I know I said that I was going to be working on my other story and I am but I can't seem to get this one out of my head. Thanks for the comments recently I really appreciate them and to EhisCdn please don't ever think that your comments are annoying or too long. Everytime I post a new chapter I anticipate what you are going to write because it never fails to make me smile and usually laugh out loud. So please continue to ramble because it will always be enjoyed. lol
Hope everything is going well with your story and if you want you can always email me if you need any help with anything. So I realized that the timeline for this story is confusing because I am not very good at keeping track of where I am at with that. So they met a day before their twenty-eigth and twenty-first birthdays. They started dating january of the next year and she got pregnant in june and they would have celebrated another birthday a piece making that a year. She had the baby in March and I've wrote that he is already around eight months old already which would make it close to their birthdays yet again. So to recap the Baby is around eight months old and they both will be celebrating their 30 and 23rd birthdays, which makes it almost two years since they first met and almost two years since they have started dating. Man I hope all of that makes sense to someone cause I'm really confused right now.lol. If something in this doesn't sound right please let me know because I'm really to lazy to go back and read the whole story right now.
It had been almost two weeks since my accident and while it was getting better I was still having some issues with headaches and being cranky. It helped that my mom had offered to help until I felt well enough to be able to take care of things on my own. The guys were being great, offering to help when they were around and giving me tips to heal quicker. I was sitting on the couch when Patrick came home from practice and brought a few of the guys with him.
" So it's almost time for someone to turn thirty." Seabs said as he plopped down beside me
" Thanks for reminding me you asshole." I said as I punched him in the arm. He pretended to be hurt as he rubbed his arm
" Are you guys planning on doing something this year since we'll be in town?" Tazer asked as he he came out of the kitchen, having rooted around in our fridge for something to eat
" I don't know, I haven't talked to Patrick about it yet but as far as I'm concerned I'm not having anymore birthdays. I'm going to be twenty-nine for the rest of my life."
Patrick came down the stairs with AJ on his hip. I couldn't believe that it had already been almost eight months since he had been born. He was talking up a storm and no matter what kind of mood I was in he never failed to make me smile. He was already trying to pull himself up on stuff and was calling us mama and dada, which especially thrilled Patrick. He sat him down on the floor and gave him one of the mini sticks that he had bought awhile ago and took the other one as he sat across from him and gently hit the little foam ball towards AJ.
" Come on hit it back to daddy." he tried to coax. It was so cute that I couldn't help but laugh. AJ tried to swipe at the ball but ended up missing it completly and falling over. He pouted for a minute before crawling over to the couch and using Brent's pants to pull himself up.
" Come here." Brent cooed as AJ held his hand up to him to be picked up. Brent sat him on his knee and started to bounce him around, causing him to giggle. Patrick went and turned on the ps3 and brought both controllers with him. He threw one to Taze before he settled himself against my legs. Ever since the accident these were the kinds of things that I realized I shouldn't take for granted. I would take boring and routine over being six feet under any day. I got up to make a few phonecalls since the guys were making a lot of noise. I called my mom to let her know that everything was going okay and that I was feeling okay. She had been worried when I sent her home so I had to reassure her. The next phonecall was to our wedding planner to let her know that yes the wedding was still on. The last one was to check on Anna to see how she was feeling. She was just starting to show but she was doing well, just tired and constantly hungry according to her. We talked for a few more minutes before I let her go. I went back into the living room and squished myself between the two men and took my son back from Brent who had him sitting up in the crook of his arm while he harrased the other two guys. I leaned over to run my fingers through his hair and noted that he was needing a haircut so I would probably have to make an appointment for him or he would never remember to do it until he looked like a homeless person.
" Something wrong?" he asked as he tilted his head backwards to look at me
" Not a thing. Just thinking about how much I love you," I said
" That's good because I love you too." he said with a grin before turning his attention back to the game
" Aww what about me? Don't you love me too?" Seabs pretend whined
" Nope. To be totally honest with you I really don't even like you. I just put up with you because I have to." I replied trying not to smile as I said it
" Man you really know how to break a guy's heart." he said pretending to be wounded as he held his hand over his heart
" Oh I think that'll you'll survive." I said rolling my eyes
" Actually I've been talking to a girl." he said like he was proud of himself
" You know that one of those dolls that you can get off the internet doesn't count right seabs?" Patrick asked as he threw the game controller on the floor.
" Yeah they actually have to talk back for it to count as a relationship." Tazer chimed in
" Whatever you asses. She is a real person and for your information she is smart and hot and fun to talk to."
" So where did you meet this one. Please tell me it wasn't at one of the clubs." I said as we all turned our attention to him
" Actually we met a longtime ago. She is the daughter of the billet family that I stayed with in Lethbridge and I invited the whole family to my cup party."
" Wow so you've guys known each other for awhile then."
" Yeah but the funny part is that she was only twelve when I moved in with her family. All I remember from the three years that I was there was this akward quiet girl with braces. When I saw her I couldn't believe how much has changed over the years. She became this hot confident women and we exchanged numbers and have been talking on and off ever since.
I saw the distant dreamy look on his face and I could tell that he was infatuated with this mystery women. Of course the guys couldn't resist the opportunity to give him hell and I moved out of the way so I wouldn't get caught in the middle of the wrestling match that had commenced on the floor. I was getting kind of tired anyways so I went and took AJ upstairs so we could both take a nap.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Big Headaches Chapter 37
I was going through my posts and I saw the one I posted on knowing when to end a story. It's kind of crazy that since then I have posted eleven more chapters. That just goes to show you that comments can be really important because I know that this story wouldn't be what it is right now without the inspiration that I got from one. To be totally honest I was all ready to write a " They got married, had a ton more kids and lived happily ever after" ending because I had no idea what to do next. I am going to try to update my other story and it's really hard for me to write both at the same time. mostly because I get confused between the two but I promise I won't make you wait too long and if for some reason I do feel free to comment/email me to give me a kick in the butt.
I felt someone prodding me and I wanted to yell at them because all I wanted to do was sleep because my head was killing me but whoever it was was persistant and it took all of my willpower to open my eyes. I saw a stranger in a white coat looking at me and it took a few seconds to figure out where I was. I looked around and saw what appeared to be a hospital room and more importantly I was the person in the bed.
" Hi. It's good to see you awake. I'm doctor Carlson. You were in an accident and hit your head pretty hard.
So that's what had happened. I had a foggy recollection of being tired and then nothing after that but I guess that would be why my head felt like it wanted to explode. Even though my head hurt my mind instantly went to how badly I was injured. I tried to move my hands and then my feet and was glad to find that I could do both with very little effort. The doctor was talking to me, asking me the normal questions that one would ask of someone that had a head injury. I knew who I was, what year it was and every other question that he asked so I guess it wasn't too bad.
He finished his exam and sat down on the edge of the bed so he could tell me what was going on.
" We did a catscan when you arrived and we found some bleeding in temporal lobe and we sedated you in case we had to do any emergency procedures but thankfully it seems to have stopped. Now we just have to worry about post concussion syndrome. I'll have the nurse give you some info on it later. As far as the rest of you it seems like alot of deep bruising.
I already knew what the symptoms of post concussion syndrome having been around hockey players for as long as I have. It was different for each person but could include headaches, irritiability and difficulty concentrating among other things.
