby would be okay. It was all I had left.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Liar, Liar Chapter nineteen

I woke up early the next day and even though it was early I decided to call. He still wasn't anwsering his phone so I called Tazer to see what was going on. He anwsered his phone after a couple of rings.

" Hey Taze. Is Patrick around? I haven't heard from him since you guys went out last night and I am kind of worried."

He pulled his mouth away from the phone and say something and the voice that responded sounded distinctly female. I couldn't believe that captain serious had picked himself up a girl at the bar. I couldn't resist the opportunity to give him crap about it.

" Jonathan Toews. I can't believe that you took advantage of some young innocent girl. I thought your mother raised you better than that." I tried to keep my tone of voice serious but I couldn't hold in the laugh.

" What are you talking about?" he asked sounding confused

" So you're telling me that I imagined the female voice that I just heard in the backround?"

" Oh. I was really hoping that you didn't hear that."

The poor guy sounded guilty and embarresed so I decided to leave it alone. After all even the most serious, responsible guy had to let loose every once in awhile.

" I'm pretty sure that Patrick passed out in Madden's room last night. I'll head over there and tell him to call you."

" Thanks Taze. I appreciate it."

He mumbled something that I didn't quite catch and hung up the phone. I started on my day and waited for him to call. When he finally did I was ready to chew his ass but I softned when I heard how crappy he sounded.

" Too much fun last night babe?"

" If I told you that I just wanted to lie and bed and die would that anwser your question?" he responded with a groan

" Poor baby. You better do well at pratice today or coach q is going to have your ass."

" I know. Babe I know that we have only been talking for a few minutes but I really would like to rest so I don't completely suck ass at practice. I'll call you later?"

" You better."

" Mel?

" Yeah Patrick."

" I just wanted to let you know that no matter what, I'll always love you."

" Love you to. Now go recover from your hangover drunkboy."

Man I couldn't wait until they got back