" I'd like to observe you one more night just to make sure that everything is okay. You have people in the waiting room that would like to see you if you are up for it."
" Yeah I would like that." He left and a few minutes later my mom came in with AJ. She started to cry and hugged me hard enough that it really kind of hurt but I didn't complain. Adam and Karri came in next and gave me the lecture about how stupid I had been and again I took it with a smile on my face, just glad that I was around to hear it.
" Patrick is the only one left to see you but he wanted me to make sure that it was alright with you first. The doctor recommended that we try to not stress you right now since it might make any symptoms that come up in the next few days worse." Karri said slipping into the role of caretaker
" If it gets too intense I will kick him out." I promised, wanting to make sure that he was going to be allowed to come in.
" Fine. Give us a few minutes then and we'll send him in" she said as they both gave me hugs before leaving. I did wait a few minutes and I was starting to think that he had changed his mind but he finally appeared and I when I saw him I could tell how badly he had taken it. His hair was sticking up every where and he had bags under his eyes like he hadn't slept at all. He came over and sat beside me and grabbed my hand before he started talking.
" I was so scared when I got the phonecall about what had happened. All the cops could tell us was that there had been a pretty bad accident and that you had to be cut out of the car before you were transported here by ambulance. I drove here as fast as I could and the whole time I kept thinking that you had to be okay because if you weren't then I would never forgive myself for how I acted towards you. It was stupid and selfish and this has made me realize how much I love you and that I should never take anything for granted because it could be gone tommorrow."
I pulled on his hand so that he had to stand up and I kept on pulling until he leaned over far enough so I could kiss him without moving my head to much. He gently cupped my face and kissed me back.
" Did you and Taze kiss and make up yet? He was pretty pissed at you." I asked wanting to make sure that they were okay too
" Yeah I called and apologized last night. The only reason that I got so mad in the first place was because I knew he was right about everything and I didn't want to hear it."
There was just one more thing that I wanted to get off my chest before I could really feel like we were heading in the right direction.
" I know that you were furious with me when you left the house that day but it really scared the shit out of me when Tazer called and said that you were so messsed up that you couldn't barely walk or talk you were so drunk. You could have gotten hurt or in trouble."
" I know and it won't happen again. Besides Taze wasn't too happy that he had to clean my puke up off of his living room carpet and you know how he is so he already gave me the lecture about needing to be more mature."
I sighed as my head started to pound even worse from all of the talking that I had done with everyone. I must have been making faces because Patrick asked me if I was okay and when I told him how bad my headache was he called a nurse into the room to deal with it. I swallowed the pill she gave me without question and it only took a few minutes for me to start getting sleepy so I guess it was something more than an aspirin. The last thing I heard before I closed my eyes was Patrick telling me that he would still be there when I woke up.
I felt someone prodding me and I wanted to yell at them because all I wanted to do was sleep because my head was killing me but whoever it was was persistant and it took all of my willpower to open my eyes. I saw a stranger in a white coat looking at me and it took a few seconds to figure out where I was. I looked around and saw what appeared to be a hospital room and more importantly I was the person in the bed.
" Hi. It's good to see you awake. I'm doctor Carlson. You were in an accident and hit your head pretty hard.
So that's what had happened. I had a foggy recollection of being tired and then nothing after that but I guess that would be why my head felt like it wanted to explode. Even though my head hurt my mind instantly went to how badly I was injured. I tried to move my hands and then my feet and was glad to find that I could do both with very little effort. The doctor was talking to me, asking me the normal questions that one would ask of someone that had a head injury. I knew who I was, what year it was and every other question that he asked so I guess it wasn't too bad.
He finished his exam and sat down on the edge of the bed so he could tell me what was going on.
" We did a catscan when you arrived and we found some bleeding in temporal lobe and we sedated you in case we had to do any emergency procedures but thankfully it seems to have stopped. Now we just have to worry about post concussion syndrome. I'll have the nurse give you some info on it later. As far as the rest of you it seems like alot of deep bruising.
I already knew what the symptoms of post concussion syndrome having been around hockey players for as long as I have. It was different for each person but could include headaches, irritiability and difficulty concentrating among other things.
" I'd like to observe you one more night just to make sure that everything is okay. You have people in the waiting room that would like to see you if you are up for it."
" Yeah I would like that." He left and a few minutes later my mom came in with AJ. She started to cry and hugged me hard enough that it really kind of hurt but I didn't complain. Adam and Karri came in next and gave me the lecture about how stupid I had been and again I took it with a smile on my face, just glad that I was around to hear it.
" Patrick is the only one left to see you but he wanted me to make sure that it was alright with you first. The doctor recommended that we try to not stress you right now since it might make any symptoms that come up in the next few days worse." Karri said slipping into the role of caretaker
" If it gets too intense I will kick him out." I promised, wanting to make sure that he was going to be allowed to come in.
" Fine. Give us a few minutes then and we'll send him in" she said as they both gave me hugs before leaving. I did wait a few minutes and I was starting to think that he had changed his mind but he finally appeared and I when I saw him I could tell how badly he had taken it. His hair was sticking up every where and he had bags under his eyes like he hadn't slept at all. He came over and sat beside me and grabbed my hand before he started talking.
" I was so scared when I got the phonecall about what had happened. All the cops could tell us was that there had been a pretty bad accident and that you had to be cut out of the car before you were transported here by ambulance. I drove here as fast as I could and the whole time I kept thinking that you had to be okay because if you weren't then I would never forgive myself for how I acted towards you. It was stupid and selfish and this has made me realize how much I love you and that I should never take anything for granted because it could be gone tommorrow."
I pulled on his hand so that he had to stand up and I kept on pulling until he leaned over far enough so I could kiss him without moving my head to much. He gently cupped my face and kissed me back.
" Did you and Taze kiss and make up yet? He was pretty pissed at you." I asked wanting to make sure that they were okay too
" Yeah I called and apologized last night. The only reason that I got so mad in the first place was because I knew he was right about everything and I didn't want to hear it."
There was just one more thing that I wanted to get off my chest before I could really feel like we were heading in the right direction.
" I know that you were furious with me when you left the house that day but it really scared the shit out of me when Tazer called and said that you were so messsed up that you couldn't barely walk or talk you were so drunk. You could have gotten hurt or in trouble."
" I know and it won't happen again. Besides Taze wasn't too happy that he had to clean my puke up off of his living room carpet and you know how he is so he already gave me the lecture about needing to be more mature."
I sighed as my head started to pound even worse from all of the talking that I had done with everyone. I must have been making faces because Patrick asked me if I was okay and when I told him how bad my headache was he called a nurse into the room to deal with it. I swallowed the pill she gave me without question and it only took a few minutes for me to start getting sleepy so I guess it was something more than an aspirin. The last thing I heard before I closed my eyes was Patrick telling me that he would still be there when I woke up.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Irrational Emotions Chapter 36
Thanks for the virtual chicken soup. That was very sweet of you. Thankfully I am starting to feel a little better so hopefully by the end of this week I'l be good as new.Or at least that's what the doctor is telling me and since the man has a couple hundred grand worth of education he should know what he's talking about right?
I woke up early the next morning and tried to decide if showing up at the game was as good of an idea as it seemed before I went to sleep. I talked to my mom and she offered to keep the baby overnight so I could figure things out without having to worry about him. I waited until I had to leave so I wouldn't get there too early. I was nervous about facing him, and didn't have a very good feeling about the outcome. If what the guys were telling me was true, and I had no reason not to believe them, he was being really moody and nasty to everyone. I didn't want to hear the words that I knew I was going to hear but I guess it was better to just get it over with, kind of like ripping off a band-aid even though you know it's going to hurt like hell. I got to the arena and I waited until I knew that the guys were going to be on the ice to warm up before I headed inside. I found Karri and I went to apologize one more time but she shushed me and told me that we could talk about it later. The guys were already on the ice and I watched him as he skated around like he really wasn't interested in being there. I watched as Tazer skated over to him and said something and he responded by just shrugging his shoulders and skating off into the corner, where he took a couple of half ass shots at the net before finally going back to the locker room. I could tell that it was going to be a bad game and unfortunatly it was, at least for him. They were playing against the Canucks, which was always hard since they had such a rivalry over the years and Patrick took not one but three really stupid penalties. In the end they were shut out by the Canuck three nothing.
" This is a bad idea. I shouldn't be here right now." I said trying to not sound as scared as I was
" I know that this isn't the best time but you really need to do this.Come on." Karri grabbed my arm and started to pull me towards the locker room. I thought about digging in my heels but I didn't think that it would really do me any good. We had to wait for the guys to start coming out and the mood was grim.
" He's still in most of his gear if you want to go talk to him. " Seabs said to me as him and Duncs walked out and towards the exit
" Yeah and maybe you can do us all a favor and tell him that he really needs to get the stick out of his ass. He won't listen to any of us." Duncs added as they were walking away
Apparently they didn't have any idea that I was the reason that he had the stick up his ass. I went to walk in and heard the sound of a voice. I thought I knew who it was but I was one hundred percent sure so I walked farther in a peeked around the corner
" Man you are such a fucking hypocrite. You fucked some random chick while she was pregnant and she forgave you. Now that she makes one mistake and here you sit ready to throw everything away over a stupid kiss. And then to top it off you basically throw away the game acting like a two year old."
I saw Tazer and Patrick standing toe to toe with each other, well as much as their height difference allowed. They were both red faced and I could guess by the yelling that I had just heard that they were in the middle of a fight, a fight that was mostly about me. Neither of them acknowledged that I was in the room even though I cleared my throat to let them know that I was there. I went to where they were both standing and tried to get Jonathans attention by grabbing his arm. I might as well have been trying to move a brick wall for all of the good it did me.
" Taze, come on. Please just go home and let me deal with this." He didn't anwser or budge and I tried one more time
" Jon please. I know that you are trying to help but it isn't. Go home." I said in my best mom voice and it must have worked because he finally turned enough to look at me like he was contemplating listening to me. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly and it was like all of the anger that was visable before drained out of his body.
" Fine your right. He isn't going to listen to me anyway so there really isn't any point to this anyway. Will you be okay if I go."
" Yes I will. Promise."
I watched as he walked out of the room and when I turned around Patrick had his back to me and was yanking off what was left of his gear.
" You know, he's right. You really are being a hypocrite." I said as I crossed my arms in front of my chest. He slowly turned around to look at me like I was being crazy, but I wasn't about to back down.
" I can't defend what I did. It was wrong and I knew it. But he is right." He stopped what he was doing and finally looked at me for the first time since I had walked in to the room
" I know that I'm not being fair but I can't help the way that I feel. " he said shrugging
" Am I ever going to get a chance to make this right?" I asked dreading the anwser
" Honestly I really don't know right now. I just need some time and space to think about things."
I wanted to argue with him but I could tell by the set of his body that it wasn't going to have any effect.
" Whenever your willing to talk let me know okay."
He didn't say anything to acknowledge what I had just said. He went back to stripping off the rest of his sweaty underarmor and I got the very distinct feeling that he was dismissing me. I wanted to say more but it would have been useless. I went to leave and I was really hoping that everyone would be gone but I should have known that Karri and Adam would be waiting to see what happened. I started to cry and that pretty much anwsered any questions that they had. They both tried to reassure me but it didn't do much good. I knew that I still wanted to talk to Karri and I think that Adam sensed it because he asked me to give her a ride home. We jumped into my car and made our way to a little diner that the team occasionally went to. I sat and I tried to think of a way that I could ask her what was on her mind but she brought it up before I had the chance.
" I know that you must think that I am crazy for how I am handling this but I really meant what I said."
I did think that she was crazy and I still really didn't understand where she was coming from.
" Do you remember the conversation we had before when you basically told me that he was going to propose to me, that I just had to be patient?"
" Yeah it was the same day that I got my ring from Patrick."
" Well a part of me really wanted him to ask but a part of me wasn't sure that I was going to say yes if he did."
" What?" I asked surprised
" Something happened that I never told you about. The first time I ever met his sister she commented on how much alike we were. I didn't really think anything of it at the time but I started to wonder about it. I think that there was a part of me that always worried that he was with me because he couldn't have you and that I was a replacement for you. I just never said anything because I didn't want to come off as the jealous, stupid girlfriend and besides you are my friend and you had never given me a reason to think that you felt anything but friendship towards Adam."
" That still doesn't explain why you don't want to claw my eyes out."
" Let me finish and it should make more sense. After you told Patrick what happened Adam told me because he figured that it would be better to hear it from him instead of someone else. I'm not going to lie, I did hate you, for a few minutes at least. I wanted to leave right then but he made me stay long enough to listen to what he had to say and I am glad that I did. He told me that he had always wondered if he had made a mistake in not telling you how he felt all of that time ago and even though he cared about me he didn't think that it was fair to me that we get married while he still felt that way. When you guys kissed I guess it made him realize that any feelings that he may have had for you like that had faded and that I was the one that he really wanted. He didn't have to wonder anymore and I don't think that there was really anything else that could have happened to make that doubt go away. I know that it was basically the same for you. So I know that won't happen again because you both now know that what you have right in front of you is what you really want. So yeah that's pretty much it. Did that make sense?"
" Yeah I think that it does. If you don't mind I think that I'm going to head back to my mom's."
She tried to talk me into staying but I wasn't going to be talked into it. All I wanted to do was see my son and then climb into a nice warm bed so I could sleep off some of the emotional weakness that I was feeling. I climbed into my car and started the drive back. It wasn't horribly late but I was exhausted and I could feel my eyes start to droop a little. I sped up a little trying to make up some time but that wasn't a good idea either. The next thing that I knew my body was being jerked against the seatbelt as I slammed into something. I think that my head hit the steering wheel because everything got fuzzy and went black
I woke up early the next morning and tried to decide if showing up at the game was as good of an idea as it seemed before I went to sleep. I talked to my mom and she offered to keep the baby overnight so I could figure things out without having to worry about him. I waited until I had to leave so I wouldn't get there too early. I was nervous about facing him, and didn't have a very good feeling about the outcome. If what the guys were telling me was true, and I had no reason not to believe them, he was being really moody and nasty to everyone. I didn't want to hear the words that I knew I was going to hear but I guess it was better to just get it over with, kind of like ripping off a band-aid even though you know it's going to hurt like hell. I got to the arena and I waited until I knew that the guys were going to be on the ice to warm up before I headed inside. I found Karri and I went to apologize one more time but she shushed me and told me that we could talk about it later. The guys were already on the ice and I watched him as he skated around like he really wasn't interested in being there. I watched as Tazer skated over to him and said something and he responded by just shrugging his shoulders and skating off into the corner, where he took a couple of half ass shots at the net before finally going back to the locker room. I could tell that it was going to be a bad game and unfortunatly it was, at least for him. They were playing against the Canucks, which was always hard since they had such a rivalry over the years and Patrick took not one but three really stupid penalties. In the end they were shut out by the Canuck three nothing.
" This is a bad idea. I shouldn't be here right now." I said trying to not sound as scared as I was
" I know that this isn't the best time but you really need to do this.Come on." Karri grabbed my arm and started to pull me towards the locker room. I thought about digging in my heels but I didn't think that it would really do me any good. We had to wait for the guys to start coming out and the mood was grim.
" He's still in most of his gear if you want to go talk to him. " Seabs said to me as him and Duncs walked out and towards the exit
" Yeah and maybe you can do us all a favor and tell him that he really needs to get the stick out of his ass. He won't listen to any of us." Duncs added as they were walking away
Apparently they didn't have any idea that I was the reason that he had the stick up his ass. I went to walk in and heard the sound of a voice. I thought I knew who it was but I was one hundred percent sure so I walked farther in a peeked around the corner
" Man you are such a fucking hypocrite. You fucked some random chick while she was pregnant and she forgave you. Now that she makes one mistake and here you sit ready to throw everything away over a stupid kiss. And then to top it off you basically throw away the game acting like a two year old."
I saw Tazer and Patrick standing toe to toe with each other, well as much as their height difference allowed. They were both red faced and I could guess by the yelling that I had just heard that they were in the middle of a fight, a fight that was mostly about me. Neither of them acknowledged that I was in the room even though I cleared my throat to let them know that I was there. I went to where they were both standing and tried to get Jonathans attention by grabbing his arm. I might as well have been trying to move a brick wall for all of the good it did me.
" Taze, come on. Please just go home and let me deal with this." He didn't anwser or budge and I tried one more time
" Jon please. I know that you are trying to help but it isn't. Go home." I said in my best mom voice and it must have worked because he finally turned enough to look at me like he was contemplating listening to me. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly and it was like all of the anger that was visable before drained out of his body.
" Fine your right. He isn't going to listen to me anyway so there really isn't any point to this anyway. Will you be okay if I go."
" Yes I will. Promise."
I watched as he walked out of the room and when I turned around Patrick had his back to me and was yanking off what was left of his gear.
" You know, he's right. You really are being a hypocrite." I said as I crossed my arms in front of my chest. He slowly turned around to look at me like I was being crazy, but I wasn't about to back down.
" I can't defend what I did. It was wrong and I knew it. But he is right." He stopped what he was doing and finally looked at me for the first time since I had walked in to the room
" I know that I'm not being fair but I can't help the way that I feel. " he said shrugging
" Am I ever going to get a chance to make this right?" I asked dreading the anwser
" Honestly I really don't know right now. I just need some time and space to think about things."
I wanted to argue with him but I could tell by the set of his body that it wasn't going to have any effect.
" Whenever your willing to talk let me know okay."
He didn't say anything to acknowledge what I had just said. He went back to stripping off the rest of his sweaty underarmor and I got the very distinct feeling that he was dismissing me. I wanted to say more but it would have been useless. I went to leave and I was really hoping that everyone would be gone but I should have known that Karri and Adam would be waiting to see what happened. I started to cry and that pretty much anwsered any questions that they had. They both tried to reassure me but it didn't do much good. I knew that I still wanted to talk to Karri and I think that Adam sensed it because he asked me to give her a ride home. We jumped into my car and made our way to a little diner that the team occasionally went to. I sat and I tried to think of a way that I could ask her what was on her mind but she brought it up before I had the chance.
" I know that you must think that I am crazy for how I am handling this but I really meant what I said."
I did think that she was crazy and I still really didn't understand where she was coming from.
" Do you remember the conversation we had before when you basically told me that he was going to propose to me, that I just had to be patient?"
" Yeah it was the same day that I got my ring from Patrick."
" Well a part of me really wanted him to ask but a part of me wasn't sure that I was going to say yes if he did."
" What?" I asked surprised
" Something happened that I never told you about. The first time I ever met his sister she commented on how much alike we were. I didn't really think anything of it at the time but I started to wonder about it. I think that there was a part of me that always worried that he was with me because he couldn't have you and that I was a replacement for you. I just never said anything because I didn't want to come off as the jealous, stupid girlfriend and besides you are my friend and you had never given me a reason to think that you felt anything but friendship towards Adam."
" That still doesn't explain why you don't want to claw my eyes out."
" Let me finish and it should make more sense. After you told Patrick what happened Adam told me because he figured that it would be better to hear it from him instead of someone else. I'm not going to lie, I did hate you, for a few minutes at least. I wanted to leave right then but he made me stay long enough to listen to what he had to say and I am glad that I did. He told me that he had always wondered if he had made a mistake in not telling you how he felt all of that time ago and even though he cared about me he didn't think that it was fair to me that we get married while he still felt that way. When you guys kissed I guess it made him realize that any feelings that he may have had for you like that had faded and that I was the one that he really wanted. He didn't have to wonder anymore and I don't think that there was really anything else that could have happened to make that doubt go away. I know that it was basically the same for you. So I know that won't happen again because you both now know that what you have right in front of you is what you really want. So yeah that's pretty much it. Did that make sense?"
" Yeah I think that it does. If you don't mind I think that I'm going to head back to my mom's."
She tried to talk me into staying but I wasn't going to be talked into it. All I wanted to do was see my son and then climb into a nice warm bed so I could sleep off some of the emotional weakness that I was feeling. I climbed into my car and started the drive back. It wasn't horribly late but I was exhausted and I could feel my eyes start to droop a little. I sped up a little trying to make up some time but that wasn't a good idea either. The next thing that I knew my body was being jerked against the seatbelt as I slammed into something. I think that my head hit the steering wheel because everything got fuzzy and went black
Friday, April 30, 2010
Just to clarify
I have had a horrible case of bronchitis the last couple of weeks and the medication that I have been taking to just be able to get through a day has left me really out of it for the most part so I just want to explain a few things that I maybe didn't do the best job of conveying over the last couple of chapters. First of all the girl that showed up at the door is suppose to be his little sister, Nikki Burish. Yes she really does exist and I tried to write it where she doesn't like Mel because she has always felt like she knew about Adam's feelings but didn't care and was taking advantage of them. Second the dynamics of their relationship. I guess the easiest way to explain it is that Adam did have romantic feelings for Mel at one point in their relationship but eventually it changed into more of a platonic form of love since it was never reciprocated by Mel. The reason that Mel kissed him wasn't because she had romantic feelings for him but I think that she had to wonder about what might have been and I know from personal experience that that kind of thinking can really screw with your mind and make you question things that you might not otherwise. Plus I knew that something kind of big needed to happen between the both of them to really open both of their eyes to make them realize that they both had good things going on in their lives with their significant others and that even if something might have been possible in the past that it didn't matter because they both love the people that they are with now. I'm not really sure that this helped at all and honestly it's a little frustrating because this all sounded better in my head than I've been able to explain it both in my writing and here. If you guys have any more questions feel free to let me know and I will do what I can to try to make what's going on make more sense.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Kill The Messenger Chapter 35
A short one before I go to work. Hopefully I will be able to work on another one after I get home.
To EHisCdn. I was shocked to see that someone commented before you too. I guess that you need to pick it up! lol Let me know what you think of this one because I wasn't really sure who it should be. Again I wrote a couple of different versions and I thought that this one would be the most unexpected.
I opened the door a little wider and stared at the person who was standing on the doorstep.
" Hey Nik, what are you doing here?" I asked trying to not sound as surprised as I was
" Adam knew I was in town visiting mom and dad and he called and told me what happened. He asked me to come over and check on you."
I was surprised that she would even do that because frankly she hated me, at least I had always thought so. She had never given me any indication otherwise
" Let's get it straight that I don't care how you feel right now. I'm only here because Adam asked me and frankly I think that what you did was really shitty." she said as if she was reading my mind
" I know it was and trust me if I could take it back I would. I really had no idea how he felt all of these years."
" I find it really hard to believe that you didn't know. I always thought that you were taking advantage of his feelings."
I shook my head. That would explain the anomosity that was present in our relationship since we had met.
" I'm sorry but I didn't. I would never do anything to intentionally hurt him. I hope you know that."
She turned her head and looked at me like she was thinking about what I said. She finally nodded her head like she believed what I had said.
" You know that he is in a really good place in his life right now. He is playing well and finally found someone that compares to you that he actually wants to settle down with. Do what ever you need to do to fix it."
I swallowed and nodded once again, afraid that if I spoke that any words that I would try to say wouldn't come out right anyway.
" I'll call Adam and let him know that you are here and okay." She said as she turned around and headed out to her car without saying goodbye. I shut the door behind me and thought about what she had told me, which was basically the same thing that my mother had told me. I turned on my phone and saw that I had several missed phonecalls and text messages, mostly from the guys teammates wanting to know what was going on. I scrolled through them and my heart stuttered in my chest when I came across one from earlier in the day. All it said was " He told me what happened." Shit now I had another person to deal with. All I wanted to do was crawl into a little hole somewhere and die, the sooner the better. I text Karri to see if she was still up and if she wanted to talk to me and my phone rang a few minutes later. I tentantivly brought the phone up to my ear, again waiting for the yelling and again not getting it.
" Hello." She greeted me in a voice that seemed awfully calm for the situation that we were in.
" Umm hi Karri. I guess that we need to talk."
" Yeah but before you say anything I would like to have my say, if that's okay with you."
I agreed, it was the least that I could do.
" I was mad at first and I wanted to hate you, but in all honesty I'm glad that you did what you did. He told me that before the kiss that he was having reservations about wanting to marry me because there was still a part of him that wasn't sure that he was entirely over his romantic feelings for you. Afterwards he said he knew that it he was over it and knew that he could commit to me fully and that he might have never known for sure otherwise.
" So... Your not mad at me?" I said not wanting to push the issue but needing to be reassured
" Not really. It was something that happened and something good came out of it so it's all water under the bridge as far as I'm concerned. As long as you don't plan on it happening again."
" Trust me, won't happen again. If anything it had the same effect on me too. It made me realize that I do love Patrick and that I was stupid for even questioning how I felt about him.
" Good that was what I figured and now that is out of the way, are you coming to the game tommorrow?"
" I don't think that Patrick is going to be as forgiving as you. "
" Oh come on. I need my friend to sit with and Adam wants to apologize for yelling at you. Please?"
" Okay. Fine." I huffed into the phone receiver
" So I'll see you then."
I hung up my phone and tried to sleep afterwards. I couldn't believe that she had taken that so well. Of course maybe getting me to come to the game was a ploy to get me alone so she could choke me or something. I guess it had to be a risk that I was willing to take if I wanted a chance to make things up to the one person that mattered the most
To EHisCdn. I was shocked to see that someone commented before you too. I guess that you need to pick it up! lol Let me know what you think of this one because I wasn't really sure who it should be. Again I wrote a couple of different versions and I thought that this one would be the most unexpected.
I opened the door a little wider and stared at the person who was standing on the doorstep.
" Hey Nik, what are you doing here?" I asked trying to not sound as surprised as I was
" Adam knew I was in town visiting mom and dad and he called and told me what happened. He asked me to come over and check on you."
I was surprised that she would even do that because frankly she hated me, at least I had always thought so. She had never given me any indication otherwise
" Let's get it straight that I don't care how you feel right now. I'm only here because Adam asked me and frankly I think that what you did was really shitty." she said as if she was reading my mind
" I know it was and trust me if I could take it back I would. I really had no idea how he felt all of these years."
" I find it really hard to believe that you didn't know. I always thought that you were taking advantage of his feelings."
I shook my head. That would explain the anomosity that was present in our relationship since we had met.
" I'm sorry but I didn't. I would never do anything to intentionally hurt him. I hope you know that."
She turned her head and looked at me like she was thinking about what I said. She finally nodded her head like she believed what I had said.
" You know that he is in a really good place in his life right now. He is playing well and finally found someone that compares to you that he actually wants to settle down with. Do what ever you need to do to fix it."
I swallowed and nodded once again, afraid that if I spoke that any words that I would try to say wouldn't come out right anyway.
" I'll call Adam and let him know that you are here and okay." She said as she turned around and headed out to her car without saying goodbye. I shut the door behind me and thought about what she had told me, which was basically the same thing that my mother had told me. I turned on my phone and saw that I had several missed phonecalls and text messages, mostly from the guys teammates wanting to know what was going on. I scrolled through them and my heart stuttered in my chest when I came across one from earlier in the day. All it said was " He told me what happened." Shit now I had another person to deal with. All I wanted to do was crawl into a little hole somewhere and die, the sooner the better. I text Karri to see if she was still up and if she wanted to talk to me and my phone rang a few minutes later. I tentantivly brought the phone up to my ear, again waiting for the yelling and again not getting it.
" Hello." She greeted me in a voice that seemed awfully calm for the situation that we were in.
" Umm hi Karri. I guess that we need to talk."
" Yeah but before you say anything I would like to have my say, if that's okay with you."
I agreed, it was the least that I could do.
" I was mad at first and I wanted to hate you, but in all honesty I'm glad that you did what you did. He told me that before the kiss that he was having reservations about wanting to marry me because there was still a part of him that wasn't sure that he was entirely over his romantic feelings for you. Afterwards he said he knew that it he was over it and knew that he could commit to me fully and that he might have never known for sure otherwise.
" So... Your not mad at me?" I said not wanting to push the issue but needing to be reassured
" Not really. It was something that happened and something good came out of it so it's all water under the bridge as far as I'm concerned. As long as you don't plan on it happening again."
" Trust me, won't happen again. If anything it had the same effect on me too. It made me realize that I do love Patrick and that I was stupid for even questioning how I felt about him.
" Good that was what I figured and now that is out of the way, are you coming to the game tommorrow?"
" I don't think that Patrick is going to be as forgiving as you. "
" Oh come on. I need my friend to sit with and Adam wants to apologize for yelling at you. Please?"
" Okay. Fine." I huffed into the phone receiver
" So I'll see you then."
I hung up my phone and tried to sleep afterwards. I couldn't believe that she had taken that so well. Of course maybe getting me to come to the game was a ploy to get me alone so she could choke me or something. I guess it had to be a risk that I was willing to take if I wanted a chance to make things up to the one person that mattered the most
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
The Other Side Chapter 34
I woke up the next morning and even though I knew I should I still couldn't bring myself to say the words that I knew I needed to say out loud. Patrick had the day off besides a morning skate and he was home in time for lunch. He sat down to eat the sandwhich that I had made for him and we were both pretty silent.
" Did you make that doctors appointment yet?" he asked as I went around the kitchen cleaning up the non existent mess in an effort to keep myself busy.
" No I didn't but babe you really need to stop worrying. I'm fine." I said in my best reassuring tone
" Man if I didn't know you and Burs better I would think that there was something going on. He was acting really weird when I called him today."
I knew by the tone of his voice that he meant it as a joke but my body instantly went still. I took a deep breath and turned around to face him, dropping the sponge that I had been cleaning with onto the counter.
" Patrick there is something that I have to tell you." I said in a voice that was barely above a whisper. I couldn't even look at him and as I started to talk the words just came pouring out of my mouth like I had to get them all out in one breath
" I kissed Adam. I don't know why I did it but I did and I'm really sorry. I was just confused and I promise that it didn't mean anything and that it will never ever happen again." I was still looking at the floor and I waited for the yelling that I was sure was to follow my little outburst but nothing came. I finally peeked up and saw a look of total shock on his face. It took a few minutes of silence but finally he got up and left without a word. Once again I started to cry but I couldn't wallow in my misery for long since I had someone else who depended on me to take care of them and I couldn't very well do that if I was a complete wreck. I figured that he would have to come back sooner or later either to talk or to get his stuff and I knew that I had needed the distance and I figured that he would too. A few hours passed and I still hadn't heard from him and I was starting to get worried. Right before I went to bed I got a call from Tazer.
" Mel Patrick just showed up at my door drunker then hell asking me if he could spend the night. What the hell is going on between you two?"
I winced as he described the state that he was in. I only hoped that he hadn't done anything stupid while getting that drunk.
" Did he say anything?" I asked not wanting to tell Tazer anymore than I had to.
" Not anything that made any sense. But then again he could barely walk, much less talk. So..."
" We just had a fight that's all. Please just do me a huge favor and make sure that he is taken care of for the rest of the night. If he wants to tell you more he can do it then."
" Sure I can do that. Do you want me to try to get him to call you in the morning or something."
" You can try but I highly doubt that he will want to speak with me."
" Okay. Mel I'm sure what ever it was that happened can be fixed. You guys have been through to much together for him to throw it all away over something stupid."
" Yeah I hope so. Thanks."
In all of this I hadn't considered telling Adam what was going on. He was probably the first person that I should have called when shit hit the fan but I was to busy wallowing in my own misery to think about what all of this might mean for him. I quickly dialed his number and it almost went to voicemail before he picked up.
" So I guess you just couldn't keep shit to yourself." he said instead of a greeting
" I couldn't help it. I had to tell him Bur."
" Yeah well thanks for the warning. He showed up here yesterday night and told me if I so much as look at you again that he is going to do everything in his power to get my ass traded to the maple leafs or some other shitty canadian team."
" He can't do that, can he?"
" I don't know but if they had to choose between me and him who do you think that they would pick?"
" Does Karri know?"
" No. At least I don't think so. She was out shopping when he showed up."
" I'll try to do whatever I can to fix this. I promise."
" Whatever."
With that he hung up the phone on me. I looked at the phone for a few seconds in shock. In all of the time that we had known each other he had never talked to me like that and frankly it was a little scary to hear him that angry. It was just one more thing to have to deal with after things hopefully cooled down. As much as I just wanted to sit I knew that I had better get things started for breakfast since it was almost time for AJ to get up and he wouldn't care. I went to get him a little while later and sat him in his high chair to feed him. Despite everything I found myself smiling as he cooed and tried to talk. It was nice to know that I had one thing in my life that I hadn't managed to screw up, at least not yet. I had thought about turning my phone off after the conversation that I had had with Adam but I couldn't do it, not on the slim chance that Patrick might call me to talk. He didn't and I wasn't surprised at all. I knew what I needed to do and I made a few calls before I packed a couple of small bags and headed up to stay with my mom for a few days. I text Pat to let him know that I wasn't in the house and that he could come home if he wanted to but I never got a reply. One phone call and three hours later I was pulling into the driveway of my parents house. My mom came out gave me a hug before taking the baby and going inside. She didn't press for information and I was glad. She knew that eventually I would tell her what was going on and I knew that I could count on her to give me advice, even if it was something that I wasn't going to want to hear. I turned off my phone and put it away. The only person who needed to know where I was right now did and he had my mothers number if he really needed to get a hold of me that badly. It wasn't until after dinner that I even brought up that something was wrong.
" So he finally admitted that at one point in your relationship that he was in love with you and then you go and kiss him?" she asked as she raised her eyebrow at me
" Why do you make it sound like something that everyone knew but me?" I asked trying to keep my temper down. My mom actually rolled her eyes at me like I had just said the dumbest thing that she had ever heard.
" Because it was something that everyone could see but you. Why do you think that I spent all of that time trying to push you two together?"
" I always figured that it was because you loved him and besides he insisted that we were friends just as much as I did."
" Sweetie he did that because he thought it was what you wanted and even now I couldn't see him being selfish enough to do anything that might make you unhappy."
She was right. Adam was one of the most unselfish people that I knew and that made what I did even worse because it was one of the most selfish things that I could have possibly done.
" I don't love Adam like that and I knew it but a part of me wondered and now I have screwed everything up because of it. I'll be shocked if they both don't hate me."
" I think that they are both hurt right now and I can't promise that either of them will ever come around but I know how important you are to the both of them so I would just give them some space and time and hopefully it will all work itself out." She gave me a squeeze before going to make dinner. I spent the rest of the night just hanging out with my mother and getting caught up on family gossip, which was something that I missed. It was starting to get late and I was contemplating getting ready for bed since my mom had put done AJ awhile ago and had went to bed herself not long after and I was getting restless. I laid my head down and as I was about to drift off to sleep I thought I heard what sounded like a knock at the front door. It was almost one in the morning and I had no idea who it could be, if it was even anybody. It was probably the product of my over stressed mind. I went to lie down once again but this time I was sure that I had heard someone knocking at the door. I got up and felt a small ball of fear in the pit of my stomach. Usually the only time that someone showed up at someone else's door this late at night was if there was something really bad happening. I slowly made my way to the door and opened it, bracing myself for the worse. I felt another wave of tension knot through my body as I peeked around the door and saw who was standing on the other side.
" Did you make that doctors appointment yet?" he asked as I went around the kitchen cleaning up the non existent mess in an effort to keep myself busy.
" No I didn't but babe you really need to stop worrying. I'm fine." I said in my best reassuring tone
" Man if I didn't know you and Burs better I would think that there was something going on. He was acting really weird when I called him today."
I knew by the tone of his voice that he meant it as a joke but my body instantly went still. I took a deep breath and turned around to face him, dropping the sponge that I had been cleaning with onto the counter.
" Patrick there is something that I have to tell you." I said in a voice that was barely above a whisper. I couldn't even look at him and as I started to talk the words just came pouring out of my mouth like I had to get them all out in one breath
" I kissed Adam. I don't know why I did it but I did and I'm really sorry. I was just confused and I promise that it didn't mean anything and that it will never ever happen again." I was still looking at the floor and I waited for the yelling that I was sure was to follow my little outburst but nothing came. I finally peeked up and saw a look of total shock on his face. It took a few minutes of silence but finally he got up and left without a word. Once again I started to cry but I couldn't wallow in my misery for long since I had someone else who depended on me to take care of them and I couldn't very well do that if I was a complete wreck. I figured that he would have to come back sooner or later either to talk or to get his stuff and I knew that I had needed the distance and I figured that he would too. A few hours passed and I still hadn't heard from him and I was starting to get worried. Right before I went to bed I got a call from Tazer.
" Mel Patrick just showed up at my door drunker then hell asking me if he could spend the night. What the hell is going on between you two?"
I winced as he described the state that he was in. I only hoped that he hadn't done anything stupid while getting that drunk.
" Did he say anything?" I asked not wanting to tell Tazer anymore than I had to.
" Not anything that made any sense. But then again he could barely walk, much less talk. So..."
" We just had a fight that's all. Please just do me a huge favor and make sure that he is taken care of for the rest of the night. If he wants to tell you more he can do it then."
" Sure I can do that. Do you want me to try to get him to call you in the morning or something."
" You can try but I highly doubt that he will want to speak with me."
" Okay. Mel I'm sure what ever it was that happened can be fixed. You guys have been through to much together for him to throw it all away over something stupid."
" Yeah I hope so. Thanks."
In all of this I hadn't considered telling Adam what was going on. He was probably the first person that I should have called when shit hit the fan but I was to busy wallowing in my own misery to think about what all of this might mean for him. I quickly dialed his number and it almost went to voicemail before he picked up.
" So I guess you just couldn't keep shit to yourself." he said instead of a greeting
" I couldn't help it. I had to tell him Bur."
" Yeah well thanks for the warning. He showed up here yesterday night and told me if I so much as look at you again that he is going to do everything in his power to get my ass traded to the maple leafs or some other shitty canadian team."
" He can't do that, can he?"
" I don't know but if they had to choose between me and him who do you think that they would pick?"
" Does Karri know?"
" No. At least I don't think so. She was out shopping when he showed up."
" I'll try to do whatever I can to fix this. I promise."
" Whatever."
With that he hung up the phone on me. I looked at the phone for a few seconds in shock. In all of the time that we had known each other he had never talked to me like that and frankly it was a little scary to hear him that angry. It was just one more thing to have to deal with after things hopefully cooled down. As much as I just wanted to sit I knew that I had better get things started for breakfast since it was almost time for AJ to get up and he wouldn't care. I went to get him a little while later and sat him in his high chair to feed him. Despite everything I found myself smiling as he cooed and tried to talk. It was nice to know that I had one thing in my life that I hadn't managed to screw up, at least not yet. I had thought about turning my phone off after the conversation that I had had with Adam but I couldn't do it, not on the slim chance that Patrick might call me to talk. He didn't and I wasn't surprised at all. I knew what I needed to do and I made a few calls before I packed a couple of small bags and headed up to stay with my mom for a few days. I text Pat to let him know that I wasn't in the house and that he could come home if he wanted to but I never got a reply. One phone call and three hours later I was pulling into the driveway of my parents house. My mom came out gave me a hug before taking the baby and going inside. She didn't press for information and I was glad. She knew that eventually I would tell her what was going on and I knew that I could count on her to give me advice, even if it was something that I wasn't going to want to hear. I turned off my phone and put it away. The only person who needed to know where I was right now did and he had my mothers number if he really needed to get a hold of me that badly. It wasn't until after dinner that I even brought up that something was wrong.
" So he finally admitted that at one point in your relationship that he was in love with you and then you go and kiss him?" she asked as she raised her eyebrow at me
" Why do you make it sound like something that everyone knew but me?" I asked trying to keep my temper down. My mom actually rolled her eyes at me like I had just said the dumbest thing that she had ever heard.
" Because it was something that everyone could see but you. Why do you think that I spent all of that time trying to push you two together?"
" I always figured that it was because you loved him and besides he insisted that we were friends just as much as I did."
" Sweetie he did that because he thought it was what you wanted and even now I couldn't see him being selfish enough to do anything that might make you unhappy."
She was right. Adam was one of the most unselfish people that I knew and that made what I did even worse because it was one of the most selfish things that I could have possibly done.
" I don't love Adam like that and I knew it but a part of me wondered and now I have screwed everything up because of it. I'll be shocked if they both don't hate me."
" I think that they are both hurt right now and I can't promise that either of them will ever come around but I know how important you are to the both of them so I would just give them some space and time and hopefully it will all work itself out." She gave me a squeeze before going to make dinner. I spent the rest of the night just hanging out with my mother and getting caught up on family gossip, which was something that I missed. It was starting to get late and I was contemplating getting ready for bed since my mom had put done AJ awhile ago and had went to bed herself not long after and I was getting restless. I laid my head down and as I was about to drift off to sleep I thought I heard what sounded like a knock at the front door. It was almost one in the morning and I had no idea who it could be, if it was even anybody. It was probably the product of my over stressed mind. I went to lie down once again but this time I was sure that I had heard someone knocking at the door. I got up and felt a small ball of fear in the pit of my stomach. Usually the only time that someone showed up at someone else's door this late at night was if there was something really bad happening. I slowly made my way to the door and opened it, bracing myself for the worse. I felt another wave of tension knot through my body as I peeked around the door and saw who was standing on the other side.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Everything We Had Chapter 33
To EHisCDN. Sorry for playing with your emotions but I couldn't resist. lol. I'm not sure if you are aware of this but it was your comments on my posts since you started following that gave me the idea for the last couple of chapters so really it's all your fault anyways.lol. And that line that Burish said was inspired by the Roomie video that the Hawks put out last year with Bur and Sharpie in it, which is hilarious. It's just one of the many reasons why I love these two guys. That and the fact that they are both gorgeous doesn't hurt either. To the people who are reading but can't/don't comment, I hope you are still liking the story. So on to the next chapter.
The rest of the week went by without incident but there was this underlying current of tension between us that had never been there before. We were more careful around each other in what we said and especially when it came to physical contact. And when I say careful I mean that we pretty much avoided it all together. Karri came home a few days earlier than expected and she knew right away that something wasn't right but she seemed to take my explanation that I wasn't feeling well without question, much like Patrick had when I talked to him. He was getting concerned and told me that I should make an appointment with a doctor as soon as he got back into town. I agreed just keep him from worrying but little did he know that the kind of doctor I needed to see was the kind with a couch, not a stethoscope. They finally were on there way home and even though I knew it was going to be late when they got in I tried to stay up to see him. I must have fallen asleep on the couch because the next thing that I knew I felt a hand brushing across my face and lips being placed on mine.
" Hey what are you doing sleeping down here?" he said as he sat his bag down and shrugged off his suit jacket
" I was waiting for you but I guess I fell asleep." I said trying not to yawn.
" It's okay I figured you'd be sleeping but I'm glad your up. I've missed you."
I leaned up so I could pull him down to me and he had to brace himself with his hands to keep from falling on me completely. I loosened his tie and threw it on the floor and started in on the buttons of his dress shirt.I was desperate to get him undressed. He took my hand and kissed the inside of my wrist to slow things down.
" It's nice to know that you want me so bad and I know that it's late but we do have a little while.
He grabbed my other hand and stretched my arms out over my head. He kept a light hold on my wrists as he settled himself between my legs and stretched out his body over mine. He nestled his face into my neck and started to nip and lick at my skin. I tried to bring my hips up against his but he had my lower half pinned down pretty well with his body. He let go of my hands to finish undoing his his shirt and I sat up long enough to get mine off before he resumed his position over me. I closed my eyes as he kissed me again, his teeth biting at my bottom lip to get me to open my mouth, which I did.
" Tell me what you want." he said in a low whisper, his lips against my ear
" I want you, just you." I said and I meant it. I felt like an idiot for even questioning my relationship with the man the was above me. Ever since he had messed up he had kept the promise to me and did everything that I needed him to and this was how I repaid him. I covered my mouth with his as I tried to drown out all of thoughts that were running through my head.
" Babe what's wrong? Why are you crying?" he asked as he leaned back so he could look at me
I touched my face and found that he was right. My face was wet and I hadn't even realized that I had started. I thought about telling him but I couldn't bring myself to say the words that would break his heart.
" I'm sorry. I think I'm just overly emotional from being so tired and not feeling good."
" We don't have to do this now if you don't want. I can wait." he said as he tried to move off of me
I grabbed onto him to make sure that he wasn't going to move
" No I want to do this. I really need you. Please?" I pleaded. He looked at me and resisted for a few seconds while he looked at me but he finally let me pull him back down on top of me. He shed the rest of his clothes and helped me with he rest of mine. I lost myself in the familiar sensations that started to course through my body as he slid into me and started to move inside me. After awhile I could feel my climax start to approach and my body tensed and I tried to muffle the sounds that were coming out of my mouth in his shoulder. He finished a few minutes after me and he let out a contented sigh as he moved off to the side of me as much as the couch would let him. I turned away from him so my back was against his front and I closed my eyes as he kissed the back of my neck and lightly ran his hands over the skin of my side. I tried not to feel another hand on me, one that was bigger and rougher in texture doing the same thing but it wasn't easy.
" Babe why don't we go upstairs and take a quick shower and head to bed. I know that you are tired and so am I. We can talk more tommorrow."
I agreed and when I got up I put on the dress shirt that he had been wearing when he came in while he threw his boxers back on. He grabbed me around the waist and gave me a kiss before leading me up the stairs into the bathroom. We took the quick shower that he suggested and he fell asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow. I couldn't sleep right away, I just laid there and watched him as he laid there with a small smile on his face and I knew then that I was going to have to tell him what had happened. I ran my fingers through his hair that was starting to get just a little longer and curly again.
" I'm so sorry babe. I hope that you can forgive me." I whispered as I kissed his forehead. I snuck out of bed and went to sleep on the couch. He deserved to know what happened and then he could make up his mind if he even wanted to be with me anymore.
The rest of the week went by without incident but there was this underlying current of tension between us that had never been there before. We were more careful around each other in what we said and especially when it came to physical contact. And when I say careful I mean that we pretty much avoided it all together. Karri came home a few days earlier than expected and she knew right away that something wasn't right but she seemed to take my explanation that I wasn't feeling well without question, much like Patrick had when I talked to him. He was getting concerned and told me that I should make an appointment with a doctor as soon as he got back into town. I agreed just keep him from worrying but little did he know that the kind of doctor I needed to see was the kind with a couch, not a stethoscope. They finally were on there way home and even though I knew it was going to be late when they got in I tried to stay up to see him. I must have fallen asleep on the couch because the next thing that I knew I felt a hand brushing across my face and lips being placed on mine.
" Hey what are you doing sleeping down here?" he said as he sat his bag down and shrugged off his suit jacket
" I was waiting for you but I guess I fell asleep." I said trying not to yawn.
" It's okay I figured you'd be sleeping but I'm glad your up. I've missed you."
I leaned up so I could pull him down to me and he had to brace himself with his hands to keep from falling on me completely. I loosened his tie and threw it on the floor and started in on the buttons of his dress shirt.I was desperate to get him undressed. He took my hand and kissed the inside of my wrist to slow things down.
" It's nice to know that you want me so bad and I know that it's late but we do have a little while.
He grabbed my other hand and stretched my arms out over my head. He kept a light hold on my wrists as he settled himself between my legs and stretched out his body over mine. He nestled his face into my neck and started to nip and lick at my skin. I tried to bring my hips up against his but he had my lower half pinned down pretty well with his body. He let go of my hands to finish undoing his his shirt and I sat up long enough to get mine off before he resumed his position over me. I closed my eyes as he kissed me again, his teeth biting at my bottom lip to get me to open my mouth, which I did.
" Tell me what you want." he said in a low whisper, his lips against my ear
" I want you, just you." I said and I meant it. I felt like an idiot for even questioning my relationship with the man the was above me. Ever since he had messed up he had kept the promise to me and did everything that I needed him to and this was how I repaid him. I covered my mouth with his as I tried to drown out all of thoughts that were running through my head.
" Babe what's wrong? Why are you crying?" he asked as he leaned back so he could look at me
I touched my face and found that he was right. My face was wet and I hadn't even realized that I had started. I thought about telling him but I couldn't bring myself to say the words that would break his heart.
" I'm sorry. I think I'm just overly emotional from being so tired and not feeling good."
" We don't have to do this now if you don't want. I can wait." he said as he tried to move off of me
I grabbed onto him to make sure that he wasn't going to move
" No I want to do this. I really need you. Please?" I pleaded. He looked at me and resisted for a few seconds while he looked at me but he finally let me pull him back down on top of me. He shed the rest of his clothes and helped me with he rest of mine. I lost myself in the familiar sensations that started to course through my body as he slid into me and started to move inside me. After awhile I could feel my climax start to approach and my body tensed and I tried to muffle the sounds that were coming out of my mouth in his shoulder. He finished a few minutes after me and he let out a contented sigh as he moved off to the side of me as much as the couch would let him. I turned away from him so my back was against his front and I closed my eyes as he kissed the back of my neck and lightly ran his hands over the skin of my side. I tried not to feel another hand on me, one that was bigger and rougher in texture doing the same thing but it wasn't easy.
" Babe why don't we go upstairs and take a quick shower and head to bed. I know that you are tired and so am I. We can talk more tommorrow."
I agreed and when I got up I put on the dress shirt that he had been wearing when he came in while he threw his boxers back on. He grabbed me around the waist and gave me a kiss before leading me up the stairs into the bathroom. We took the quick shower that he suggested and he fell asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow. I couldn't sleep right away, I just laid there and watched him as he laid there with a small smile on his face and I knew then that I was going to have to tell him what had happened. I ran my fingers through his hair that was starting to get just a little longer and curly again.
" I'm so sorry babe. I hope that you can forgive me." I whispered as I kissed his forehead. I snuck out of bed and went to sleep on the couch. He deserved to know what happened and then he could make up his mind if he even wanted to be with me anymore.
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